Deepika through you I am conveying this message to my real sister that I am not interested in any female reason is that the moment a female happens to live with me all my assets which are the bonafide right of ricky only will go to that female. 

Deepika I was thinking to discontinue writing poems to you as I feel it is creating a havoc situation some where , which I never intended. If at all I discontinue then  I dont have a life line to survive the pathetic life which I have happen to live with so kindly suggest after discussion with your mom ujjala ( I am not using this letter for any body else except that you yourself on earth ).

I smile again

I search the buds
they are fresh'n fresh
time has just smiles
wonders of Nature
I look one by one

I know
time has buds
I know
I have fresh'n fresh
to match the smile
hearts'n at hearts
of mine

some how it says
I am the ultimate

I smile again

I know the ground reality is boring and dull , I will try to paint love in a poem : sometimes later on. Deepika I dont know how you negotiate the world around. 

well you have asked a solution out of the mess : I will say I have been in this mess till my memory goes ; the lonely walls and lonely ways probably that are the solutions. 

you want to know why : It is a combination of brute forces of ground reality applied for obvious pathetic reasons. 

Deepika in certain matters you are zillion times lucky : I know you have psychiatric ailments emanating from public exposure syndrome ( you dont know this hi fi science, neither your doctors know it - I am not elaborating for obvious reasons. ) But if you feel that what I told you I have not understood why thousands of peoples fought with me a proxy war of hatred and a proxy war of love, Love this war ( both inclusive i.e war of hatred and war of love ) seems to have no end.