atta weighing machine.

real life is somewhat can be understood as compared to storage of fissile material. USSR tech brain could have better placed the storage part not in the reactor site as accidents are not only because of human factor but there are many many others much complex ones. navu and ricky which you chose vs their pop corn and 2.5 lakh kilometers between CHD and Delhi is another g factor only your heart can tell you that love is something that can not be measured on a say atta weighing machine.

a fear psychosis hidden hard at your heart.

I have tried to recreate your feeling in my room of this ghost house but if life is taken in that way only what should I say I know you have a strong point in not diluting your relevance, a fear psychosis hidden hard at your heart.

pure sodium in water.

probably I forget that you are a big star and this tag is like pure sodium in water.

what I mean to say.

I have taken your privileged snaps probably you may need extra nerves to get what I mean to say.

I do not know why I am so lonely.

sometimes I feel your snaps are beautiful but may be its turning out to be a de facto existential to prevent you to come to me then I feel I do not have a snap of anu even then I lost her.I do not know why I am so lonely. 

once I wrote

once I wrote
meiri tanhaein'
pushti hein' 
bar bar mujh sei
hum tanha hein'
ya fir tum

Nirala did for the love of lord krishna.

I have practically nothing which I can write for you. I can go on writing some poems as Nirala did for the love of lord krishna. Then I feel lord exists in abstract connotations you may also choose for that then the scenario will be again I will be all alone as I have been in this flat since say 1998.

uus kei paas time hi kahn hei

Nothing love bhatak rehei hein terei intzar mei anu to school jati hei uus kei paas time hi kahn hei, tera to' dunia ka danda tujhe meirei pass kanhan aanei dega.

my vacuous life.

Its a difficult job to make you understand what your click s or say picking up my entries really make to what a life can be known. I have seen its you only and anu who has a real taste for my writing the remaining are simply inquisitive ones. None of you is available to accompany me in my vacuous  life. 

these chaps have lost their common sense.

Deepika mundane peoples have literally gone hydra headed eg the advocate seema gulati who was hand in hand with baghla and sons kapal minhas and associates krishan sukheja and associates today knocked and put my powers under horrible annoyance quotient . Probably these chaps have lost their common sense of even mundane paradigm. 

she will maintain her courage

Today another letter was in my dak folder ( probably you may not understand what is this bullshit dak folder ) it was speaking the devastation of this war that anu single handedly faced with such an unthinkable courage to say like that your whole efforts at bombay industry are minuscule in front of it. Even now she is threatened by the system. I hope she will maintain her courage to fit and fight for mundane and throw away the yolk of criminality. 

love I am so poor I lost her happiness.

Love you may not have time for me as your market value may decline the moment you come to live with me. I know you are a bubbly happy persona people get their happiness and pay for the tickets. Thus goes the chain of commerce let not be that much professor at economics. One day anu was happy with me. I was wondering is it happiness that beautiful. But love I am so poor I lost her happiness.

this much I can write to you. Oct.25.2014

I was thinking to write something then I thought you have a world of your own you hardly need my this non sense at all and how its going to make a difference at all but then I thought at least this much I can write to you.

another bali.

Probably you could not find a direct communication at your level. You have not understood that you have more chances to become another bali. I may write at a later dt on the same snap. 

fantasy is no life at all. Oct,21.2014

there is no straight reply what you may propose to ask for. I have no intention to pen down a theory but lonely life is something only lets not define it. good heart brain and good life is generally prone to attacks that destroy ones basic s of existence but then you have to manufacture a life. its very simple I cant come to you and vice verse and fantasy is no life at all. 

I ask too often. 19.Oct 2014

Love I say to myself 
lets go somewhere
away from the mad
mad is the air

I keep quiet
lets love cool down

dust is thy world
storms are the ways
means of passing
a bit 
a bit

I fail to know
my own words

why a fresh breathe
cant be there

I ask too often

I open my opaque pc. 19 Oct.2014

When I wake up
I search hard
where you have been

where you have gone

my little fingers
they ask
love 
fetch her

I open my opaque pc
put life into

say 
look 
this is your love

apnei sei hi puch lo.18 Oct 2014

kya kahun
kaisa hei 
pyar meira

apnei sei hi puch lo

na zanei yei kya kahania hein.Oct.17.2014

Dil bahut udas hei
kahata hei
lei chal kanhin
ja pyar ka basera ho

meri sunsan nazarei
aur mera dil

na zanei
yei kya kahania hein

meirei charo aur
lipti huin.

have you seen now..Oct.16.2014

my heart asks who is it
I say let me see
it goes on asking
I go on 
let me see

it pauses

I wonder
what has happened

it politely says

have you seen now.

shadows laugh. Oct.15.2014

my desolate moments
taunt me
hei
unlucky chap

I keep quiet 

shadows follow
as if
time has struck
a tone
a note
not known to me

I ask 
is it true

I find 
no reply

shadows laugh
some times
at me
may be 
at other moments

on them selves.

