TIMES OF NEW REFERENCES

it's another celebration

at my univ days

our learned professors often had an unusual remarks

just off the foot note of their sayings

we celebrate

just to forget the celebrations

my little brain

it works hard

till date

to find a meaning out of such fathomless wisdom

time and space brought the ultra scientific wizards

but could not do far away

i was on way to my 'night shelter'

this time my inflorescence

it looked tired

i snared thro' the dark

its heart pulsated profuse

i left the scenario

with another vacuum

a few steps ahead

vijay chowk paved way to v.i.p 'ambasadors'

and surprisingly

they honked too docile

to make it hear like a piano note

i remembered Banazir Bhutto

probably her soul

it has changed our v.i.p(s)

but if it has

a ref beyond

i ask myself

source inspire: neha, mallika ,shipra.v,pu chd india

SAND HOUSES

too often my little nerves
wonder at your find

i go to places
see if
i'm a bit normal

i find a lot
not to write
not to say
but my heart
it says

at my days
little ahead of a toddlar
i wondered at the sand houses

at monsoon showers
we behaved too instinctive
to play with our heavenly creations

we thought
probably the earlier was better
thus we tithered it to pieces

but it did felt us sad
so we started a fresh

i wonder
whether you're one of the instincts
which ran the roost
to bring us
near to reality

source inspire: neha, mallika, shipra.v, pu chd india

ricksajay

ricksajay

WEEPING WILLOWs

i leave my work place

just because it's off for the day

people in dress too enthusiastic to leave

waiting for their charted drives

i do have a peep around

and find

what i fet

and forget

the moment

in my univ

beautifull weeping willows

they glamourize the eves

i do often

travel fast to my univ

every eve

to find that exotic glamour

i find more

as i live

my univ

it often asks

don't you you feel

it's too much

for the day

i stare

my weeping willows

they say

forget love!!

it's part of life

source inspire: neha, mallika, shipra.v, pu chd india

phathomless DEPHTH OF A HEART

quite often
i receive your love
at my heart
it hopes with no bounds
and cites
the age old science
to proove its point

my brain
wonders at its naive nerves

my soul
its too optimistic
keeps a safe distance
from the dihards

but it hardly quenches
my desire
to realise you
in my live environs

i ask my inflourescence
too often

you a special creation of the lord
tell a bit more
of my love

it says
but my know-how
fall short of
to perceive

i wonder
is love that exotic

source inspire: neha, mallika, astha.b,shipra.v, pu chd india

DOTTED GRAPH

My heart searches you
thro' the pages
it has learnt by the day

nights has fetched
desire of your thoughts

i tell too many moments
it ignores all

you come to change all
where its goes

my hearts nerves
know no bounds
to catch your glimpse
desert to ice lands
dark to den
hell to heaven
it all have gone
to fetch you

it goes with you
with your thoughts

faces it sees
you come live

suddenly it realises
the missed moments

its more crazy
and looks
where you're not
it knows

the moments has gone
with your frag
and your frag
has spread
thro' the space
heights and lows

of my love

LOWS AND HIGHS

DEPRESSIVE times is a default casualty most of us have to surf thro' . It comes over a scale of time and space. Most of the times we are unprepared for it irrespective of our knowledge base and the availability of psychiatric friends to render a helping hand to come out of it or nevertheless propose a living mechanism.

There is a fundamental contrast between the approaches of psychologists and psychiatrists of its understanding and treatment.

Depression howsoever commonly used word is widely less understood even by the related super-specialists.

it has three basic cardinals: externally driven mechanism (ii) intrinsic hormonal driven primarily due to genetic in original (iii) as a by product of other related ailments e.g neurotic psychosis, schyzophranic ailments (which are fundamentally genetic in origin ( developmental genetic implications are implied as a default value).

govt. hospitals are best suited for treating such ailments, the reason is simple the doctors do not have a sedistic motive to keep the patients with them for money or making their practice fluorish.

self medicine is dangerous as 99.999 % of us are unable to understand, internalize and actualise the intricacy of ultra modern scientific connotations.

depending on friends is good but in case of females their is a strong incident of exploitation. even close relations such as sister, daughter happen to aggravate the ailment and rather create more social and personal complications e.g family discord, divorce, separations etc.
it is always more better to depend upon a govt doctor particularly lady doctor . the reason is more than clear.

