I have often

I have often wondered
lilies in hands
meant for some table tops

some say smiling
we bring the day

others opine
something

I have yet to know

I have often 

lets say good evening

lets say good evening

when heats has stricken

leaves have yet to fall
air plays 

dance 
tuned to its

lets say good evening

Love ! when you shall come I may get right to live a life. An anchor to strive upon. I really dont know when you will come. 

of love.

when you shall forget
where you started
where you are

you can touch
reality

I write hard
harsh
soft

every eve

you love

may be

you have

a bit distance

of love 

sclerosis psychosis takes the form of hatred if not checked. 

I hope your father will behave better.

Deepika do ask your mom to read  this letter. I paid a courtesy visit at anu house to say hello to her father as he was having illness. He deliberately brought a stale cake for me and was all smiling with stale smile on his face. I do not know whether a father can become a Nobel Laureate by this wicked behavior. whilst he was saying me off he made a rush back to his house back as if some bloody billions of dollars were lying open at his table where he brought that stale cake. I hope your father will behave better. 

your environment.

This sclerosis psychosis is so lethal that I am facing harsh life in my flat and people are looking whether a female is there in the flat. You r environment is just replica of this. 

I may not know

time passes
forces its power

I feel vacuum 
at heart
in environs

may be

Nature has thought

I may not know

Loss of sagacious ness on this face is because of psychosis sclerosis which may or may not compound further 

Lime light getting prevailed upon and then the same phenomenon getting reverse prevailed in discord is another instance of psychosis sclerosis eg priti zinta senior kapoor lady some khan lady some rajesh khana wife etc etc 

In plants there are sclereids an analogous of sclerosis situation in mammals and other animals as well. these are protein cum calcium cycle gone wrong in most of the cases. In psychology there is psycho sclereids whereby brain renders itself misfit for normal life as aberation psychosis runs the roost. Humans suffer from this phenomenon by their own action primarily. This misfit psychosis further renders one to be lethal for many down the pipe line of existence. Good Evening. 

I have stopped writing owing to depression getting more severest ever. what you faced is just minuscule to that I am facing. I am struggling for life bit by bit and its so painful that a very few can really survive this. 

written on thin air.

pale and shriveled
why it denotes

notes
written on thin air

I have asked

it moves
strikes again

stones 
after stones

notes
written on thin air

un heard again.

Time was speaking
notes of thy
unheard
it spoke
time and again

time shall reside
other side of thy

it shall speak

notes

may be 
un heard again 

I have been tested and tossed upon by practically dozens of girls and they tossed the value of my flat in what sense not target being marriage and all ended in a filthiest drama. BY STOPPING SMS OF MY SALARY ACCOUNT AND ASKING JAL BOARD EXECUTIVE TO ASK ME OF MY WATER BILL MAKES A SENSE FOR THE CONCERNED but its simply nothing to me.

One day I remember 1998 a senior col wished me happy week end on late Friday evening probably getting a chance knowledge of how and what has happened with me. I smiled and wished back. By some info it doesn't make is so but smiles are good even in darkest. 

I have asked

feel good 
I have goaded
hard
hard est  soft

may be
telling verbatim
it moves little

a little 
may it be nice

I have asked

                                                                                                                                                                                             

LIVING COMPANY.

Love ! this letter will stir your soul if understood at your level of development psychology. I am facing deadliest depression that probably is killing me silently. I am living in a vacuum because of lack of support system of any kind. Its literally living a pathetic life. The proxy war of hatred of RC Minhas and war of hatred in punjabiat known as shareek war of hatred has literally sucked oxygen out of my life. Your pictures are probably the only living company with me. 

sky

it asks
where is sky

time makes
what may be
time itself
remains unaware of

it asks again

what should I say
its everywhere

it doesn' t pacify
its nerves looks

a sky

my silence speaks

what is 
probably forbidden