Its a ticklish aspect to say who is a better placed a non responding mundane or the pencil savvy heart. When we negotiate the live an ephemeral quotient is something that has to be surfed through irrespective of the fact whether its a competent point or not. Now if we add a romance factor its something a hidden threshold at one sides. Souring temperature of say 45 degree Celsius may turn to be attractive one for a cause. Its not a straight equation non the less. One may end a chaotic lot or may be it turn out to be a worthless equation all the time. I will continue.

or deepika kya siir fir gya hei tumara

I have already taken my psychiatric medicine and normally I should have been sleeping but sometimes tough heart simply fails to understand that bio chem howsoever potent and extent has limiting factor as it somehow can not create what a heart really  wishes for. I have often seen in my live environs people boasting of their possessed nerves possessed nerves situation possessed etc etc preaching advising suggesting having a what you say in american way of English disturbing the tranquility with their adages phrases orders and self made directorial dictates and the likes. I am happy therefore you aught to be happy. I am competent therefore you aught to be competent. or in chaste hindi ab bahut der ho gai hei bhagwan mei man lagao kirtan puja path hi sahara hei veisein' to' yeih sacch hi hei ki aap kei saath bahut nain'insafi hui hei par aab sathi milna or sukh milna aap jantei hein' bhaagon' ki baat hei. Kush raha karo ham to aap ko khush hi dekhna chatein' dil se, koi baat nahi kiran ka hubby tumhei jo bhi samajhta to' hei to' kutch aat pata sa , anu to' bhagi bhgai hi samjho to' acch hi hoga or deepika kya siir fir gya hei tumara  

my this half the other one as well

my this half the other one as well
asks
why sad is that mundane
not the one 
I paint

I tel him a small story. A story that has no end no start no mid no intervals may not be continuity or contiguity . One day I went to see her at her house. I knew the lost nerves of hers. I was calm pose as usual. Someone asked her go and say see off. I remember before approaching my etios I put my palms around her cheeks. The inquisitive saddened soul could not see my warmth and it fled away see its the crunch you have to adore. 
I was having an acquaintance in 8th standard some late mr.chabbra junior he was a fan of a math teacher who resided in my chopra wali gali surroundings his name has gone off my hard disc a well equipped mathematician of that time who demanded rs.150/pm from me for tuition I asked mom who expressed her helpless as the total amount she received from my the great ever possible trilock chand ahuja was rs.800 pm, I resiled  my fate and lost at mathematics , I was telling you of some late mr. he boasted of my definition the greatest ever possible he is you see helplessness, I could gather the vicious tentacles and nerve cum wisdom too. I have not changed the title of the letter may be its something lets not pen down.

but there is no salt to neutralize this instinct.

This is a beautiful face every body may admit at heart of hearts. There is no need of kumar vishwas neither of namo namo modi. India has practically gone haywire and madness of masses of 60s to 70s to 80s have resurfaced in a metamorphic manner and every female has adopted an instinct of a leech but there is no salt to neutralize this instinct.  

Let not insult the English language.

mehei thari shakal bhi jano
akal bhi jano
tharei baap ko bhi jano
tharei khandan ko bhi jano
thari nyat bhi jano
tharo seerat bhi jano
tharo baap maangeion' peesa
marho deemag abhi theekthaak hei shori

randi ko dena aacho hei
tharo baap kei jaal mei fasnei ki jagahein'
 I think I should not waste my time to put a more elaboration to this entry and let not insult the English language.

Tomorrow I plan to start my etios.

Love
this snap of your speaks of an empire of sciences which is relevant with your work and its related cardinals or paradigm and as you your self is another empire of sciences  so is my love to you. It means I have referred to three practically endless zones of sciences. Today is 18 I could not go for coloring my hair. Kiran was saying do it as some one may elope anu. I took it cool. Now I have touched upon another endless empire of sciences. Tomorrow I plan to start my etios. 

I replied yes sir.

