INVERTED SPRUCE JUNE 5.12 .8.05 PM

This picture was taken way back three + yrs


I hardly know who she is


but my heart asks


Darlin tell me the difference between


whom you know


while at Kanpur I was driven between the devil and deep sea




I can not afford to pen down my bullshit existence


my heart again interrupts


then what is the use of your infinite know how


I keep quiet


my brain opines
Darlin you create problems for yourself


I see the horizon


but do wonder
is it true




"tum hoti to eisa hota"


my soul whispers


Darlin who is "tum"


I again keep quiet


probably my lonely moments tell all 


which I always try to hide.

INVERTED SPRUCE JUNE 3.12. 10.15 PM

Darlin


how r you.


Today its the beginning of an end. The lines are not mine. Probably if I remember its of Premier of the Great Britain. 


But choosing these lines are of a characteristic odor. All of us read history and the paradox is that none of us try to understand why the hell we really read history. 


An analogue is in Indian epic : The great teacher of that era guru dronacharya. He could not imbibe his piquant destiny when his son wanted milk but he could not provide it. His mom used to pour some water in wheat flour and stir it to make a milk looking like thin and her son used to drink faithfully. 


But darlin the story is not that simple. 


This psycho fixation made the teacher to side with the dhuryodana factor.


He could hardly understand the parasite, leech and begging factor in the live environs.


he could have to be finished by the ultimate prowess of Lord Krishna.


Yes !! Darlin


Here I have stopped the time and space factors put together.

NAKED TRUTH MAY 22 12. 10.41 PM

This is the girl who made me die trillion times a day

but I have died zillions times a moment

the remaining parts are beyond the brains of humanity

I could have destroyed earth

years back 

If I could afford to become selfish.

INVERTED SPRUCE MAY 15 .12 8.08 PM

प्रत्येक दृश्य को
कैसे और
कहाँ तक बाँधोगे
हर पल सरकती
जिंदगी के पीछे
कब तक दोडोगे
दोड़ते-दोड़ते भी
बहुत कुछ
पीछे छूट जाएगा
समय का
एक कतरा भी
लौट कर न आएगा
कुछ पल पहले
एक ठूंठ
नजर आया
जीवन का
परम सत्य
अनायास
ख्याल में आया
वर्षा से
नहाया-सा
शांत, सुंदर
सोम्य-सा
ठूंठ भी अच्छा लगा
कोई पुराना
परिचित- सा लगा
क्या इसलिए की
हर गुजरी हुई चीज
खूबसूरत प्रतीत होती
जैसे अतीत की
समृतिया
वर्तमान से
अधिक प्यारी
लगती है
या यह सोच कर
वह भी कभी
सुंदर रहा होगा
जीवन का
प्यारा रहा होगा

Probably the scientific world has imploded on itself

my be my love too

I use to walk along the Rajpath

the pathway of happenings

My heart often says

Darling 

Where we are going

I keep quiet

it says

Darling

why don't you speak to me

I still keep mum

as the steps of mine

they stride on their own

direction free

may be

my love 

has not been created so far

INFLORESCENCE MAY 14 .12 12.15 AM

She is my senior most sweat heart

an intellect infinite some 

her one line can make me write trillions of DScs.

Humanity can never understand

who the hell I am.

my all infinite some cosmic powers simply bow before her

Today I am not going to write anything 

I am least interested in teaching or preaching

Tomorrow is my working day

I the docile touch me not entity around

But I have something to reckon with

Yes !! my beautiful worthy Armed Forces Officers

I hardly praise any body out of bullshit slave instinct or something sadistic etc.

A new day 
A new beginning


Let us start 
working 


with love
lots of love.

LOVE LETTER. MAY 12.12 7.50 PM

 I wish I could have been with you at this place

all of you are at your best 

yaar!! my this bullshit electric connection has been hacked by the cranks

so is my love

Don't worry 

I am simply Euphorbia royalana

you will say 

what is this bullshit thin

I shall say its beauty of the Nature

but it has a genetic clock

that gets tripped off with a flash of light at around 2 AM onwards but till 4 AM

you will say

 its a bullshit jargon to us

Don't worry 

next time 

we shall meet

But darlin

Don't press for eatings

As I live like lichens

Lots of love to you

All of you are too too smart and beautiful

Love

INFLORESCENCE MAY 10.12 7.18 PM

Darlin Neha !!


my most beautiful Armed officer has given a piece of love and I accept it with fathomless entirety. The remaining part is secret even for you.


Today I have changed the course 
Let nuclear bombs get prepared 
I can use any time.


You will again say 
what the hell you are talking about


I will say nothing 
its ditching quotient 
faced by me at every corner 
I fumble to step up 


On ground realities too
this bullshit ditching quotient has been so sever
my nerves simply get burnt up 
at the chance of memory feed back


and my feed back and speed
its beyond the imagination of humans


Now darling 


tell me
what should I 
tell to my heart


as its 
the most 
stupid thing with me.