the best way to fight depression is to remain busy with work or with such people who has the least scope of exploiting you e.g a male boss must always be avoided to take a help of any sort for a lady/girl who is under depressive syndrome. the reasons are more than understood.

the way to medicines is inescapable in modern complex scenario but it must be understood that once you are keeping a bit normal it is always better shift to conventional methods of wisdom.

in case of chronic intrinsic depression, doctor is the only handy tool but here one should avoid the critiques all pervasive around you

STORMS SHADOWS SCARE MY HEART

i stand too often
all alone
at my student centre
pu chd india

looking for
striving for
probably what i have
forgotten to decipher
under the storms of
die hards

my heart
it's too sticky to win
the waves of lows and highs
to find a relevance

in a distant love

dreams and shadows
it has learnt to surf
quest is one
struggle to find

what i skirt
but never looses sight of

my brain often wonders
what the hell is going on

i ask my self
where you find
a less challenge

source inspire: neha, mallika, shipra.v, pu chd india

INFLOURESCENCE.23.Dec07

Love !!
the year is at its fag end
but you too busy
at your pennies

me a too spare guy
like the shepherds of our chris boy
get often excused
by the uncanny nerves

i get lost
where i find
a love flourishes
to its streams

i know
penetrating beams
of the jealous
with zillions at their pocket

sometimes i feel
too scary to withstand
but rejuvenated
as i feel
at your first glance
with the sun

i gets going
the same way

and my heart
as stupid
as it used to be

my inflourescence tree
it fragrates to the full
to make me see sense

i a diehard spirit
forget not to love
an exotic heart

so is my inflourescence
it never stops
shedding
may a day come
one if its flowers
come zooming to me

say
Love!!

source inspire: neha,mallika, shipra, pu chd india

INFLOURESCENCE

in my univ
i love a strong character of Nature
it's Ginkgo biloba-the living fossil
it's a gymnosperm

millions of years of evolution
but it's a die hard heart
it never forgets to love
and keep the terms intact

i crossed thro'
my inflourescence tree
it's cinnamom zeylenicum
it's pervading frag
makes my heart beat fast

i forget
but suddenly go back
to my sweet heart

i know Lord Krishna
it did tell The Arjuna
" Love is delicacy for the sweet and bubbly
honey trap"
but every body somehow
caches the cold

it's diff
very few die a Natural death

my ultra modern nano-bio tech facilitated heart
it felt too sad
at my bullshit thoughts

i saw my inflourescence
it told millions of commands
in one go

i try to decipher
one of these

if i write
it's too simple
two alphabets: "ok"

source inspire: neha, pu chd india

INHIBTIONS

i have often wondered at this all pervasive instinctive syndrome. Psychiatry has a lot to explain: our biological clock which starts ticking at the onset of fertilization of an ovuum in our mother's womb of which we are a product in toto'; is all what comes inherited to us as inhibitions. But the bio explaination is much complex further. Gene language written in our chromosomes thro' developmental interactive and deliberate bio-interactive processes are a lot to manoeuvre for this knotty entity of which we are made of.

seemingly major part is beyond our control i.e why psychiatry offers only a medicinal way of solving the inhibion related aspects (both +ive and -ive impact on our complex psyche).

psychological research has much to offer but clinical psychological practices do help a lot to understand and solve behavioural patterns poking us over the scale of time and space.

religious beliefs do help us but it has strong negative connotations too.

a strong love relations are a panacea for all of us but Nature is bauntifull to the selected ones in this aspect.

platonic relations have been found to solve a lot for the unprivilged lots but here the aspects of power of money, status, social constraints, societal positions etc takes its own toll.

hobbies especially involving manual efforts do wonder for the ones who are at the receing ends from hell of angles'.

fantacy and hallucination serves as fumes release mechanism'.

well!

it's a personal choice how to adapt to the environs and come survival of the fittest as the greatest ever scientist Charles Darwin wrote in his famous book 'the origin of species'.

