SCALE OF PSYCHO-ANALYSIS

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EXOTIC TRIVIAL TRUTH

I don't want to write : what you're doing at this moment: Its already Monday early morning and the blue colour of only relevance of mine has started pouring at my inner half

another half is lost in your illusive world

why the truth is so infinite and indifferent

til date I am searching the single query

may be we are less adaptable to the changes hostile they may be

or may be
challenges are a bit faster to us

what ever may be the outcome

your illusive presence do serve one purpose

I find a shadow in the scorching heart heats

sometime I feel its better to forget you and delete the whole hell from my hard disc

suddenly I find your aura has evolved like a virus- getting metamorphic stages in infesting my psyche and me the docile around keep searching for the solutions

good morning

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WISHES HAVE HORSES..March.28.10

at the other end of horizon
I find me busy searching your hazy aura falling in love with me
search has laser finished accuracy
e-world of mine
too predisposed at your wobble heart

I wish for the wishes sake
knowing the chasm to infinite
your will too meagre to cross thro'

in my classics I found this
over the waters of chanab and jhelam

time has evolved

I find at a corner
bypassing the seconds of this

as the search advance
so I remain intact
to find you more
ever after

shade after rise
silent moments
and your search

I make the steel nerves
to look sharp

over a nano second of mine
with me

I wish the success
jointed to your soul

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LOVE AS SEEN THRO' MODERN SCIENCES..March..28,10

The faculty of love has driven the profuse attention of almost every brain and heart around.
Sciences has developed to a forbidden levels as of now
Its immaterial if one is aware of that or not

the fact is howsoever unpalatable and difficult to internalise much exotic to actualise : Love as a faculty of human brain is a psychiatric disorder

the eternity factor of love is simply a mirage

the cardinals triggering love bio-chemicals are too unmanageable and prove to be lethal in all aspects barring the rarest purpose of extreme occurrence

but its a fact too
people are immensely prone to this brain's activity

the de facto instinct to love exotics is the real trigger of love

the vacuous magnetic syndrome
the so called love
leaves whole of the green grasses burnt all around

but the Nature and evolution don't stop so short

this very burnt out psychological living space gives birth to another set of forbidden eventualities
far more unpredictable for a more mundane brain to decipher at

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INVERTED MIRAGE..March,25.10

why the waves look indifferent
at my steps
some too heavy
tired and exhausted

with a desire to win the race

and find the race is itself
devoid of meaning

I search the equations
whether its as the usual way

find too little to reply

soothed heart
may be a whimsical reality
fought over
at every pulsating heart

take another step
towards the crunch

find the so called crunch
probably the mirage of the reality

U and me
search every day and night

direction free

u may have forgotten
I take more time

that makes
the oceanic difference

I surf

to make my roses
blossom
at your doorsteps

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JOINTED BANGLES..March,24.10

my introvert but learned professor at my univ with his cycle and lonely friend evoked a streams of colours that eventuated at my first sight of bicycles at my office

Now a huge palacious ultra modern empire of DRDO stands tall at that sight which puts its arms with oceanic warmth at my daily lunch

but your absence is filled by budding beauties waiting in Que like me

I miss a small shatoot tree which got evacuated from this place

I used to love my Navy Cut under this tree

my moments are as lonely till date but for your illusions surrounding my aura to fill a synthetic gap of the e-world where I have evolved to the tunes of times

my air conditioned room often reminds me the scorching heats at my farms where I shall face the happenings of the undefined moments

my hearts says
hell!! with you
you're damn solistic bastard with melancholia leaches big at your blood

I take the advice in good steads
I know
my preparedness quotient that I have learned from Armed Forces is a bliss in
harness

but why the hell!!
you're damn such boring stuff around
my hearts rebels like a child

I keep my cool

look towards the horizon
as if
they reside at my heart

like the big nostalgic nerves
I learned at my univ

beyond the perceptions
still too worldly

but exotic

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INFLORESCENCE..March 24,10

the plateau of wishes hidden hard
throbbing every another breath
the silent volcano
magnetic mammoth black hole

and the weakest forces of existence

I find the contradictory combine
survive with vengeance

the natural query remains
how far
if at all its the right choice
I see my mirror image

No reply comes at all

I know it has happened
the savoury hearts do eclipse
the shadows of realities
lit large
with sand of dunes
if the the will of the mighty
so strong

yes its like that

too hard to believe

the un-winky will
it strives again
till it breathe

the other moment

I see the shadowy stars
at the horizon
where you happen to hallucinate

my wobble hard heart

and me the docile
fight every moments

ends become the means

sanity looses its impact

I thrive in illusion

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INCONSISTANT HEART.16.3.10

The beating moments tell
the waves of truth
I belie every another second

It says and speaks
what I believe hard

truth takes another forms
I struggle to find
staggering feet
unsavoury heart

I shadow my own path
live otherwise

want to smile
keep the constant of you

I know the combine
too hostile
to the tunes
of the moments

my sticky heart
and me

never see
eye to eye

where are your eyes
it asks often

I remain
in a search

least defined to me

to find alibi in you

you're breaking your head on stones

I do wonder

whether
if stones have heart

may be
but not for me

I live in paradoxes
some spelt

another too existential

but all tuned
to the wavelengths
emanating from your aura

I do whisper
what's the hell about

but I do remain
in the same hell

time comes
I call it seconds
of my life

you feel
the flowers are for the diminishing fews

I wonder
to find me
in that diminishing fews

with a heart
full of wishes

making roses
on the concretes of slippery heart

hoping to win hearts
with a heart
not of mine

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INDIANISATION OF AMERICA..Contd..March,16,10