Love
I really don't know what the hell these religious fanatics want to say. Its true that good poetry with sundri kei bal make even toilet look like the bloody ultimate in its essence and content potentials too.
Yesterday my managing director in chief the general in chief of armed forces opined that he is bloody product of a school where some shit were made roses and roses the vice verse and you see I am the only genius and potential and righteous on this bullshit earth. I replied yes sir. 

here you is deepika padukone only and only in absolute terms all inclusive

Love
had love been so cheap so to say like every chabi wala would have tonnes of military loads loaded with love.You will wonder at the concoction of verbs or words I have used here but its not simple to know why I have done so. You see may be I don't want to tell the way to gems. I know these chabi walas will first grab the opportunity at the most filthiest and stinky way. I will continue. Love who happens to be in a psyche or in physical possession or in likely physical possession or likely self belief to be one or in external existentials showers that entity remains zillions miles or say nautical miles away to realise or even understand what love stands for ; that entity may existentialize (note the word I have used ) the best plausible modus operandi love remains a mirage in this case in all implicit and explicit meanings. I will continue. I am still continuing : I know I have written a lot of kanpur life and what I yearned for whilst at a hotel at kanpur as the vacuous feels of life prickles the unbearable at such change of scene ( live ones not bloody sharukhan style one that bloody rub nei bana di jori shit ) ( you can notice I have literally first not believed the computer itself then I had to opt for this dummy machine only as at present I have no access to a paper dictionary ) , no phone call came from you ( here you is deepika padukone only and only in absolute terms all inclusive )

Love
I am going to pen down a love letter to you that probably needs a heart to decipher what I mean at the end of its words. Every Indian bitch who wishes a bloody flat ki chabbi will say dekha meinei samajh lya tha pahalei hi. I will continue. 

I have started a letter that may prove to be lethal for who so ever happens to read it. Krishan gopal was saying what problem I have with you. Probably the ingenious genius could not visualise I cant afford to have a problem with either you or anu or say even kiran too. You see bapa di junia is a punjabi word. I dont think I have written a tough punjabi which any person on earth can even say or think that its tough to understand. 

you may not worry I have no idea to elaborate on sciences further. 

Love
the kaleidoscopic content and value of life not withstanding melancholic perception is simply lethal as the laws place a bloody dirty bomb at your hands the moment you go the dirty knot. I think you give a title to it. I can only explain kids born to wombs who are in a yawing /( a state of mind where the person is lost in oblivion s whether of self or of outer existential s ) ,  status between 3-6 months of pregnancy will continue to fall victim irrespective of the fact that I have literally written the start and end of sciences over here.

lo ji mei tharo dhukho ka elaj kar dio

Indian masses in a mad race to bring changes has sent to parliament such peoples who have paucity of brains and mandate madness gives it another filthiest shape. India has seen such cases but masses probably do not bother to remember may be they are misled by sundri and bhagva factors or may some other local factors. Coke and pepsi was banned and asked to leave India whilst they pleaded India will loose foreign exchange and jobs plus market but madness went to that extent that Parliament turned itself into bloody factory or bania so to say like and some bloody 77 was brought into the life of India lo ji mei tharo dhukho ka elaj kar dio 

I do not know what language I can speak.

I am sketching a life of say 1978 at univ a place of too uncertain nerves provided one has. I could not develop how to speak in English and tell what exactly I mean to say. We were thinking IAS compulsory speech in English if your medium is English could be understood by kumar vishwas of that time. Naturally he is not first first of non sense I remember some VP singh made a pull able model of bofors and made it swing every where in particular in hindi belt of India. Everybody know he is the person who made rajini a shit business not congress of India. But kejriwal will say lo ji lo marho naro kei hovo ga fir. I remember a person known as some bani ram bagri he devised his own kejriwal and anna hazare business and was sent to the peoples house by the peoples only yaar, not once three timesd ie for 15 yrs : bhai logo thei jareion' socho pani mei sei kender ki sarkar bijli yaani thari tatak bolion' bhai sarkar jab mei sei tatak nikal leivein' to baki kei bacho foko pani bhai tharo khetan' mei foko pani bhajeion' kender ki sarkar bhai thei socho fir tharo fasal kiso ho payein' I was telling you of a person who narrated something after every prayer in the morning hrs at school life, I have searched my best what exactly he wanted to tell us but probably I need more efforts. I was going to my work at univ and got interrupted by some person who happened to be a black and wanted to inquire of say the petty offices and the like. After a converse of say 15 minutes I said I hope I could convey what you wanted.  And added that I am not well versed with spoken English. He smiled and said but you are speaking English only and I understood exactly what I expected. I was not pleased as I knew IAS exam is different world and I know I got failed owing to this bloody business. I have been failed in HAS due to hindi only. I do not know what language I can speak.

