LOVE NEVER ENDED.

I am compelled to pick my pencil even to clean bloody toilets of others. I was studying in RSD High School sirsa during the period 1966-1971. I am putting a paint that one colourful another pitched dark. I was having many friends with me. It was a worth reckoning period of my life. There was a friend turned foe whose father was running a cycle showroom. One nice day he started bullying me. Gey is nothing new in this world. I dont know how he found a gey in me. He started the name of one person called Jagdish whose father was a math teacher in our school and I went to his place for tuition as he charged only 50 rupees and it was within my pocket reach. Later on I got to know that this crank was triggered by a student of bhishamberdyal another math teacher. It was horrific and I seriously dont know whether there is any difference between that foe and baghla family. Time never stopped I encountered another friend in Ramesh. I always kept a distance as it a bad taste of now. But this man a bloody tokra of Love went after me just to find my skin. AND HIS BLOODY LOVE NEVER ENDED. Probably colourful is more painful that is why I am taking time to paint that. 

yet to know.

I have spread ed my arms
sometimes
quiet ways
often pitched
hard
fast
slow and calm

where I am
what for

eyes lost
other end
horizons
speak
knots of thee

I  ask
verbatim
of what

may be

I have
yet to know

we were approaching jolly boy.

Love I am painting of what is actually more than a paint, Our itinerary at Wandoor can be depicted that romantic affair that is possible only in some legendary books only. I may take extra time to finish this love letter so you can relax at your work. Love I am fed up with my so called family persons and so called related co related laws family members it appears they have gone defunct with crank brains and hearts. Sometime I do ponder whether if there is something at which I can recluse upon and find probably my love letters are that important to me which I my self never knew of this vacuum thus created. Love is where love resides. You will probably wonder at my phrase. My letters may tell you a way of the theorem which I have happened to write here. I was telling you of Wandoor, as the name suggests its romance lit large everywhere. But Dr Harish Arora finds that his psychiatry is supreme and love is bloody somewhere in a female running after a male or say vice verse. You see pathogens have high degree of evolution. I was concertedly focused at day eventful happenings. I remember every one of us put his her best to get wated bottles issued against some security at the entrance point of Mahatama Gandhi  National Park. The chartered boats having capacity of some 100 persons in a double deck seating pattern were put on hold till all could be accommodated with comfort. We started with an enthusiasm at every face literally visible at their eyes.  Engine  driven boats started their voyage as one comes to a place chalked out to be called heaven and its belongings. You see Love you have not seen the collection that is meant for you I only realised at this moment how important that instinct was to collect for you as the story was being enacted somewhere else. The boats were moving on green waters of ocean and islands which were  many in number looked smart along with its pathway. They felt like smiling and waving their life with us.Plantation of Islands is unique to their place of being around and its depicts the evolution ladder of the ecosphere. Ocean was only known to us on time scale otherwise it looked like a big lake studded with land pieces spread on the horizon. You see love if you ask any body what is India and Indian system, they might say that is the map this is India but what about Indian system to say about. Think over and let the peoples also ponder what I mean to say as the story is very long. I was standing in front of our Hotel, Hill top and all of us were rushing to get prepared for the day. Suddenly my room was being frenetically  searched and calls were made on my cell while otherwise no body knows if I am living at all. Have you ever wondered who are these peoples and what for they are doing all fuss about. They dont bother if I eat something or say if I have medicine with me then what for they were doing all this lambei Haath drama involving the very big peoples too in my vicinity. Yes hum kamarei mei band ho aur chabi kho jayei. I was talking of system Now think about what we Indian are doing. Get married produce kids and let Mr Modi to solve their problems. Its an irony that Dr Baghla and Dr Harish Arora simply made the system rotten where I have mundane activities or say to breathe about. You see love even political opponents do not succumb to that low what they have done. If a sane heart asks them is it possible that RC minhas can live a life with pushpa minhas the reply is simple NO. But why I am citing their name because RC minhas is bloody shit it does not die at all. I was talking to you of a heaven. It took about 20 minutes when we could see the oceanic beauty lit large everywhere we saw. Our team mates were capturing the moments in their cameras which I some how could not do so. I asked you to come here, had it been done you could have reminded me of purchasing such device for making this heaven live at click of mouse or touch button.Sometimes lost chances make another infinite ways of its entirety. I have happened to write extreme sciences here that I will elaborate some time later on. Our voyage slowly and slowly was reaching its point of destination. Some of islands were at far end of our sight while other had become so near as they were asking hei guys welcome to our lands of wonders. WE WERE APPROACHING JOLLY BOY. 

fag end.

Our sojourn at Singapore was different in many ways. It being the fag end of the journey team members were more enthusiastic to visit their families back at home. It was an eventful day long colourful happening. I am pen downing only one flash. I was taking snaps of all sides at the sea shore where some world center is located. I remember my camera got fixed at Lion statue oozing out water jet from its mouth. When ricky came here I got to know again of depth of Psychiatry and was sad why time takes so issues so bad. Rest is hi fi science I cant write here. 

Dr Harish Arora its time .

Dr Harish Arora when I know a global live camera is fitted on my this page as well which is bloody my personal property under all rules how the hell I dont know your nefarious acts. 

what for.

I am rewriting the hell of one sequence to tell you of persons and will leave the subject for you to understand as Dr Harish Arora and his muscle men has probably gone to the extent of contacting your family member their worry is if you come here I will be rich and they can not see me becoming so, When Smridhi came here I used to go to vaishali park just 7 minutes walk from this pc alongwith ricky navu and smiridhi. She felt isolated desolate so I was specifically warmful to her. It continued for 2 yrs and ......................
When war became on active mode ( I told you this war is bloody life long that intensified in 88-89 ) all left me consequently. I have yet to know what for. I am not referring to RC Minhas the deadliest pathetic mammoth and his clones but what happened to those who were not his like. This war turned navu to be so inhumane that makes me ponder why if at all these (..........) that powerful.

Throw your cigs.

Sometime it happens so you try to recollect but the links become bullshit so archaic that paleontology is required to recollect what happened at where and why. But the point is who takes that left over gaps in memory lanes. I dont remember I ever visualized you in some beautiful face or in surroundings then What I intend to say that I missed you may be your heart can tell you in a better way as my pencil can create roses thorns as well where it wishes. Malacca strait I told has been a reminiscent historical link of happening in what sense not. Early in morning at 6 AM we were asked to parade and take the seats. I remember the driver was very sharp as the vehicle was maintaining  100 plus speed something that takes so much into it to be a practical reality. Singapore checkpoint was special and its looks extra when international checking is on road maintained system We were told throw your cig s else this is a Callahan state in all terms.