all the time.

sometimes
I do ask
whether I am here for you
are
the smiles that fast 
hidden 
glowing 
fresh'n fresh

my heart opines

its not the way
you skirt me
so quiet

all the time 

My etios.

I hardly use my etios in Delhi. kiran is still kidnapped by her system. An Anu name is osama bin laden for me as the spies eyes are fixed with utensil s as my neighbors want to see even the threads of my underwear. Today I have to purchase a gift item as I am supposed to be on an official marriage party at TA (territorial Army ) hostel in Delhi cantt at 7.30 PM  tomorrow. I was thinking to have cuttlery items from Karol Bag and use the etios as its in my midway of commuting. Ranibagh I am not sure whether items can be there. I never ever like that a star of the film world is circumscribed by the system in such way that it becomes a bloody iron caged monkey as even Prime minister of Europe simply walk on road just un noticed by any body. Why Indian s can have a sense like. Security aspect is something you can it can be handled with a little common sense. And I have seen senior managers wiping there penus in front of the beauty queen of the universe and I dont think I have a bio physiology in my body politic whereby I will be having any bloody clutch and gear allignment problem of the cars of the gone by era of Indra in India howsoever Sonia is extremely intellectual in Parliament but once she said to her hubby that the only fear is that < I dont want to loose you > now see the music when hubby is not there it does not mean that she should loose even a common sense of the changed Time.
Inspite of my such letter I dont think you can afford to come as you really have to know how a runner do his job in army ( Indian ) only then you can match my whimsical way of life. 

So Warmth full

How should I know where are you, at least I am alone in my flat. One day I was posted in a office called QMG Coord , its a hi fi office probably you are not aware such jargon s. This was the time when I tried my last fag end effort to save the sinking boat but that is history now as the birds have flown to their destiny like you may be sipping some drinks with your favorites but I am made to believe that you are a lonely heart at your inner psyche and do not like bloody makhies but some how you show to the world that makhies are happening s only as it fetches dollars which quite naturally whole of the world is looking for as I am made to believe that people are ready to throw bloody nuclear bombs for dollar as their own currencies are bloody toilets as per their own chosen ways and mind set ups. Once such a day of my happening at this office a girl newly recruited LDC got posted in my office and I was Officer boss to every body howsoever my boss never liked me some Mr. Datt as I was horribly royal at work and never bothered to sir ji yei kar lo etc. I was extremely pleasant and warmth full with this girl too. I some how failed to notice that she has chosen a boyfriend in the same office and he was with my military boss Maj Gen (now, but Col at that time- lets not name him , he is nice and may not like so open talks. ) now, once such opening day of the day I was so warmth full that she felt as I dethroned the legacy of his boy friend. But it was very very late I could realise. After That I have made a point not be so warmth full.  

Deepika there is a horrible misconception about romance and love as such on earth in totality starting from individual s to mega scales say groups in groups social systems etc etc just to identify the nomenclatures vs its actual people , I will not preach over here, but who is yours he comes to you straight and who is not yours he makes alibi and existential hypo and hyper , now the point is how to identify who to move first and when and what etc. have you heard navita she asked me if I am available. My door gets opened the moment the knocker has a heart other than what I have explained. 

what I have spell

I have written
how love
it spell like

may you read
its a little difficult

hazy quirky
nerves may say
this is that

may be 
you have
what I have spell  

what I was

I wanted to locate a fluorescent species of some flying chap but probably google is not that much google. Any how.
 I have not
thought
a day may come
some one
mine me only
shall ask
how are you

may be
its far
far ways
me mine

I search
hard and hard
at my heart

may be
I have not
searched

what I was

a poem

yes sometimes I do believe you love me.

some moments'
I have forgotten
when 
if they come back
I better forget

my heart says
is it true
or you just
want to write 

a poem