I think it need s no title.

Love
today after so many days I have again started to walk on my desolate lanes of heart brain body existential s all put together and side by side too. I think it need s no title. 

I will try my best possible but I know kiran is not here.

Love
I am writing you a special love letter. I put my stay when anu asked me to do. Probably she forgot that I followed her love not the decorum. Kiran was with me and I gotta got to live a life the momentous  shower s of Nature I yarn for. Today again I have recreated the scene and brought some pudina dhania kacha aam two pieces of amla the vendor was opining why this when kacha aam is already there. I have washed it and lying in the kitchen. I will try my best possible but I know kiran is not here. 

Probably I have yet to learn the genii nerves of my teacher whom name was some Singh.

Love
I was at kiran house very recent. She is passionate warm a little possessive too. She was telling how some or I rather forgot a child so to say like cut her chappal as she wanted a new one because her sibling could get some similar etc. I remember I have earlier told you this one , but may be in a little different way, one day on a usual drill class was hooting and instinctively I too started but suddenly I realised that I was only left whilst head on my folded hands tilted on a bench , our history teacher kept his calm. One day he was again calm when I scored well in his subject. Probably I have yet to learn the genii nerves of my teacher whom name was some Singh. 

I was aghast to know every body was interested in his Rs. 100 only.

Love
g=gravity, one day I told my mom brother harichand that America has landed its scientists to say like as the word space was not known at that time owing to incipient nature of sciences available  he replied ayeirei bhai koi dharti pei hi khado mei photo shoto baat chaat kar li hogi thanei kei bero sein', I remember it was summer season of 1969. later on I learned whilst at univ that he was forced to live at the tube well at my dad agriculture land by my elder and was implicated in creating troubles at home I thought the sane nerves could prevail with the passage of time. Later on Haryana government announced a pension scheme for the old peoples at the rate to Rs.100 per month. I was aghast to know every body was interested in his Rs. 100 only. 

Its not that beauty is bad

Love
everybody has exposure to the so called info system and to the cauldron of drama at the sweet wishes. World has never been open to info hitherto. I remember a day when it was reported that two young persons one died in endless deserts whilst crossing over to a European country for livelihood another was saved by PM house as a special case on humanitarian grounds. Its not that beauty is bad but the way sundri bals have been projected to the gullible masses is the point of ponderance. I simply can say this bloody sundri bals can never think of what congress has done under Dr. Manmohan Singh to save such hearts to die a pathetic life. 

Deepika why dont you sleep yaar.

when I was studying sociology at my univ I encountered the whirlpools of the existential s on tarmac of life. Anna kejriwal Modi and bloody aum namo shiva the so called ramdev baba must be doing their bloody shit in some toilets. That shit has been spread everywhere at present. Kumar vishwas has done a nice job to wrap this shit with a love syndrome of sundri ke bal etc etc I think I have explained the sciences of pseudo target cell in bio tech at my web page but you need an extra effort to surf at and get a meaning out of it. When 2nd world war was got triggered up the scenario of economic cauldron getting molten up was the common thread if not the root cause. I know present crank hydra headed educated and un educated do know the smoldering bio mass gives rise to new generation of sprouting and flowers and bio ata as such with may be  some beautiful water stream showers and the like. BUT PROBABLY THEY DO NOT UNDERSTAND THAT ITS KEJRIWAL ANNA modi haramzada OM NAMO SHIVA CRANK S who make methane out of it and put a burning flame to it and become the messiah of every one however every body knows the end but no body wants to raise above the immediate self.

