Inflourescence ..29.6.11 .11.30 PM

I have two hearts

The fights never end

So is me

I put my hands

Down and up

Vainful ways

To find you

Near

Around

Somewhere

I can feel

How you chose

The twisty whirls

I possess

Day and nights

Have come together

Ask me infinite

Me and my hearts

How to reply

To whom

For what

I search me

My hearts

You come

As if me

I search

How the giants combine

shrivel me all

Find

How I lost

Why

Where

source : Anu and kiran

INFLOURESCENCE 29.6.11 .8.17 PM

When you were standing

Few of yours

Breath did touch me

I asked a few of them

Some did say me

Why you are going

I did promise

I shall come

The other day

Moments

Shall be our owns

I wake up

A day after

The sun did shine

But my shadows

Shadowed it instead

I could not feel

Why

And how

Where I got lost

In your arms

Or elsewhere

Drifted as I felt

I cached every wave

That shook me

The storms

Of my making

Drifted I still feel

My resilient nerves

Shall never retire

source : kiran and anu

Psychiatry unfolded through love letters

meine to eik bar banaya tha eik hi rishta

har girah pei

gushbei kei bangban

saf nazar

aan reihe hein

meire yaar zulahei

Darlin Anu !!

I am extremely poor at Hindi

Now I will write in that English which shall move this bullishit earth like a boot ball

I tell you an ultimate psychiatric secret :

sex is a damn phenomenon. It has no relationship whatsoever with the live ground reality. But the period of pregnancy between 3-6 months is only lembda factor that triggers all the diseases in humanity as well as all bio-units.

the following gene physiological threshold level factors take place and the intricacies are herein under:-

genes unfold and create a dynamic equilibrium of hormonal feedback mechanism

there happens a gene atmosphere/gene language in every developing cell

the cell under such state literally interact with the psyche of the mother

Now if the psyche of the mom is interrupted/broken/deviated/stressed/confused/bifurcated/hyper-hypo irritable/hallucinated/phobic/maniac / fixative /obsessed / fickle/hysteric/violent/suspicious/aggressive/kiran Bedi style/suppressed=eg muslim moms , black women of African continent/English women style=lack of affection,non caring,hyper-socialite/hyper lonely= approaching melancholia /eating for eating sake type/malnutrition -affected/hyper impulsive =scientists moms/hyper paranoid/Indra Gandhi type=hyper ambitious with least ethics/power obsessive/drug addicted/self righteous ridden eg school teachers,lecturers.professors,bureaucrats,hi fi executives, mother Teresa type, baraham kumari type= obsessed with self driven definitions of spiritualistic facets, Babas types eg Rampdev, sirsa wala baba type/hyper centric type eg Radha swami type moms ; then this is literally translated into the sequences of the basic gene building bio molecules of the child brain and central nervous system.

the result is very simple : the child when gets into the world becomes prone to the marshy whims of genosis for the rest of life.

this also translates the basic concept of so called Iq and Eq.

In cases of working ladies eg kisans/ manual laborers the ibid gene deformities are missing.

psychiatric ailments in ibid cases can be controlled/checked/suppressed but curable .

the remaining psychiatric disorders falls under the development psychiatric aspects. The genes in adults remain active, in other words this process is maneuvered through basic concept of memory proteins and its bio feed back mechanisms. eg general turned dictators, anarchists, rebellious students, petty criminals, terrorists = but here only fraction of terror types are involved and the instinctive terrors comes from the former types eg. Afgan terror groups, All types of delinquencies, sex abuses, heinous crimes like throwing acids on beautiful girls,rape cases, sadistic traits, and all types of sociological driven aspects getting effected through R& D (which I discussed with Kiran and her hubby).

Incidentally the former are much more complex but treatable; the latter are easily understood and paradoxically defy the concept of treatment , in other words these psychiatric persons are normal but having acute intrinsic psychiatric inhibitors which vitiate the live environ on micro to super mega scale of society/global society.

I hope it will be of immense usage for further R&D in Psychiatry

Have a nice time

Do respond

Love !!

