under no circumstances my writings should be ready by those who have happened to be affected by their own actions which they perceive I am responsible for their fate. 

yes Deepika at face book its not possible to write as you see I have literally stopped the time if one can understand. Love now you can read my all letters which are sciences only. yes ricky and navu should be well at their home at chandigarh and I know you are quiet happy at your place. well I can not say when you can actually come to Delhi as its in your hand : have you understood love I am stopping the time at one hand and your hand is only in your hand. 

it knows nothing

when my heart says
its tough
really tough

I pick my soul
with you
without remorse

I know

time is great
it knows nothing
of the sort

Deepika through you I am again compelled to convey that kids can not be equated with sex, marriage etc etc. I do not need any money nor I can have such , nor I can have any property etc. I am living alone for my ricky and navu because any female coming in this house will cut all lines to communicate with my kids and live with them when there is a chance or so. 

Common Sense is very difficult word to understand.

Love I dont have any of your such snap at which this letter can be penned down. The great mother and Satya Parkash Minhas and Kapal Minhas along with their Minhas and related brother hood mother hood sister hood and what not hood are crying on phones : divorce ho gya hei ham kya karein. I was having no contact of navu and ricky and cell phone is of very very recent phenomenon( for me I mean to say ). I went to their house at Chd and was not allowed to meet the kids. I came back several time and one day I thought lets try another luck and kids were sent in a restaurant to meet me. navu was saying how are you papa. ricky was silent . 

Deepika I am going to pen down a love letter to you that will stir every body heart and brain provided one has : Say in 1986-87 I was staying as a shadow tenant in a small hut on top of the house /kothi of my father sister. I used to sleep on a small make shift cottage with a mosquito cover and used to have meals during night time down stairs with father sister live environment. She was impressed at my so accurate cutting of onions to the computer finished small pieces and staying on top whole day during vacation and busy at books plus going to office and coming back straight as it was 6 day working environment. I stayed for about 1.5 yrs then she one day said you have to vacate the premises. The actual reason was his adopted son was just to bring his beautiful wife in this house. 

at every heart

I often ask
the shadows
shade
the sun way

I have searched
where the daffodils 
smile if at all

I have seen you

some where
at every heart

I started writing for the awakened and young brains my mistake was that I somehow forgot that kiran malhotra and another kiran malhotra life will be at danger at the mercy of mundane brains if I took them as characters just like you see now a days some calender girls are in vogue . In the same equation I can understand that you have very valid reason of becoming fearsome of your future carriers before giving any hint to the media of being tagged as I have read about many happening females eg Madhuri, Juhi chawla, senior Kapoor lady, even the junior one, some aruna rai of the yore , rekha lets not be that much listy , you have a very perishable and uncertain shelf life as no body can tell the public mood but if you come to me I will give my ecclesiastical powers to you that point you have if you some how decide in that equation but you will ask how it can happen that is my own secret. (I hope my real sister and her coterie will not read this article. as they are becoming more and more sick as the day passes. ) 

yes Deepika I am writing the solution too, in such a soup the female has first first, and male has the second first but male second first CAN NOT CHECK MATE the female first first. other s to be ignored. have you understood love, solution is there if you can think a little beyond the walls. 

yes Deepika you can say that relatively less evolved brains suddenly happened to be on cross roads of their own motive driven self or collective self without realizing that information blast may encounter them collectively resulting a such a big soup that defies definition. 

of the blues around

web site didn't allow your snap any how.

I see the straw
I have woven
my small days

time has come
may be again

to have
what is not
the horizon way

I love you
whispers my heart

I do not know
how it makes
happy notes

of the blues around 

day and night

sun has retired
come 
I have recalled you 
as my heart retires myself

I know
its like that only

may be
it can fetch

a meaning
me and my heart
look 
day and night 

Deepika I know you are one of the most intelligent girl happened to have a niche on earth but love you can not understand the vicious and wicked tentacular moves of Satya Parkash Minhas and Kapal Minhas so kindly relax and never ever think to compel me to delete my any entry on their behalf.

when you shall come
I ask my heart
you may be at your words

I get no reply
may be 
this was sufficient 
to make
the volcano 
have a sleep

may be 
its momentarily 

Deepika those who are finding girls for me I am ready to pick my etios and go with them to find girls for them, it indirectly means I am absolutely nice , social and flexible person and it is they who have hacked my this good behaviour and made RC Minhas a never dieable person. 

This is a public letter

Deepika I am compelled to pick my pencil. Satya Parkash Minhas and Kapal Minhas started selling their mother to the manager in 90-91 deal failed as the lady was too old then they started with bholi i.e Neeta Minhas on the pretext that her hubby is busy with sex with maids but deal did not finish as manager was not ready to give the cash then they offered sunita minhas to him but deal failed as riddu came into and RC Minhas took over the war of hatred now you will say RC Minhas is dead why the war is going on I will say love who the hell realises that he and she has become RC Minhas on ground reality. 

Nothing Deepika I am sick very sick today, viral fever has literally made my backbone pain like I cant tell you, I was thinking had you not been busy at your work you must have come to me to atleast give me glass of water.

is it not enough

dark and white 
crystals of my heart
I have yet to make
see if 
it fits at all

my soul whispers
is it not enough

asks my heart.

narrow 
stinky
why the stuff is so boring
asks my heart

daffodils smile
where the crowdy crunch
find its fag
end 
end is thy world

asks my heart

I know
its with me

a time
a spell 
comes
with another quest of mine

some laden
shallows

I ask instead
lets see

Deepika through you I am conveying this message to my real sister that I am not interested in any female reason is that the moment a female happens to live with me all my assets which are the bonafide right of ricky only will go to that female. 

Deepika I was thinking to discontinue writing poems to you as I feel it is creating a havoc situation some where , which I never intended. If at all I discontinue then  I dont have a life line to survive the pathetic life which I have happen to live with so kindly suggest after discussion with your mom ujjala ( I am not using this letter for any body else except that you yourself on earth ).

I smile again

I search the buds
they are fresh'n fresh
time has just smiles
wonders of Nature
I look one by one

I know
time has buds
I know
I have fresh'n fresh
to match the smile
hearts'n at hearts
of mine

some how it says
I am the ultimate

I smile again

I know the ground reality is boring and dull , I will try to paint love in a poem : sometimes later on. Deepika I dont know how you negotiate the world around. 

well you have asked a solution out of the mess : I will say I have been in this mess till my memory goes ; the lonely walls and lonely ways probably that are the solutions. 

you want to know why : It is a combination of brute forces of ground reality applied for obvious pathetic reasons. 

Deepika in certain matters you are zillion times lucky : I know you have psychiatric ailments emanating from public exposure syndrome ( you dont know this hi fi science, neither your doctors know it - I am not elaborating for obvious reasons. ) But if you feel that what I told you I have not understood why thousands of peoples fought with me a proxy war of hatred and a proxy war of love, Love this war ( both inclusive i.e war of hatred and war of love ) seems to have no end.