GOOD EVENING MY LOVE JUNE 30.12 .9.57 PM

I know you have seen me live 
the charlie Chaplin put on Einstein track 
well I am not lady Diana
Nor do I am Lata Mangeshkar


I do have literally no expectation
one day you shall come live


I make my own sand dunes
to be thrown away 
with the whims 
Thy is the desire of fools


I do know a lot of psychiatry


Next day
it shall come
the way you wish


I have put the contradictions
on a clinical way of science


have a nice evening


do say 
my love
to your heart

INVERTED SPRUCE JUNE 29.12. 8.34 PM

Today I have that moments which are meaningless to me

I wanted to search my love

and the environment gave me the gandiv

I know love is too exotic

so are my wishes to find you

infinite some I may be

but I really don't know what for I am here 

when you doesn't seem to be around

I addressed you

too far too defined

I really find hard

why my love is not visible to me

I can see what I wish to

Why I fail to see you

I ask my heart

its too annoyed with me

It says go and meet her

I know 

its not going to matter at all

me and my heart never see eye to eye

GOOD MORNING BANK OF BARODA DEFENCE COLONY NEW DELHI INDIA

Its morning hrs 
I have a lot of this moments 
looking the environs
searching through the nanons


where my love got lost


my heart often at loggerheads with me
too impatient
to find you


I say it
darling 
love is too exotic
why u look every grass
to the roots
it staggers hard


its too sticky


one day I was standing at the central market of Gurgaon
I have been there with my friends on chrism us chorus days
it was a different environs
the introvert nerves of mine
but company makes me the evolved infinite


Now my senior most sweat heart lives there
but darling
I simply hardly visit her place


there are many reasons


probably my heart is sick of
the dunes
I make at every other moment


it has just asked
whether you have got married


what should I tell it


there are too many marriage palaces


it retorts back
why the hell I don't come to you


I really don't know
what the difference
shall it make


Darwin law shall stand
always at your hand


and darling
my brain
its infinite some 
the other end of universe


my soul whispers
then simply forget




Love is simple
for the dummies only.

INVERTED SPRUCE JUNE 26. 12. 8.19 PM

I have done a lot to put my ghost flat into shape

I know its a damn boring job

probably monotony and love come on this platform

Darwin has not been understood by his own people

its not a big thing

reason is too simple

he being a greatest ever scientific philosopher

There is hardly any institute on earth that teaches the philosophy of science

video games and the like

I know its psychiatric disorders inviting mechanism only

Any how

this picture is of my most ever loved sweet hearts and friends

yester night I wrote you a lot

probably you could not make out any thing out of it

I know its evening hrs with you too

I am too lethargic guy around

may be I shall find some time 

your office is hardly a few minutes drive

from my place of duty

but darling 

morning hrs

I simply cant tell you

I have cleansed my Etios

I love driving

but it shall make  a difference

I know Darwin law

that stands in your hand only.

INVERTED SPRUCE JUNE 25.12 9.54 PM

Today I was standing at Bank of Baroda counter of Nirman Bhawan New Delhi India
I was searching you 
may be you have known me and my worth


The lady officer from whom I got my passbook updated knew all
so did I
but she was also wondering why you still missed such an opportunity


my heart asks me 
Darlin 
is it so
I said what


It whispered
Love is an opportunity only


I was literally stump bold by my heart


I kept quiet too long


I deposited the money


My heart asked again


is it that


I said what


my heart whispered again


depositing money will fetch her to you


I was literally jostled out of my all senses


but still I kept quiet


my heart didn't budge


it said


Darling I told you
Lets go on car to Defence Colony Branch


I still kept quiet


it was nervous by this time


I really don't know


how to tell my heart


the existential truth around me


one day I saw you 
my heart whispered 
I said what


bullshit say I love you


I didn't 
I know my introvert Nature


your colleague officer of your age
knew 
What I wanted to hide


but my heart again whispers


I said what


bullshit at least Now say I love you


I say instead 
its Darwin law


it retorts back


hell with you
say !! I love you


before I could afford to pull out of my oblivion


I suddenly got to know
world is watching me at this moment


but I do say


Are you awakened at this moment
its 3.13 AM Indian standard Time with me
you can have a flash back of my love
the moment 
you feel the monotony of work
I know 
dedication to work
is a shadow of you