LOVE WITHOUT TOPIC 25.6.11 11.07 PM

just now
a few minutes earlier
a smart girl was showing her cell
put on flashed mode

I definitely got all
but Love !! its practically meaningless to me

I went to my dentist Dr.
she probably was too busy somewhere
some people were decorating the ashvamegha yag horse
I got all
but Love !! its again practically meaningless to me

you shall ask
I will reply come soon

chalo tab tak I will write a poem for you

one day I was driving my way to Khadusriram ji in Sekar District of Rajasthan
I went to attend a marriage ceremony of one of my close friend's sis
At night I stayed in a house of his close associate
The people were too affectionate and the room was beautifully decorated
I could not ask the beauty behind that creation
The effort is still fresh at my memory lanes

I saw a man going to the temple whilst crawling like a reptilian member
it was not shocking
As I already new of such devotional aspects at mata vaishnav devi temple

I know the English call it crazy

but Love !!
Love is crazy always

You must have read the letters of former PM of India Nehru to his daughter whilst he served the jail term for participating in independence movement.

Love comes at a profuse cost
some times love itself becomes meaningless

but I will not touch Indian democracy
the reason is simple
it has failed its peoples at large.

Chalo choro aur batao tumara kya hal hei

me is damn lethargic guy

Tomorrow I will be visiting kiran's house

I tel you an interesting facet of our literary wizards

I am sorry I can not write these secrets

I suddenly got encountered with the stupid scientific cranks of communists giants

Now instead I tel you a scientific secret

Secrecy is absolute lethal in scientific world

have a nice time

good night

4.45 AM 26.6.11

I got up early this day
but its not a new thing with me

electronic surveillance and crank red scientists simply pour their bullshit science unhindered : Probably they have forgotten that civil nuclear facilities are as prone to disasters as the implosion of the military nuclear missile system but the problem is the neutral public : this incidentally have always been a biggest casualty in the warfare scenarios

chalo choro

this time when I met you at sirsa
I simply forgot to ask
if you love to have a sonfia pan

I do have sometimes

this time
I will come
but I don't know whether sirsa have this sort of pan over there

I remember a pan wala
probably its on a road towards New Mandi (the one other than your home side one ) : probably Raja pan wala

my memory is not that much strong

but Love !!

don't ever think of

that

bapa ki dunia or cold blooded murderers can snatch you from me

have a nice time

I have taken medicine
probably after time
its effect will be at full stream

but I never keep my words to beautiful way of life styles

I am trying to absorb your psyche
one day I may get a little disciplined

I forgot to write
I am not that jhil ke us par wala romantic bastard

Nor I am damn oldy movies style
Neither Pakiza style

but who I am
its you and you only

I have a flower market at CP
I have never been to this as its timings are too early

when you come at my place
we shall go
I love Magnolias
I shall have a necklace

but I am definitely not hindi movie style bullshit panwala cranks
Infect I simply hate bollywoodians

they are simply khusras around

chalo choro
do tel me have arisen up

I hope you wake up around 6.30 PM

I am so Euphorbia royalana syndrome
I have never talked to you my heart

I hardly know your life style

chalo choro

kiran is there

I am always secured and carefree
with her Magnolian Love

12.49 AM
27.6.11

today you have heard me live
I threadbare discussed the infinite some know how with kiran

I am the ultimate

I challenge any bloody bastard

come and face me direct

No bloody testing business

Have guts to face me live

I am discussing with your bliss around me

the reason is simple

I live in the filthiest environment

have a nice time

good morning cum good night

Love !!!







source : Anu and written for Anu

Slavery redifined through the cast system eye syndrome.

Darlin Anu !!

How are you !!

Probably I am writing you this live love letter for the first time. Definitely you shall ask what is that special compulsive instinctive syndrome that proved this Euphorbia royalana syndrome to go public to that an extent. The reasons are too scientific. Indian cultural history has been distorted by the English to such an extent that Indians are simply considered the religious cranks only. The truth is simply a horrible contrary factuality . We have no data available of our rich past. The enigmatic truth is that carbon dating can not establish the existence of Lord Krishna and his eventful happenings. Well Lord Rama also met the same fait accomplish . I know you saw me calculating the age of that era in my office note sheets. But I could not complete this calculation sheet.