Today I was de-threading the undoing of Indian R&D worthiness
Probably we need the civil hierarchy to compete with
but I was least interested in the big damn topic around
Manmohanomics have a lot to un-wind itself
over the time
May be India and America should amalgamate to produce the wonders for the great Nations

obsessions are good if constructive

my heart whispered why the hell u are differently obsessive
its not constructive at all

I kept mum
I know the big bullshit heart around
like Mugal love lorns
its damn foolish of now

The females have evolved to a damn care thins around
whilst the males are still living in era gone by

but how America is concerned
my heart was inquisitive at my findings

America is where India started
Now both the cultures should learn each other

Its American Psychiatry which has empowered us to undo the undoings of hearts around
But its Indian thoughts (intellectuals) that can reshape America

may be a lot is needed
for the reforms
either way
to fetch wonders
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INDIANISATION OF AMERICA..March.7,10

my preoccupation of one female lead character of my love stories- her closests call her "ships" can be explained by present day scientific know how: But President Obama's acts of obsessions with the Health Bill seem to be too naive: better develop on Indian system of health by adopting pseudo-socialistic set-up: the purpose of Whites populace shall be served.

But I do not know whether he go ta the brains around him

In either case the two countries consult the core officialdom to solve the tricky issue without breaking the fabric.

I was lost in my chores
what to do first
and end in doing nothing
Monday has already knocked at my door

Another day of happenings
I will be tossing my nerves
drafting the cases
the process is endless

one day
this very office
shall say with polite and respected tone
"GOOD LUCK SIR"

I don't know
whether still u will write your pseudo names
"married"
to the mighty Nature

where I shall reside
as the time takes its own toll

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MERCURIC HEART..7.3.10.2.0Hrs

I do not know
where from my heart has descended from
me and my heart

a drop of Mercury
at my palm
I feel and care for its wishes
it gets tossed up too often

the pieces on the floor
I search with the magnetic nerves

get it joined again
the shining bubbles unite to form me

my heart asks
why u are too fussy
about my droplets

I make it look too good

It searches another fall

I wonder
is it me
for all

my mercuric heart
what's the fuss it makes

I search hard

but why it falls
too often

I search to make it complete

it says
better let me where I happen to be

Why its choice to remain in pieces
struck to its interiors

I search hard

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BLACK ROSES..March,6,10

I was searching the hidden quotient of happenings in some of the married orkut profiles
some known to me
others as stranger
like u
working together for the work sake
neither u need money nor me
still the equations are different

my heart often asks
what's the difference between humans and the relatively less developed animals and adds don't u tell me that humanes have better nerves with better emotional quotient

I struggle hard to find a reply
my heart gets pacified with no replies
like the kids with lolly pops

but it leaves me where I continue to struggle find the meanings

but if at all we need meaning
I don't know
I am very scared of my heart

if it once again struck to the same equations
I will be struggling in the swamps for too long

my soul whispers
when u were not

I search my environs
it speaks a lot
but I don't want to read

as if
I am scary of these bullshit searches

but I do ask myself
who I am
and what for

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INFLOURESCENCE..5.3.10

I was interacting with the youthful flowers of my ususal way back pathway
many times they ask me too much
I find little to reply

may their beauty stops me short of electronic bias of my system
I know its injustice writ large at my system
but that's way
I have accustomed myself
in a quest to remain vibrant
to the tunes of mundanes

little remains to be negotiated
I asked myself
the sunset was too evident
thro' the widnowpanes of metro
I know
another sunrise is there
on the threshold of my happenings

but my fitting in the system quotient
makes the meanings too un-readable
I search my heart who is responsible
for the mess and threads unwoven
to the extremes
least defined to myself

I search every corner of my heart
in a fighting spirit
and die hard happiness

find no exact reply
and me the docile
remain as hazy as ever before
one day shall come
if at all
I may define
thread-bare
my purpose of
pulsating around
with the flowers of relevance

but why the things takes inverted shapes
I find the sprouting spruce and pines of my heart

the illusions with vengeance backlash
I struggle every moment
to find
to see if at all
it shall serve a purpose
in tune with the mundanes

I remain
with no reply at all

fall back upon
another illusion

and the hope never dies
so is the spirit
as I am made off

is it you
I ask too hard

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ATOM BOMB..March,3.10

today it was a normal day
except for
time came to me and said : I am the only thing around
I stopped short of getting too annoyed at boasting exuberance at tone of arrogance with plasma tic sarcasm

morning went with interaction with the Military hierarchy
the chart of things too defined to leave a scope bereft of discipline, nerves and patience

eve hrs were a bit relaxed as I traversed my way back thro' vijay chowk , Rajpath with the beauty lit large around
some cameramen were busy shooting live what they have worth about

I was taking steps as if its the only place of relevance
but I knew the slowest steps shall bring only to this place of mishappenings with the bullshit pc , your thoughts and my Himalayan missed out targets

whilst now I did wonder
why Time has not spared a single event around the above environs
boasting with vengeance

Am I too weak, spent of bubbles around, or too irrelevant

I ask myself
and see the Time going out my courtyard laughing like a ghost
saying
I told u so
but u the fool never realise

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BLACK ROSES.March.1,10

its a morning of different moments
a day of colours

I am looking the freshness of early hrs
the relevance of pc, your being, sound of a distant running engine of train
but not Pakiza movie like
I simply dislike the sand bullshit thins around
becoming too swampy with some one's memories

and spoiling the present moments of love and relevance

love is every where
better develop a heart to decipher it

this is what the ultra tech facilitated modern sciences tell us all

but still u are different
your absence is as good as your presence with me

as I hardly look for stupid unions of the yore

you're happy
even with the memories

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