One solace with me.

Love I have yet to learn how to live alone. I have literally forgotten whether if I lived with someone worth the name as torture has taken all spirit out of me. I know a lot of war prisoners and prisoners but I have lost sense of being of myself with the fate I got. writing letters to you may be one solace with me. But it depresses me as being devoid of life at all. 

with you

wandoor
you might have 
memory is 
lets not say

I have seen
lets not say

emotions
my heart often

I skip
all time

bubbles of me

my being 

with you 

You can ask

I am writing the conflict on shoot, strait of Malacca and Suez canal are main life support to Europe and America but communist giants have made their mind to block this by further vicious act to occupy the Bay of Bengal corridor of resources, if unchecked this will lead to a world conflict whereby India will be sucked into the conflict being at center of of geo political cauldron. You can ask your mom what I mean to say.      

by 2020 India may become an epicenter of  world order conflict thus sending life into basic gear of existence. Probably you can understand that I write too much serious. Kindly do not send stupid messages on my cell but act fast as I have to submit my papers. 

how far

I was absorbed
long brush 
sweeping fallen 
beautiful champaca

I could feel 
fragrance
heart of hearts

why dustbins

flowers may find
a niche

they have to retire
soon very soon

fragrance lit large

I wondered

how far

you should info your mom ujjala economic meltdown is going to throw down your occupation and persons all after your money whilst I want my pension sufficient enough not to make u a  meena kumari of yore but it  can be made in your name and for that you need to sign some papers. 

Love one day I wrote of a hut at top of a house and unbearable heat for Rs 200 per month. I was called in Oberao Continental and rebuked for a cup of tea which even was not offered for the point of signing the divorce papers. Today I have divorce decree signed by an authorized judge lying in my cupboard. Heat I have to bear for life.