I do not know what language I can speak.

I am sketching a life of say 1978 at univ a place of too uncertain nerves provided one has. I could not develop how to speak in English and tell what exactly I mean to say. We were thinking IAS compulsory speech in English if your medium is English could be understood by kumar vishwas of that time. Naturally he is not first first of non sense I remember some VP singh made a pull able model of bofors and made it swing every where in particular in hindi belt of India. Everybody know he is the person who made rajini a shit business not congress of India. But kejriwal will say lo ji lo marho naro kei hovo ga fir. I remember a person known as some bani ram bagri he devised his own kejriwal and anna hazare business and was sent to the peoples house by the peoples only yaar, not once three timesd ie for 15 yrs : bhai logo thei jareion' socho pani mei sei kender ki sarkar bijli yaani thari tatak bolion' bhai sarkar jab mei sei tatak nikal leivein' to baki kei bacho foko pani bhai tharo khetan' mei foko pani bhajeion' kender ki sarkar bhai thei socho fir tharo fasal kiso ho payein' I was telling you of a person who narrated something after every prayer in the morning hrs at school life, I have searched my best what exactly he wanted to tell us but probably I need more efforts. I was going to my work at univ and got interrupted by some person who happened to be a black and wanted to inquire of say the petty offices and the like. After a converse of say 15 minutes I said I hope I could convey what you wanted.  And added that I am not well versed with spoken English. He smiled and said but you are speaking English only and I understood exactly what I expected. I was not pleased as I knew IAS exam is different world and I know I got failed owing to this bloody business. I have been failed in HAS due to hindi only. I do not know what language I can speak.