GOOD MORNING MY LOVE

hei! my chris cross friend
how are you'
i'm fine with/without you
reason is simple
i share with you
the number 13

but if you come
i make very nice tea
well!
i'm fond of my navy cut

i know you love love
and not the richy rich

i do know
your people
many have forgotten
riches is a cobra
and viper when allowed
to pervade the minds

i know
till date
you're a humble shepherd
that's why
i love you
to my heart

i love to be a tiller
it keeps me
closer to you
and farthest to
the hypocrates
whom i hate to the core
but
my chris cross friend
do you know
why Mendal Law of genetics
and Darwin's Law of unhindered billions
favours
the hypocrates

i have a little heart
that too
with my shingly bird
she is a twister love

we both are waiting for you

come this 25th
she'll offer you chocolates

i do love candies
but
my navy cut often accompanies

i hope you'll not mind
my bad habits

if you come
you'll see
i'll give you
a part of my heart
and ask my shingly bird
to share
with love and grace

source inspire: neha, mallika, shipra,pu chd india

LILIES HEART

most of the time
psychiatrists are constrained to note
special hearts do differ
in normalcy quotient

whether
such beautifull buddies are hard of happiness
may be true
but it's a pandora box

i was busy
at my love lane
my shoes kissing the red sand

honking vip chaps
pulled me out of sleep

but love!
why do they honk?
my heart quipped

you see
my stupid chap
we've created non-fearing rats
and hon-honking chaps
well!
india is less equipped with
nano-bio tech

i was silent to the strife
of the old diehards

my soul
it remains hooked
to my twister love

but who is she
my heart galloped the thin boundaries

i smiled a bit
and
my feet remained struck
to the red sand
of the rajpath

Love!
whether she comes here

i skirted the reply

she works
nearby

source inspire: neha,mallika,shipra, pu chd

petals

late eve hrs
babudom well placed in their cosy beds

i wake up to leave the office
as my friend remarked
good night sir'
don't forget:tomorrow is a holiday

i smiled
looked around the romantic scenario
and my privilged environs
i know time has just started
for the hearts like me

i strolled thro' sparse of vijay chowk
my steps loved to talk to the pulsating cones
of pines
well! in biting cold

i admirred the Naure and its art
may be it has the heart
what i missed to notice
at pg bio

she laughed with a smile at her lips
i could notice
glare of her himayalan hair
well at my nerves
her eyes vied
the ultra facilitated
beams of the modern cars

well! love! is there something more absorbing
she felt jealous
but i knew
i have to drive a graph

she is too moody to come along
and vanishes
at the glimpse of fading air

but i do wonder
the Nature is to luxurious
to have a beauty around me

Love!
how come this stony flower looks so beautiful
to your extra stupid heart

i said: these are petals

it grows to achieve
and end achieves it

she was nervous at my phrases

don't you think
science acknowledges a simple word

yes Love!
time and space
it makes that

she was furious this time

and vanished
with a disgust at her face

i know
she can't live without me

and that's true
with me
impirically

source inspire: neha , mallika, shipra, pu chd india

INFLUORESCENCE..19th Dec 07

Do you remember Love!
lonely bylanes of our univ
dark glistering shadows
late hrs
and your magnetic himalayan hair

my soul felt the warmth
you too busy to leave
an array
i negotiate till day

my univ
it taught
it's too ephemeral
"you're getting into a black-hole"

it studied quantum and astro physics
black hole isn't a naive to me
but
i wonder
your magnetic resonance

i know
a lot
it isn't meant for labelling
so i went without a desire
of mine
of yours
to have a shakesperean note
at end of the day

i found
an end in itself
of achieving the heights of love!!
of your antarctic eyes

i know
it'll glister
and it'll emancipate my soul
at a distance

i love to negotiate

i know miles are to go
and the woods are deep

source inspire: neha, mallika, shipra, , pu chd india

PARALLEL FACES

this day i slept what i'm not prepared for
tomorrow crunch seems too romantic
sudden sea change
it's beyond the nerves of my heart

but faces too bring
'pseudo-target cell mechanism' of nano bio-tech
well satraight into your psyche
so you get
what it escapes you all the way

i steer clear of my heart's interpretation of my being

the reason is simple

probably

i'm too difficult
and sincere enough to accept the crazy heights
lows and highs

with a humble divinity OF Nature

that's what
i see in you
and people
around
in a hazy defined array

may be
that's why
i love all of them
too immense

they often
wonder
is love beyond
"a simplistic define"

i stop
for a while
look at you
and resume
as usual

i know
my love
its beyond

and that what i see

the parallel faces
source inspire : neha, mallika, shipra,pu chd

INFLUORESCENCE

too often i have recalled my heart felt
reason is simple
my heart vibrates at a 'suptra-atomic rhythms'
i have often wondered at
the metamorphosis of a small and desolate railway junction ("shakurbasti")nearby where i happen to pulsate a meaning of you and one of mine.