Reason is very simple.

we have not forgotten the slave instinct and that I have definitely touched it in my bapa ki dunia and/or the cold blooded murderers. Today High Court gave a verdict and the press chose such a filthiest way to write that I pity their teachers who taught them English Literature. And of course the judges are just simply another form of Mayawati who has no know how of our great heritage. They hardly know that Manu smriti is not the initial history but a distorted version of slavery. Lord Krishna and Lord Rama belonged to an era of eventful time when casts were just notional to represent the smooth division of labour to obviate the conflict order of society generally seen during the later geological era of European history. Incidentally our land is of the order of 5 billion years back. And Dwarka of Lord Krishna is literally hidden under a deep ocean layer of say 20 meter high near coastal Gujarat.

have a nice time

Do come at the earliest.

Love,

Inflourescence June 24th 11 : 10.20 PM

if you ask me
I shall say
I love you

the wast lands
I have kept intact
to live it again

we shall travel
light always

the moments
I resile back
the heats
I find

direction free
I will drive


I remember Nirala
the thorny pathways
to the mighty Lord Krishna

I shall thrive
may it be
another vacuous feel
you give me


yes !! you have caught my thoughts

its andheri bhi achei' langnei lagei'
ki saya' bhi apna dikhaei na dei

source : anu

FLOWERS OF RAJPATH 23.6.11 11.17 PM

one day I was standing at a place its called as bhimtal in east while uttar pardesh

magnolias did exist at that time too
but probably my know how was yet to get the executive files.

I was forced to visit the same place by chance and I found the magnolias did fade before I could realise its scintillating fragrance

the Nature is never docile at heart
I was placed on duty when Israel former PM came to Delhi and I visited a place called Draupati Ghat Allahabad> I was lost to see the freshening fresh Magnolias and my colleagues too busy at their work. Probably I make my team too dedicated and motivated in seconds.

but I know the Nature never promises rose gardens. I was too absorbed at my eventful days at Bal Bharti Public School . This time when I visited this place I saw the most filthiest place in the world: its called Rohini District Courts. I saw only snakes and scorpions were crawling all around. But I did see a police gipsee on duty. I thought they have had come to catch these poisonous and vicious tentacles of the earth but I was again aghast to find that magnolias already faded before I could realise their worth.

Now this Saturday I am going to My sweet heart and Lord Shiva Kiran Malhotra.

My purpose is only one

where are my scintillating Magnolias.

FLOWERS OF RAJPATH 6.22.11 9.48 PM

Darlin I am sorry I have forgotten your name

I am very poor at memory

You know its a bliss in disguise

You will say how come?

simple !!
it spares infinite bio software to invigorate your senses
for a better half of your being around

but one Psychiatric hidden aspect I shall share with you

poor memory obviates the process of one being vulnerable to extreme fixations

Yes !!
You got my heart
Kiran K.... kk...kkk...
yes love !!
Sharukh khan was at his best in that movie
but incidentally I also forgot the name of this movie

Probably I saw it in a theater at CHD

I am not a bollywodian by taste

you will simply laugh
I forget my house No. itself

but my GPS is simply horrible
I can link the plasmatic expenses to this bullshit earth

You will not get surprised
again reason is very simple
the electronic life represented in an American movie is too too recent

Any how !!
do tel
how are you

have a nice time

FLOWERS OF RAJPATH 6/21/2011.11.08 PM

Probably you have seen this bullshit ghost house many a times in which I have again picked my pen to surf through your heart

I have not seen your work
the reasons are too known to you

I like company only

And there is hardly anything
that matches my psyche

may be
your aura speaks of my univ life

the snap is of special importance to me

You will ask why?

but darlin
I am too too introvert

whilst at the memory lane
you have a special space at my heart

well !!

do come
I shall make a cup of tea for you

don't worry about the controversies surrounding me

I am Ajay Ahuja only

I generally avoid my cell too
but
Now I have used to click at the speaker button first