I knew even then I was comfortable. ( O' I am not correcting bullshit grammer.)

yes sometimes even small moments become life time things ( I know you were tuned to this bullshit ad' it has a nonsense value more rather a constructive one, why it could not have shown that if in need personal subject can be handled romantic way and 'quiet' rustic way of life or village life can be adopted as the far fetched villagers only go in open what is their bloody hell as people of this day take as going that way is against the norms of standard and happening way of life and sometime immoral pathetic not possible not feasible awkward not fit for my type I am bloody kumar vishwas sundri how I can I afford to do that etc etc. ) . I was invited to suhil kapoor wedding reema was unmarried at that time. Reema welcomed me but deriled my presence too. I think this line is sufficient for you to make out the script. I am stopping here only. ( I mean to say next episode now ) anu was with me and her brother too as etios moved smart on ellenabad road to sirsa. I noticed they were receiving frequent calls from their parents as to when they could reach their home. I knew anu is not at all ever felt like reema either the former reema or the latter wedding day reema. I knew even then I was comfortable. ( O' I am not correcting bullshit grammer.)

but only under your leadership.

Love simple things are very hard to understand. It is the reason I have started this letter to you. BJP and Kejriwal and group earned their pennies at their allocated places and did not do any damn thing. They noticed that if mega bucks can be had it would be only through playing such which should confuse the people and people should throng their voting buttons in bloody madness ever possible on Indian soil. It was the reason a crank and hawkish modi was chosen by rajnath and kejriwal by other who wanted mega bucks out of the corruption drama whilst they very well know the system they are going to introduce is going to create more and most ever wicked corruption. But that needs brain to understand congress may be wrong at many occasions its the only alternative but only under your leadership.

but I know you will not phone me even then.

Nothing love these bloody crank Bollywood writers they make hell nonsense of bloody common life and tell crank nerves nothing else. I will continue. I was in bathroom and it happened to be slippery as usual I forgot that one red chappal which I have that is extremely slippery underneath ( sole part ) and had a severe fall practically swirling my whole body twist y twirly and there was no chance of my being survived and probably ending in a comma hospital for mcd official to work the rest. Knee part has ofcourse been severely damaged that will take time to get repaired. but I know you will not phone me even then.  

had you started on foot from Bombay you would have reached this flat.

Love, probably my too desolate moments trigger me to write to you that often , I know writing love letters makes no sense at all. I remember last to last month or may be earlier when I waited for you to come to me but you went on clicking but never bothered to reach me. I think its that time had you started on foot from Bombay you would have reached this flat. Love there was time when peoples used to go on foot only and I remember some Chander Shekhar traveled India on foot to gather votes and the like. Contours have changed now peoples have taken mikes as bhompu and make the drums of corruption corruption and some sundri sundri terei baal bahut nayarei and peoples have forgotten the real life itself and taken to streets as if some bloody gold is there and lets loot it. Any how love ! system can not be created and maintained in this bloody hawkish way of thinking and throwing away the bloody frustration like an old person near to my flat comes and throw s all his non sense and frustration of life on me. I listen to it so faithfully as if lord rama has come to tell of sita. 

shoro shori ki raam bhali karein' eise dalalon' ki

rab ka naam lei
piso piso kehlavein
rab ko hi dalal banavein'
uuncho uuncho kahlavein'
dunia ki aakhno mei
dhuul mati finkvayein'
hawala tharo sei piso
kei bazar lagwayein'
mati ko bhi sono bichvayein'
shoro shorio ko pyar kei
fuul pahanvayein'
sari dunia mei aacho khalinyein'
gutter gutter ko bhi
aum namo sabit kahlavyein'

keisi hein' dunia thari
thei bolio
mayein' kahati thi
aacho hei
pisa yaoga
pisa hi hei 
thei mahri baat manyon'
aacha dance 
bolia boion'

rab ki bochar
tharo aapni ho jaogi

mahnei to samajh na aa payi
thari dunia

shoro shori ki 
raam bhali karein'
eise dalalon' ki

yei iso na sacho thei kha lo.

I have not seen you anywhere except at Deepika web page. I am not movie savvy too naturally if you happen to be from some that stuff world I may not know by a factor of de facto reality. But I write beautiful English. One day I happened to a dispute tangle as a part of my mundanes. An old and beautiful lady relative to me was using her best nerves to prove that I am the bloody shit benevolent person around and happen to be very intelligent and a bloody punjab university product which probably no body can think of bloody part without a real common sense and intelligent put together. I kept quiet through the converse as I was not sure how to react if at all. But I remember her wisdom adage yei iso na sacho thei kha lo. bhai mareio passe' to khana bhi nei' banyo' mhei kei janei' kya kha lo kani thareio'

My heart said better keep quiet as you do not have your anu with you.

