What it means.

nahi deepika for me probably writing to you is the only a better occupation , yes I am not well but being not well is something better not say you may find me so every time when you will come here. 

some times I do ask 
is that I will write 
when you will be 
with me

but then the point is
why to write
we will go somewhere
say 
for a walk

my heart pokes 
I hope

I understand
what it means.