if you visit day time
the indian system of management looks too shabby

but night brings
romance of keats, William Wordsworth, Shakespear, Tagore, Nirala, and the greatest- ever Kalidas
just in one glance


this time my beautiful young ladies
too optimistic atfter their PG entrance exam

we all waited for The Punjab Mail
Delhi winter adds its punch to the romance

long hrs went in seconds

i was left
as usual
with the magnetic thoughts

in day
at night
my dreams
they are a bit too scientific
so i skirt

but i negotiate
the relevance of my influorescene
as it changes
its moods
ahead of clock

i remain stuck
to my thoughts

as if it'll bring
another relevance

source inspire: neha, mallika, astha+her batch mate doctors,shipra, pu chd india

ICE LADDEN

day vied
when you walked
my finger-tips
cached thro'
your himalyan hair

I tasted the whole
elixir runs thro'
my neurons

time vied
I walk the rajpath
with my hands
too nostalgic of its past

i've changed the tenses
hope belies the the hope

me and your antartic eyes
are too euphoric
sad may be the ground
so I live
in air
of your lovesource inspire: neha, shipra. V, mallika, pu chd india

ricksajay

ricksajay

IN VIVO NANONS

many a times
I ask myself
too profuse
I steer free
and find
farthest hazzy end
of my queries

somewhere
I find you
my soul asks
love!
Let's stop here
till
another swirl
comes crashing
upon me
and find
what I skirt

air filled
shower of your love!
Fast away
my uncanny nerves

I wakes too late
and find you
thro'
whole nanonic world
of me
of yours
may
it'll have a
unison consonance
over the time
space is infinite
so is my love!

I find you
in my infinite!!
Source; neha, pu chd

ricksajay

ricksajay: "Sunday, December 2, 2007 MIRRAGE OF RELEVANT this ticking monster says a lot your crunch is speeding i try a bit eyes staggering with your thoughts day will come it has to go too but my heart looks for a reply full of relevance starry nerves to find a median way i look for a relevance of your being around me my heart it's fed up too much commensense of my being it says your vacuum it's better to filth of my world around source inspire : neha, shipra, mallika, pu chd Posted by ajay ahuja at 12:22 PM 0 comments Saturday, December 1, 2007 EFFERVESCENCE i pause my runing steps i've an inkling the effervescent moments of my love i ask my heart my routine is a bit more euphoric studded with romance of work its annoyance and my soothing nerves remember you may be your ticking time may coincide someday my heart is happy but my brain a diehard critique it gives my nerves a space to breath of the mundane as i quicken my steps to my 'karam bhumi' it's with every one may be my heart is diff it sees you i know you're no where around source inspire: neha, shipra, mallika, pu chd india "

MIRRAGE OF RELEVANT

this ticking monster
says a lot
your crunch is speeding
i try a bit

eyes staggering with your thoughts

day will come
it has to go too
but my heart
looks for a
reply
full of relevance

starry nerves
to find
a median way

i look for
a relevance
of your
being around me

my heart
it's fed up
too much commensense
of my being

it says
your vacuum
it's better to
filth of
my world around

source inspire : neha, shipra, mallika, pu chd

EFFERVESCENCE

i pause my runing steps
i've an inkling
the effervescent moments
of my love

i ask my heart
my routine is a bit
more euphoric studded with
romance of work

its annoyance
and my soothing nerves

remember you
may be
your ticking time
may coincide someday

my heart is happy
but my brain
a diehard critique

it gives my nerves
a space to breath
of the mundane
as i quicken my steps
to my 'karam bhumi'

it's with every one
may be
my heart is diff
it sees you
i know
you're no where around

