INFLOURESCENCE..31 Oct.10.3.32.AM

the morning attire of Her
its says a lot
I rush to resolve all at once
She smiles at my hurried nerve
but I am too impulsive

I fear She may not smile again
to come at my place
with so grace
full with exotic wealth

I am searching
running fast
quizzing with reverberated skills
lest She fades into the cosmic expanse

She has probably obliged me
only because of you
I remain fast
She again smiles

gives Her whole attire
the cosmic worth

Look here
I have given you all
What I could afford

I will come again and again
I do need you
you give me a meaning
She smiles with naughty nerves

I see around
She evaporates
shadowing my nerves

slow as She moves
vanishes into the air

I smell hard
to take the last ever presence
of Her fragrance

I may recognise
If ever She come
in another form

just to play

source: shipra.v, Dr.Dimple

WAR ROOM. 31 Oct 10..2.08 AM

this is file photo of a typical psychological disorder

my this utterance is not at all related with this disorder as such.

today when my heart has been left with this phase
I resile back with my well wishers

I feel happy some hearts are there to pulsate for me

At the moments I am tuned to a chaste punjabi song of Shiv Kumar batalvi.
I know whole of the world is sleeping

my sleep has become meaningless
so I hardly get affected with or without sleep

time plays such truant games
too often but
some hearts do retaliate with matching evolution

so goes the time and life together

life has to move in either way

even the most ever unknown catastrophies of Nature are politely replaced by life
such is the beauty of Nature or you may call it god

but who's that god
who is keeping me awake at such hrs of very early mornings
with plausible relevance

today when my son was looked after by Dr Dimple
I felt the same as is written above

I do say to myself
there are many many people who love you in many forms

you're not at all alone

the fact a few evil brains has killed your soul doesn't mean that life is non existential for you

I love to find my hearts
who struggle and love to breathe hard
to make my moments lively

I again remember too much of them
and negotiate the worthiness of the god's empire

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WAR ROOM..30 Oct 10..11.50.PM

I do not know hindi typing therefore hereinunder is the highlish lines

ham thei jinke saharei
wo huei na hamarei

reit ki diwarei
jo bhi chahei
gira dei

dubi jab dil ki dunia
samnei thei kinarei

I generally order my Army people to stop old songs and particularly when I enter your room make it sure that your pc is not tuned to your bullshit hindi songs

generally they are so scared of my aversion to hindi songs the moments they see me they put the volume off

I do realise their difficulty

but sad songs put my system off to such an extent that I have to take my psychiatric medicine in multi-dose

they also understand my problem
so they hardly feel bad at my orders

And Now I have typed this sad hindi song in hinglish

I know they are very touchy and make the soul stir with reality crunch

one day my lady officer litterally asked me Ahuja Sir, I am sorry to go personal but you are litterally burning out your life that really puts me in pains.

I could not stop my heart to be burdened by my friends remarks

My brain did ask me : is that you are suffering because you don't have lady love with you. I stared at myself and asked please don't poke me further.

Now when my lady officer confronts me : I often give an extra respect to her:
She remarked yesterday: Ahuja Sir, I am happy you realise the sane nerves suggested by me : but it doesn't matter if you can not be blessed with what I wish

I respect her because she has a space for at her heart

Life does not afford rose gardens: Its a well sung song and poem too

but such songs do bring a solace to you : may be sometimes self defeating

males do not weep : Particularly my type : therefore they go on accumulating the crunch of life at their heart.

it suddenly find a niche in such songs

but the war never ends

because War can be started


But NO BODY KNOWS WHEN A WAR SHALL END
AND AT WHAT COST.

source: Dr.Dimple Bansal, Shipra.v

WAR ROOM ..30 Oct 10.2.21PM

this aspiration elixir innovative entity has been a source for my Stormi neurotic exuberance ever since she met me in my previous office corridors, often crossing each other , me spelled out with my unending thoughts either of my interiors or related with taxing work equations and she probably used to come out only to have a sip of chilled water at hand's distance placed water cooler.

she is still at that very office

but time has made me to fly off the world to other endless equations ridden with forbidden know how

Whilst drafting my notings I used to remember her and see her office premises in a way get my nerves cooled that got perplexed and exhausted with the complex nature of my job.