I have not cached your snap so long however you wished it so too too long and hard I know it. I tell you a truth you somehow sometime resemble to one of my known relatives and I really hate all of them. You can not understand English I know that much. Any how I am writing a love letter to Deepika through you do tell her that she mind her crank brain. One day I really dont know how I was a party to a say a welcome party at Ellenabad where ofcourse I was not welcomed at all but happened to be there as anu was not known to me at that time and later I learnt that anu has used me for her different aspects which I politely tel her every time there is hardly any one known to me who does not use me for different aspects so to say like. A young person who did not take his moments as he had an anu with him. He ate everything but politely said No to liquor. Party lasted for say 2.5 hrs and every respectable person was present there. I was asking why I am not feeling at home. My heart said better keep quiet as you do not have your anu with you.                                            

I have decided not to continue further.

I am going  to pen down a letter that shall put a volcano in a brain, ( note the script I have used the word brain.) generally we see lizard s and females are often scary of their physique or say how they look like and perform their bio acts till the last laugh. we see beautiful flowers too and females are impulsively attractive to their whole existence even after their last laugh and I have seen and read females of armed forces also called viranganas by our beautiful and faithful writers hierarchical orders respected leaders
 aders of different connotations teachers socialites and say even a person who hardly know abc how live etc etc. boast off and feel blessed and pleased with their writings on flowers and flowers and flowers.

( I will continue let deepika mind her language. ) I know she cat so called bili taught the big cat how to climb a tree. But deepika phrase does not end here only. None of your own ones whom you embrace so possessively are the ones which you have finally given a certificate of yours. 

scientist s theologists spiritualists religious ideologist generally believe humans to be a better different lots and the like with a bullshit rod of arkemedes as a chalk and the horizons as the black board well !! the l'e'd' screen is what that is a latest facade that I am using it in a say love letter to you and you are using your ibid to prove your hydra headed ness. I have decided not to continue further.

any how its their bullshit job.

With no judgmental writing on the star, a song video which I just saw, probably brains in your working environment are extremely poor of ideas how to cast you and make the phenomenon work wonders. 
any how its their bullshit job. 

Do I need to write more to tell the bloody crank Indian Parliamentarians.

I think I have clearly written somewhere at my web page entries that fair sex word is a bloody bullshit word. I remember I have clearly written all laws favouring females have to go in one go. I have clearly written that so called muslim personal law was adopted due to non sense of hindu way of life and previously there was no difference between these two laws. What I mean to say Hindu personal laws have destroyed the hindus and so called muslim personal law has saved the the so called muslims. Do I need to write more to tell the bloody crank Indian Parliamentarians. 

Maruti lay kei lei di.

I am going to pen down an extremely uncomfortable love letter to you probably that could have been avoided. I am sure your mom can only understand only a part of this rest will be greek to her as her own interests may be at jeopardy ( note the script extremely carefully and in between the lines but not the lines itself.) I know its difficult to produce even one sequence at movie or say serial episode making owing to its intrinsic contradictions and the like, take retake and memory business does not leave a scope of any bullshit romanticism what the pop stars boast of their work eg dedicated into it enjoying that is its O' its simply I can do shit at O' I am made of O' you see you have to give and give and give etc etc. Maruti money was given by pushpa minhas randva which was paid by me later on in quick fashion. Maruti has also been taken by her and sold off in bullshit pennies however it showed my name in registration and these cranks were too faithful to fulfill their randva business did not bother to get my signature too. You see a prostitute can be given a status of say Indira Gandhi sonia gandhi vaishnav shiva but her own actions set her into a jeopardy. I was tasked upon to fetch pushpa minhas to village. Evening hrs I was busy at Ellenabad for some mundanes. I reached at village very late. Pushpa Minhas could not help her randva business. Maruti lay kei lei di. 

Yes deepika your mom can not understand this too.