I do have confidence
I will recognise your voice

with Love

I am crossing my neutrality threshold to give you my no.
its 09868940255

inflorescence June 9.51 PM .14.6.11

meire ghar mei
kuch puranei bartan

is bar meri kanteen mei
kuch fragrant sa

socha tum aaogei to'

I know you are looking at me

but come at an early date.

do remember I will never allow
the bullshit bapa ki dunia

but love

I tell you one secret

there is a ghost and crank psychopath country
its called China

I tell you anther secret

I can thrash this Red hierarchy

with my human brain

with lots of love

ajay ahuja

FLOWERS OF RAJPATH..June 11.1.13 PM

A day after, when the scientific world has crashed and imploded on itself ; I have a meaning out of their mess created around me.

I know you are Farah hussain

But I hardly remember my names

you might have seen this bullshit ghost house

but I have yet to know myself

Pakistan is not far away place from this damn house but darlin I am literally lost genius. I am literally Euphorbia royalana syndrome. But if you endeavor to come to India I shall be waiting you where you happen to be.

one is there: I am too too simple by taste

but I will love to have hot chocolate fudge with you at CP at Mc Donald.

with love

ajay ahuja

FLOWERS OF RAJPATH June Ninth 11, 1.33 AM

me and my lonely heart

I often talk
as the wavy paths
traverse on my psyche

I know
Raisina road

it has a meaning
every day
I wake
the reality
it fights

I search you
at every face
I do encounter

awakened
or
else

kalakadar

I have a name

I know
love is beyond

I do
utter
at my heights

I know
a day after
you shall come

but love
do remember
I have
the filthiest world
around me

A Heart Speaks

the ocean I saw

Now when I struggle
the paths
of my own makings

I search you
as I stride hard

some time you lost
I stumbled
to reach to your arms

I ask my self
who I am
as you breath
close too fast

the soft of your words
you spoke
when I waivered

the sighs
hidden at
I speak to
when I see
the horizon

I search
till I retire

FLOWERS OF RAJPATH ..June 3rd 11.1.24 AM

A moment when I again lost the purpose of my being around

I have recalled you

probably my staggering feet have evoked a sense to fight again
with my own self

Rajpath my karam bhumi

I take shadow
under your Himalayan hair
the scorching heat
the mirage effect
I get hallucinated too often

the other moment of my reverberated
relevance of unison
the thoughts of oblivion

I take step in step
in your aura

to realise
where I got lost

my Euphorbia royalana syndrome
probably shall never allow

to decipher
the depth of your beauty

but I do know
Love is complete in itself

FLOWERS OF RAJPATH. june.01,11.1.12 PM

Darlin Neha it has been too long since you encountered me.

probably time has taken its own tole

but I have not found one simple reply which I was looking since then

The question is :

Why love is only successful at thoughts level only.

my explaination is as follows:- (but its subject to your approval )

you must have read my inflorescence where I wrote the basic working of human brain and how the memory is stored and get retrieved through an infinite array of bio feed back mechanisms.

but love ! the story is not that simple.

it functions under two basic principles : potentials and kinetics of physics.

In school level probably now a days students know how this equation is related on ground reality.

say a factor of ~ is the driving force of this equation as is understood in modern day computing software the well known executive file(s).

the executive files as called catalyzing factors in feed back mechanism of brain gets blocked and or deviated else where resulting in total failure of retrieval of memory proteins

the ibid is total eclipse of a brain which I generally refer to as "bapa di dunia" or the cold blooded murder in my verbatim confusion.

Now I tell you another horrible reality around.

this eclipse is permanent in normal human beings particularly encompassed by the factor of ~ of bapa di dunia but its temporary or time and space driven in psychiatric patients eg neurotic psychosis ; its equally but analogously applicable to psychosis and even in case of complete insanity on clinical grounds.

do write if you receive this msg through this bullshit globalised electronic camera.

Love !!

now do tel me how my heart can be convinced that princess of Saudi Arabia will throw it away like what happened with Kalidas of Indian literature.