May be your half aura 
it has arisen 
to  Nanons of mine


my brain
the bullshit Einstein with me
opines
I don't think so


I know
the bank job is highly taxing


But darling
I am bloody "wela" on my seat
all the time
still I feel a misfit around


My soul now opts to speak


Don't you think 
you're a bit more outspoken


I keep quiet for too too long


and my quiet nerves
its an eternal truth


probably 
a day shall come


I may come to your office


I drive Toyota Etios
you can recognize me
it just smiles with me


my heart again says


bloody fool say I love you


I again see the horizon


I see your fingers working


and you
walking too elegant
to pick up the files


lost is the data
of mine
and yours.

Good Evening Mr Toyoda. June 23.12 8.42 PM

My dear Toyoda


I know you have exhumingly work schedule


My be you'r hooked to, at now


I am writing a poem for you on existential basis


You promised me Lexus Diesel highest model along with Fortrunner Diesel highest model


Darling my wait quotient is infinite for war and love put on peace frame work




I know promises to be kept


woods may be deep enough
to sane nerves proliferate.


I plan to visit your outlet at Gurgaon Delhi India
Yes ! Grace Toyota


nothin my reserved people of India have dented it too much


I know its a sad dist behavior of the brute force


But its a part of our life


have a nice time


shall see you through email
but don't send dummy message


I believe in straight talks 

MORNING LOVE JUNE 23. 12 .3.23 AM

I have searched the faces
too instinctively


may be some one
that may smile


my heart often opines
Darlin why don't you smile a bit


I keep quiet
but its queries haunt me
the last laugh of mine


I know
faces are infinite some
but why don't you


may be you are busy at your work


too occupied at the numeric s


I the docile
too naive
the spellings 


that can make my love


a bit 
closer to you


today is Saturday : I hope I may see you at work


written for lady officer of Bank of Baroda Defence Colony New Delhi.




closer to you
I may stand
if you really know


the dunes


I make for you


I know the world is watching me.
but I really don't know where are you.

INVERTED SPRUCE JUNE 22.12 9.14 PM

I know 
I am too introvert


my heart says
darling I want to talk 
some one


that's mine


I see the horizons
mundane too


scan the cosmos


may be 
your voice 
have some nanonic parts left


my heart opines


create a mirage of mine


I do wonder


why my heart doesn't know


what I say it too often

INVERTED SPRUCE JUNE 22 .12 . 7.59 PM

Today when I was dethroning the lies of the world

I did recall you
but I really don't know

why I remember you
whilst its known on my head

the thorny bushes
the arid zones
the endless horizons

Is it we have to live in ellutions  only
may be the replies are questions itself

my heart says
darling you are going younger
as the days pass by

I keep quiet

I know my heart
but I do wonder

when
my heart shall know me

INVERTED SPRUCE JUNE 21 .12 9.05 PM

My Dad hardly had a life privileged with a fan during summer days.
The one I remember is a hand driven ceiling but like a big parda 


I live my Dad's life


I know its a notional in meaning


but love is what you conceptualize
else its just bullshit nothing


Its something otherwise too


probably every heart has own world


some match able


the rest remains the damn unfit nerves


When I see I am misfit every where
I do not remember my Dad 


my heart asks
is it a science


I say
probably yes


its says again
then explain


I keep quiet


I know 
my heart is itself the problem creator


but I always hide


the impossible notions around

INFLORESCENCE JUE 17,12 12.43 AM

me and my heart
stolen by the hypo crates


ask me 
at every second


where is my love


I ask instead
at every corner
beauty is there


but darling
you are that beautiful


no one accepts you
a fit guy around


some see your physique
the golden guys
the empty lines
the destiny of
wisdom infinite


the mirage of my love
strikes
as if




my love is just at my hand's distance


while I know


tu kahin bhi nahin hei

LOVE FEELS EXPRESSED ON A WASTE PAPER JUNE 14.12.10.02 PM

A day after
I saw you working
little fingers of thine


I did wonder
why  distant dreams
floated
I remained at work
catching some.