source inspire: neha, shipra, mallika, pu chd india

NAKED TRUTH

vancuous moments surround you
probably it was only the tip of the ice-berg
univ days are hard to forget
as it give you a phathomless reference to negotiate the enviorns

i ask myself i am not a movie lover
and choice is mismatch
my brain laughs at
my herart's novice existentials
you see love!
you have to dig a well
but the contrary is: what you get
at your school classes


my spoken words
and love!
have you tasted the lower part of
althea/shoeflower
rustic sweet with romance OF Nature

but it's too ephermeral
Not the Nature
but my sweet voice

that's what
my univ days accompany me
and i live
in my univ days

source inspire: neha, mallika

JEWELLS

i drove with and without
your thoughts
night drive is romantic
but i needed to concentrate
i remembered you with my eyes
focused to undefined
flashing beams
staggering nerves
i prefered to forget
but the moments proved
what i refrain

my waivery thoughts
haunted me
the whole night

i paused
thro' roadsides
my cup of tea
it was hot
with you thoughts

but my heart
a poor chap with me
always
look for jewells
of your eyes
to accompany me
thro' the beaming lights

source inspire : neha, mallika

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METAMORPHS

Today
at a dinner
booze flowing with the twinkle
of your eyes
and i was hooked to
your look alike

i did acknowledge
thro' my friends

come on sir!
your normal state
it's more drunk

breeze whistled
as no body was left
we the choosen ones
and empty glasses

defence guys know
when not to fill the rest

but
my heart
it remains
unquenched ever

source inspire : neha, mallika

ricksajay

ricksajay

MIRAGE OF HOPE

i have spent waiting moments
and see off love-lost
international airport new delhi
parking space and the serene environs
i often wondered the charm of early morning hrs

my friends
a lot of
gone with the winds

i make my own winds
to see you

i know
this time
Nature will accompany me
the beauty of Lord
and its combine
my heart stops
to look for the moments

i know
you may rebuff it
too childish

but you know
child has a heart of Lord

hope is too good
and i wait
for the moments

you may alight from

but how you'll recognise me

my heart says
put your photograph on the web

but my brain
it's too oldy chap

i know it'll never budge

but i know you'll come
see thro' the air
and come running

where the heart
beats for the last

source inspire: neha , mallika

NAKED TRUTH..Contd

Amrita Pritam a 'punjabiat' female writer
i was not amused at Her thoughts
reason is hidden
as i use Mallika 'pics'

my heart often says
Love! you're not sincere
i ignore
and get lost into my inflourescence

my brain+heart+soul wonder
if this bio unit has turned insane

i feel as if i have a separate entity
off the trio

my knowledge is unable
to account for my thoughts
as til date i have yet to understand Her
Her one line reverberates into my 'brainosphere'
" I have uttered your name
romance at my head
lust at my soul
and found
the shallow of relevance
with you and with your Love"

my soul breaks its patience
"you' r horrbly difficult bastarad"
i remain unfluttered at its unsavoury remarks
and get lost into my inflourescence

you might have remembered by this time
inflourescence looks like a ocean to me
and i hardly forget
my tree of Love

every day i cross by
i look deep into its twigs

I feel as if
it says a lot of
i aspire
but find hard to enumerate
source: neha, mallika

NAKED TRUTH

change is a too 'fundamental'
i often wondered at my socio writers
why i am unable to change
my soul gets stirred
i feel the bio driven forces have to take
its own stroll

i kept waiting
in the rose garden of CHD

the querry remained unparalled

tired Sun goaded me
either book a room
else your way is clear to Delhi

i was prepared for none

my be i stand at backdrop
of love and hatred

i've read a lot of Mahabharta and Gita
probably my intellect is too short of

i happen to see the vast lands
my soul asks me
Love! don't you see it's more love here
i brush aside
and find myself brushed around
by the Naked Truth
surrounding me

Deepika I am changing the entry : I have often been to my mundanes and stopped at many a loci i. Some time extremely depressed tired practically in tethered existence. I have never received even a bullshit phone call that I can reckon with however I did receive calls from those who want to elope anu. Sometime with others without. ( the last line is poetic cum prose of course scientific in content and value.)