My heart wanders for relevance.

I can not somehow remember when I saw the movie Guide. I also do not know with whom or say whether I saw it all alone. I have seen movies all alone only one in Jaipur and some at sirsa whilst in my school days. I do not remember I ever ventured to a theater in Delhi all alone. I have many times asked myself why I am not comfortable all alone and a reply remained evasive. I never liked a movie but probably it was company only that gave me a relevance. Till date my heart wander s for relevance. 

sweet girls in what zeans not.

Love you are profusely intelligent and hearty I know very well but probably this letter may let you think a little extra. I have been living all alone for the last 20 years to that extent that even on Dewali there is no candle light light dya light in this house and it remains pich dark when whole of the world celebrates the festival of lights and sweets. MODI SAYS HE IS SADHU AND KYA BEGAR LOGEI UUSKA WHILST TRUMP SAYS HE HAS PUT LIGHTS ON AND LOVES HINDUS. I am borne in a hindu family and there has not been even one person who has even asked me any wishes for such life long period. DR Harish Arora has paraded practically hundreds of girls every day to own this flat and contacted whole of ministry of defence and its hierarchical order and sweet girls in what zeans not. 

Deepika are you serious in your action that if you will not upload my favorite snaps of you I will stop writing or stop loving or say vice verse.

I love you.

Have you ever wondered why love is often confused or say camouflaged with say gains in money property worth position power existential and wrapped in what strategy not.

I have seen lows highs
troughs of my making

sands often tell
scorching my soul
apart

sometimes I recall
what you have

I ponder
if
I love you

hearts hardly get.

Sometimes
it asks
how are the stars
where are flowers

I see at its combines

roads see elsewhere

I ask them
where from
to which way

sign of what

then I recluse

may be
this day

beauty is what

hearts hardy get. 

Good Night Love, I am closing. 

To your heart.

Love probably I told you whole life has gone burnt up and when I visualize the fate of my son my nerves simply shiver. Rest I will tell you in person. I am writing something for you may its liked by you.

flowers blossom
day after night
hugging
smiling their way

as if you will come

some opine
you may be busy

other keep quiet

may be
they are
a little
more closure
to your heart.