Deepika you are politely informed dont put any sarcastic connotations to my pencil unthinkable cosmic powers its me only who is keeping them quiet else they dont bother of your systems etc etc.

then I feel painting is not required infact. Oct.06.2014

I dont know I was looking for a snap with whom I can talk a little bit. Your most of the one s are too away from my choice of happening any how sometimes I feel I am not a good painter then I feel painting is not required infact. 

I am very sad try if you can come. Oct.05.2014

Your om shati om has a minuscule touch if you have read my remarks of the happenings around let not be in a discussion pattern of my pencil entirety. I am very sad try if you can come. 

I have further no comments. Oct.10.2014

I have taken this snap just to remain intact and see the music of time ahead. As I earlier told you my friend krishan sukheja has played a kapal minhas but further I am not supposed to pen down. He has boasted that hell with his nautanki he is not bothered I have further no comments. 

I hope you can understand my English language. Oct.2.2014

I think I have written many letters to you and also have appreciated your intelligent nerves but probably you are not aware you are not equipped with that know how that can make you fight the mundanes. The paraphernalia which you happen to have around you is rather a hindrance to normal life and burden on your normal life and to a certain extent its an antithesis of existentials. I hope you can understand my English language. 

This is not a letter but Sep 28.2014

its something that I wanted to have one of your snap that can make me a little struggle worthy. You are relaxing and may be enjoying too its  a privileged time of yours that probably bypassed me. I do try many methods to keep myself intact but I know its never ending process.

there is hardly any thing interesting to live with me. Sep.04.2014

Love
I have taken this snap of yours to tell you real life is probably least known to you. You may find that there is hardly any thing interesting to live with me. 

your nursing hand may fetch a meaning to me. Sept 22.2014

Today I am not well. There are hardly some moments only when this equation is not available. May be one day your nursing hand may fetch a meaning to me. 

May be a day can come. Aug.21.2014

Love
I do not know how come I get an energy quotient to start writing to you whilst I know very well I simply pull on to the truest meaning of the scientific term. May be a day can come you will come to become my eternal relevance. 

Its your world now.Aug.20.2014

Saturday, January 19, 2008

FIRST LOVE.contd

she was probably convinced by this time
a wrong start may be at her side

it was late at night
but none of us has to go anywhere

i was pleased to see her around
i know she is too moody to find time for me
my heart was surfing thro' her beauty
i do realise
its beyond a description quotient

Love!
i broke the silence
if forget the advanced sciences for a while
a reply is at your arm's length

she was visibly happy
at my optimistic tone

i pointed my finger
at her

she said
what do you mean?

my heart smiled
but i was serious this time

probably i didn't forget the advanced sciences

(to be continued)

source inspire: shingly bird, mallika sherawat, shipra.v . pu chd india

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my heart is optimistic not me. Aug.15.2014

Love
my heart says when you will come to me air shall have a breathe you have longed  for with gist full of wishes. I have heard it happens but sometimes I feel may be my heart is optimistic not me. 

it asks just for the askance sake.Aug.14.2014

Love
my heart asks me profusely subtle question , why you have taken three snaps exactly same. I take a deep breath and feel how good it could be my heart could have understood you or say me. I do not know how to please it as it asks just for the askance sake. 

may a day come. Aug.12.2014

my heart whispers
love its not fair

you are a hardy bush
prickles everywhere
bad taste of what not
flowers too poisonous
to be worthy of 

but love
where should I reside

I keep quiet

may a day come

you can tell it.

I was searching you to taste the deserts. Aug.10.2014

My heart asks me can you tell me what actually happens if you are loved. I do not understand its question. I know its a way of its being with you and you are too busy at your work and even if I write an encyclopedia for it the question may not get answered. 
day before yesterday I went to cp for an official work. The work was ofcourse very tough to achieve and it was a failed attempt and wastage of time. I asked the company to leave me alone. I thought Deepika may not come but let us create deepika around. I went to haldiram its I feel L block of cp. When I ordered for hot chocolate fudge small the boy on the other side looked into my happening around and then saw around too. He returned the balance with thanks and come again. 

I was searching you to taste the deserts. 

I pass my vacant moments with you. Aug.07.2014

Love
I have taken your this snap as its you and you only who can understand the genesis of love may be its time  driven.
I pass my vacant moments with you on the same equation same equation.