Now she is busy with hubby to romance the life

I have again fled to a distance beyond her reach of apprehension

One day I will get evaporated to another enigmatic whirlpools

by that time she may get an idea of love and proximity of souls

Today I have fled with momentous quickness to a world of oblivion where I have lost deliberately what I have had and used be worried about

I have made dunes with horrible perfection with horrible know how
whilst I knew the sand dunes has to get wiped out with the whims and fancies of whirly winds

but she is not aware of anything at all

but I am still at war

whilst confronting the toughest fights emanating from within and without

I remember her words " I do not understand poetry"

but I know
I hardly write poems

the reality is what
probably she looks at

source: shipra.v , Dr. Dimple

WAR ROOM

I have attended such gatherings too many times
Univ somehow told me in infinitesimal advance
success do brings disdain and disgust
and the very people for whom you come off your budds are the source of catastrophic antithesis of your life in all respects

I do myself feel aghast when I am writing these lines

but lack of contrary proof is compelling to accept the acidic reality
Its true one should feel positive
but reality and its scientific calculations do not point to any such thing at all

Does it mean we have to survive whole of the rest life without the very people on whom our love started and reside
Its true in horrible terms

biggest reason is
there is no one left who loves you
and your system hardly accepts their gesture- attire and acts as parts of what love matters

I feel its better to accept vacuum rather to succumb to such eventuality

but even if you accept the vacuum
reality bite shall not stop eroding your inner tranquility

source: Shipra.v, Dr Dimple Bansal

I WANT TO RUN AWAY FR MY SELF

This is what my heart says every other second with me


but I have been brought up to fight to the finish

my heart says I simply don't see a finishing line at all

probably there occurs something when you lose every chance of your own world

but I simply say to my heart

I have so much work to be done
so there is no escape rout
irrespective of the factor whether I am happy or too sad

It accepts my version of truth
but says I am here to get crucified at every other moment

I know
I can't stop this crucification of my heart

I see alibi in many forms

I know million hearts fights remain endless
particularly with no useful purpose at day end

when the day end shall come
to fly off to another world

I keep my calm

I know
escapism is no remedy at all

but my heart says
sufferings because of others' faults is no way a wise step
not at least to get the burns for no fault of yourself

I get to stop with no words

I know
I can't pacify my heart

source: Dr Dimple

INFLOURESCENCE..Oct24.10.11.55AM

we are by default (de facto ) are evolved on referral system of psyche development.

this very process is the root cause of agonies
happiness together

I was listening to shiv kumar batalvi
he felt we're are prone to distressful journey
the intellect of ours drags to this reality over the scale of time

I do not know how far the learned poet (punjabi -fr. Syalkot-Now Pakistan)
is at near to reality

I have seen love in you on referral system
that is a truth
As one day I stood eye to eye whilst you wondered at my nerves with disdain and vacuous feels at your heart.

I still love you on the same parameters

you may be getting embarrassed most of time as your reality crunch does not afford this sort of referral system- at all

may be I am that open minded on net only
I never allowed myself to send my creations for publications at our office magazine for the general reading

may be I am not interested in getting accolades whilst airing my love to your aura whilst you being at your nerves ends

I was telling my psychiatrist acquittance that I write to remain relevant
Probably she could not get my nerves

is that love as such has become a part of relevance of life infinitive to me

probably yes

what sort of this life is
my heart asks

I dither too much to tel a little

I know another day shall come

with its own whims and fancies
leaving me to negotiate with no end at all

source shipra .v

INFLOURESCENCE..Oct.24.10.2.11AM

by this time my heart has stopped to toe my way of line of thoughts
I dare not ask any question
I know its reasons shall stir my soul out of the storm into another set of storms
I was at Faridkot a few days back
I did look deep into the blue
you never seemed anywhere around

but your aura did haunt me

I know
illusions do serve a purpose
when you have lost all relevance around

but the snap which I chose to express my delusions and disgust of the reality
it has its own constraints
as I hardly find the love oozing out of the blue
once it was there
on the end less shore

I have accepted this de facto reality

may be acceptance serves to soothen your hardened nerves

when the whole world is fast asleep
I am busy to pen down your thoughts

I am happy
whilst I know
there is nothing to be happy around

my heart whispers
is it
this sort of terrorism is all around

I stop short of saying

yes !!! its there

source: shipra .v