Indian society has been known over the ages which even scientist s probably can not know, of its life share concept. Its only sunita minhas and pushpa minhas aided by her randvas of different colours and contents that have adopted american way of life and destroyed the most modern ultra advanced ever possible punjab university product. Yes deepika your mom can not understand this too. 

that what should I say there is no word in Webster dictionary I am very sure.

I am going down to pen down probably a controversial love letter to you. Your mom can never understand that much I know. I was tasked upon to reach Chandigarh too often on maruti. as we reached Chandigarh rs 500 generally were given by sunita minhas to me for the petrol however my whole salary and income from farm sector were avow fully usurped by her through different means, I know from net only that your mom has been a beauty with fashion tag around her. Sector 43 house was thrown open and then closed to present the ever warmth of the world. I am leaving the rest for you co star to pen down what I have written. I have yet to know where the hell that what should I say there is no word in Webster dictionary I am very sure.  

I when take medicine even now often ask lets not ask anything.

chareion' pei
likha hota 
kuch pushta hei
na janein' kon
chupkein' sei dara' dara'

jarur pusha hoga

chupkein' sei dara' dara'

kyon' 
keisein'
karna hoga
eik aur
tufan pass'

Deepika I remember whilst working on my office table I had to be on psychiatric drugs most of the time as rebellions runs through my nerves and often heart asked why the hell I am so misplaced and misfit. I when take medicine even now often ask lets not ask anything. 

But probably I really don't know if I really love you or you love me.

If I am not failing at my memory lane there has all been a rather severe critique debate of occidentals and orientals or say mind set ups of different moorings and the like. The debate is however endless in its content and value quotient and there is no practical use to play a trump and the like. Swami Ram thirath ( you can notice I am not correcting the spelling even after I have checked it from net- reasons I think only you can under stand no body else.) was not comfortable with some pennies under his pillow. European rich have been noticed to throw their dollars from sky in a sheer frustration of their worth whilst Pakistanis are known to have opium money in what form not. Kejriwal is not a true person in any form neither his team ( dont give them credit from my this article.) I have often wondered at american writers tagging Indians lost in outer world whilst they are aware space scientists are looking for spatial civilizations whilst humans on earth are stacked to the tethered horrible. Failing value conscience paradigm is a by product of Darwin laws only. But it needs probably another spell of my love letter to pen down what this aspect really pertains to.  But probably I really don't know if I really love you or you love me. 

This mirror is that horrible that I dont want to pen down.

andheirei merei man kei
kuch kaheitein' hein
rehei lo ham kei sath
saya ban kei hamara
ham to sath hein terei
havanon' ko apna na banao
kya bacha hei
tumarei pass'
padha tha eik subahei
mahadevi verma kei
sulgatei hei man kei angar
chubhtei thei
shuul ban kar
shabdo ki gahrahia
bahut hi karvi sachaia
chubtein' sulgatein' angar
fir fir yatein' hein yaad 

andheirei merei man kei

yes deepika its true probably even this date I am unable to understand and realize the depth of Mahadevi verma creations. Initially I thought why the hell the poetess is so pensive and elusive of her own self but as the time passed and crunch faced me the mirror came nearer and nearer to me. This mirror is that horrible that I dont want to pen down.

What a poor chap I happen to be.

Love
people are hell bound to elope anu and your environment whether it may be your karambhumi or say your own hearts lets not name it, are least interested in coming of you to me. you may be tossing what it s be of any use to come to me. Anu is also constrained of her karam bhumi. I have resigned to live a desolate life till my last laugh. Finding relevance in thin airs. I was a part of the desolate unrelated environs too much of mine. I dont think either of you can simply withstand a bloody one hr of life which I negotiate day to day. If you remotely happen to come to me , tonnes of truck loads of bullshit non sense will accompany you. Later on may be at a later date the basic science of that I cant afford to have such energy and material worth and other worth factor to sustain you for a period that can be categorized a life. End ( this is bio driven interactive one ) will tell you dekhio maneio thaneio kaho tho bhudo sei nato joro go thei yeiho result miloso thanei. What a poor chap I happen to be.

