SHADOWS OF REALITY..Contd..May.15.10

its already morning hrs
I am not inclined to sleep
its not that this day is work free

I often get trapped by this instinct

outside its a dry windy storms with dust spells

I am supposed to wait for my cousin
coming on Punjab Mail
by 420hrs he should be here

these are some of the occupations at hand

but my heart is hooked somewhere

its almost finished with your hopes
like a jealous saint who has realised the shallowness of godliness

but a shadow heart with me
like a ghost
it exists somewhere
in plasmatic entity

it creates and destroys
the meanings of my being around

I by default rely upon its wisdom

it has many romantic and hidden peripherals

whenever I am alone
it brings you closer to me
irrespective of reality

says
look!!
there is nothing like reality and non-reality

I do wonder at its wisdom

it doesn't stop too short
and add
physical proximity and hallucinated possessions are only a gradient of the wholesome reality
just like the concept of God

I pause for a moment

whether the equation fits every where

I search my soul
it says yes

but I have lot un - answered queries

my soul intervenes

better not ask any more

I stop short

and ask myself
who u and me are

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