INVERTED SPRUCE JUNE 25.12 9.54 PM

Today I was standing at Bank of Baroda counter of Nirman Bhawan New Delhi India
I was searching you 
may be you have known me and my worth


The lady officer from whom I got my passbook updated knew all
so did I
but she was also wondering why you still missed such an opportunity


my heart asks me 
Darlin 
is it so
I said what


It whispered
Love is an opportunity only


I was literally stump bold by my heart


I kept quiet too long


I deposited the money


My heart asked again


is it that


I said what


my heart whispered again


depositing money will fetch her to you


I was literally jostled out of my all senses


but still I kept quiet


my heart didn't budge


it said


Darling I told you
Lets go on car to Defence Colony Branch


I still kept quiet


it was nervous by this time


I really don't know


how to tell my heart


the existential truth around me


one day I saw you 
my heart whispered 
I said what


bullshit say I love you


I didn't 
I know my introvert Nature


your colleague officer of your age
knew 
What I wanted to hide


but my heart again whispers


I said what


bullshit at least Now say I love you


I say instead 
its Darwin law


it retorts back


hell with you
say !! I love you


before I could afford to pull out of my oblivion


I suddenly got to know
world is watching me at this moment


but I do say


Are you awakened at this moment
its 3.13 AM Indian standard Time with me
you can have a flash back of my love
the moment 
you feel the monotony of work
I know 
dedication to work
is a shadow of you


May be your half aura 
it has arisen 
to  Nanons of mine


my brain
the bullshit Einstein with me
opines
I don't think so


I know
the bank job is highly taxing


But darling
I am bloody "wela" on my seat
all the time
still I feel a misfit around


My soul now opts to speak


Don't you think 
you're a bit more outspoken


I keep quiet for too too long


and my quiet nerves
its an eternal truth


probably 
a day shall come


I may come to your office


I drive Toyota Etios
you can recognize me
it just smiles with me


my heart again says


bloody fool say I love you


I again see the horizon


I see your fingers working


and you
walking too elegant
to pick up the files


lost is the data
of mine
and yours.