Have you seen it love.

you have already read my letter that got erased, once Newton asked his pet dog : darling you dont know what you have done ( when it tumbled a burning candle on his physics innovations that got burnt for all time to come ) Newton could make laws may be he was working at that time anti gravity factor which scientists  of the present generation still find hard to pen down what to put on tech levels. but love you are not newtons laws nor is anu but dog is there in the form of my bio constraints driven cardinals may be I have to say every time my beautiful dog can you do something that my newton s laws can be put on tech ground so that I can see a life of my own as I have sufficiently written on my web page just for 
free . My beautiful dog says : you better become a one yourself. Some time I see myself and then my beautiful dog. Have you seen it love. 

clowns I have heard

clowns I have heard 
day and night
fathomless nerves
faces
clowns I have heard

may it be
why Cant I be one
fathomless
clown I have heard

clowns I attire
one by one
thread free
I get 
as I travel
clowns I have heard

clown I adore
one by one
direction less
I get
as I find
clowns I have heard

who is that 
clowns I have heard
I fail to see
clowns I have heard

Etios was asking dont you feel there is no package deal.

I have cached your snap which you never even thought of that I may do so. You are beautiful smart catching and other aspects too. I have not chosen it for any such precincts so to say like. One day I was bound to sirsa as usual for my mundanes I stopped at sukheja house as anu who told me that she will be waiting for me got struck some where else. I had no idea why I have stopped at sirsa except that I was putting a stop gap as direct to village is tiresome and not so easy task as there is no arrangement even for a night shelter. After 2.5 hrs later suddenly sukheja but not me ( notice the script ) got a call that anu and family has reached and waiting outside his house at huda sector as its called so. I went outside as per protocol on predefined ways, she said uncle very sorry we got late and struck up. I was having my own car so I followed them after a few converse so to say like. I was informed that they have a job of clicking the package deal. One day this package deal had anniversary day and anu did not bother to inform it. I was again on similar tour and stopped at sukheja house for a while then proceeded to anu house and was in a not defined mood how to react as the package deal along with anu were being hosted at a nearby hotel. I called back sukheja for his help. He said let me try first the option of you being at anu house and finally anu brother came to receive me at his house I was following him on my car to the site as I was not aware of nuances of sirsa however it happened to be a place which is not bullshit bigger than even pitampura and I burnt my whole life over there only. At the hotel a not so old man was the host on behalf of the say originator of package deal. He did not make a protocol friendly attire to make me a part of the new package deal of say some 20 minutes or so and I thought better not react as I know sirsa walas aukat end s at the bloody trilock chand ahuja mandi bazar only. Anu wanted to tell me that she is not a party to the package deal of this 20 minutes. I could not tell her that there is no need to tell me any damn thing.

later I went with them and the host of the package deal in question went away with some verbatim ho ho bhai sahib mhei tharo barei sahib ko jano so vakil tharho shoro aur ham bhi tharo barei bhai kei aachei doost thei I smiled back as if I am the bloody ever possible ulu ka patha on earth. 

next morning I went to village and came back in the evening and I got call over there from anu mom that when I will have food.

I took the food stayed for that night too and started my etios back to delhi.

when I reached at hansi I took a cup of tea and a laado. may be some other etc.

Etios was asking dont you feel there is no package deal. 

Deepika I am sure your mom has not understood this narration you can check it if you are not convinced so. 
yes deepika its a quite mundane way of narration but seriously I don't feel you r mom has still understood. You see a mom feels that she is the wondrous worth to create a person like you ( its for example only ) but its a serious science she doesn't do any damn thing at all. 

you can notice

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you can notice I have not corrected the first two letters of the starting address , probably you will wonder that I am lazy or might have taken bloody opium or some good vodka of sena bhawan or may be I bloody have fallen in love with you to that bloody too deep level of recognition s and the like. But can you tell me any director worth the name on Indian soil if I am not referring to global cauldron who has given serious effort to depict what is that so to say like that removes common sense on individual levels mass levels and say commune level or say collective level. I know everybody has one basic target it may any set of hell plethora of kaleidoscopic content and value of say any number of platforms of life or say stages of live scenario or say role models or say existential s , the concept of lets see what is ahead or say the precincts of anything that may be broadly categorized under the mega or micro or even nano paradigm of development if I am not to evoke Darwin law as such. I don't think you have a bloody one person in your live world who can simply translate into Hindi or some bloody bullshit local language what I mean to say over here.