I put my best
but lost in oblivion


I still catch
some of it
oblivion strikes back


I do feel
the lost moments
that make live
some of your moments


Some how you make me understand


how it happened
I lost faith
Wherever I thrive hard


I make sand dunes
Love !! you bestowed
at a factor of chance


It gets blown away


I make a mirage
of your being around


A mirage of love


dew drops
lit large with
the fragrant feels
you gave


I still search
some of them
touching my heart and soul


I do ask myself
why you couldn't afford
a few steps


I take
every eve
to find
Where my love got lost.


written for lady officer of Bank of Baroda Defence Colony New Delhi. India.who handled my case of loan for my flat at Noida.

Humanity gone wrong. June 14.12 . 8.43 PM

Darlin Neha !


In this snap my daughter is seen on left side.


This snap can make me rotate earth at sweet wish of mine.


But I am not inclined to.




reason is simple.


my daughter is standing here.

INVERTED SPRUCE JUN 11.12 .10.49 PM

I have a typing pad
A truth which has the prowess to touch every heart and brain




My heart asks
why the bullshit big words are used for nothin around


I stop a while
see if I am really using what I have said


My heart interrupts again
Do you feel I am damn fool with you


I take a deep breath


and see
if you are 
some where
in the infinite some cosmos


that I can scan


at the sweet wish of mine


time and space stops 
at the touch of my finger


but I really asks my self


where is my heart. 

YES DARLING YOU ARE TOO TOO SWEAT : June,11.12 AM

I really put very heard 

how a person so infinite genius got failed at every point of her happening

Probably humanity  has seen her exteriors only

A person who chooses such auras

for her pen to work

I have no words

that can simply refer to her.

INVERTED SPRUCE JUNE 9.12 . 3.32 AM

Darlin Neha !!


Good Morning !


I have posted a snap of my senior most sweat heart. She is kiran Malhotra. 


but my purpose is not introducing this infinite genius to you.


I joined Punjab univ Chandigarh in 1976. Her mom was with me for two yrs.


but still my purpose is not that of introduction 


one day say about 1.7 yrs back I went to her home with my friend and I came to know this girl is Kiran and she has one sis Anu just like your sis.


Even now I am not introducing any person to you


what happened she got a place at my this bullshit pc by a chance factor and she told me one name 


that name is Shiv Kumar Batalvi


but Darling I am yet to say something to you


I live in my univ days
whilst you clearly directed me to live in present




have a nice time


Love you.

INFLORESCENCE JUNE 8,12 4.17 AM

Neha !!


how r u my darlin.


I am fine here.
yaar mid night jag kei teri nal gal nahin karagei ta hor ki gana meinu ta aunda nahi.




have a nice day
with a truck load of Love.

INVERTED SPRUCE JUNE 6.12 9.27 PM

Darlin
where you are focused
I have been there 
with an empty hands


I often see my hands
just to know
what is written
and hidden too


yeilo mei hari piya


I know these words
yet to understand


why I could not afford 
to write it
for me myself

NAKED TRUTH JUNE 5.12 . 9.08 PM

I have taken this picture just now however I have seen this many a times


the analogous example is my endeavor to finish OBCs and SCs from Indian soils.


I have known this curse way back in school days.


I suddenly focused myself to the ground reality
Reason is I always remain lost in my own world
nothing to do with bullshit mundanes


But  


horrific reality is
India is literally going to implode


by the time 
it will be known
\
every thing must have been blown away
with the winds


one can ask
from where these winds shall come




well I will prefer to keep quiet


and say instead


can you forecast your bullshit weather


then how the hell you can think
that you know when the catastrophe is going to come


however,  I have explained it earlier


have some efforts.