clowns I have heard

clowns I have heard 
day and night
fathomless nerves
faces
clowns I have heard

may it be
why Cant I be one
fathomless
clown I have heard

clowns I attire
one by one
thread free
I get 
as I travel
clowns I have heard

clown I adore
one by one
direction less
I get
as I find
clowns I have heard

who is that 
clowns I have heard
I fail to see
clowns I have heard

Etios was asking dont you feel there is no package deal.

I have cached your snap which you never even thought of that I may do so. You are beautiful smart catching and other aspects too. I have not chosen it for any such precincts so to say like. One day I was bound to sirsa as usual for my mundanes I stopped at sukheja house as anu who told me that she will be waiting for me got struck some where else. I had no idea why I have stopped at sirsa except that I was putting a stop gap as direct to village is tiresome and not so easy task as there is no arrangement even for a night shelter. After 2.5 hrs later suddenly sukheja but not me ( notice the script ) got a call that anu and family has reached and waiting outside his house at huda sector as its called so. I went outside as per protocol on predefined ways, she said uncle very sorry we got late and struck up. I was having my own car so I followed them after a few converse so to say like. I was informed that they have a job of clicking the package deal. One day this package deal had anniversary day and anu did not bother to inform it. I was again on similar tour and stopped at sukheja house for a while then proceeded to anu house and was in a not defined mood how to react as the package deal along with anu were being hosted at a nearby hotel. I called back sukheja for his help. He said let me try first the option of you being at anu house and finally anu brother came to receive me at his house I was following him on my car to the site as I was not aware of nuances of sirsa however it happened to be a place which is not bullshit bigger than even pitampura and I burnt my whole life over there only. At the hotel a not so old man was the host on behalf of the say originator of package deal. He did not make a protocol friendly attire to make me a part of the new package deal of say some 20 minutes or so and I thought better not react as I know sirsa walas aukat end s at the bloody trilock chand ahuja mandi bazar only. Anu wanted to tell me that she is not a party to the package deal of this 20 minutes. I could not tell her that there is no need to tell me any damn thing.

later I went with them and the host of the package deal in question went away with some verbatim ho ho bhai sahib mhei tharo barei sahib ko jano so vakil tharho shoro aur ham bhi tharo barei bhai kei aachei doost thei I smiled back as if I am the bloody ever possible ulu ka patha on earth. 

next morning I went to village and came back in the evening and I got call over there from anu mom that when I will have food.

I took the food stayed for that night too and started my etios back to delhi.

when I reached at hansi I took a cup of tea and a laado. may be some other etc.

Etios was asking dont you feel there is no package deal. 

Deepika I am sure your mom has not understood this narration you can check it if you are not convinced so. 
yes deepika its a quite mundane way of narration but seriously I don't feel you r mom has still understood. You see a mom feels that she is the wondrous worth to create a person like you ( its for example only ) but its a serious science she doesn't do any damn thing at all. 

you can notice

love
you can notice I have not corrected the first two letters of the starting address , probably you will wonder that I am lazy or might have taken bloody opium or some good vodka of sena bhawan or may be I bloody have fallen in love with you to that bloody too deep level of recognition s and the like. But can you tell me any director worth the name on Indian soil if I am not referring to global cauldron who has given serious effort to depict what is that so to say like that removes common sense on individual levels mass levels and say commune level or say collective level. I know everybody has one basic target it may any set of hell plethora of kaleidoscopic content and value of say any number of platforms of life or say stages of live scenario or say role models or say existential s , the concept of lets see what is ahead or say the precincts of anything that may be broadly categorized under the mega or micro or even nano paradigm of development if I am not to evoke Darwin law as such. I don't think you have a bloody one person in your live world who can simply translate into Hindi or some bloody bullshit local language what I mean to say over here.  

If hallucination is what they mean to say then I feel they should be sent to some good mental hospital etc.

just wait I have to inquire something from ricky , he is with me at the moment and probably preparing to leave for chd.The concept of one ness is practically subjective and profusely misconstrued for selfish motives to an extent the brain hardly gets a notice to say like whether a dysfunction of this basic faculty has really set into.  Well laws are simply a bullshit idea to speak of here. I am touching a very hi fi sciences only. Writers and thinkers have projected a hell nonsense of one ness. I will write if I get a chance to elaborate it as its a very tough subject to even understand a bloody abc of it. When I got a horrible accident around hissar I remember there was no body to even inquire of. Kiran made a bullshit non sense that she and her family was also involved in some other accident , a bloody hell crank brain she showed at that eventful time. Anu never uttered a single word. I know bloody doctorate of sciences on this behavior but it s of no use to tell all. You never bothered to know whether I am alive at all. If one has to live such a bloody pathetic life I really pity what the hell writers and thinkers and all bloody cranks brains of the world really want to tell in their bullshit non senses told or written so far. physical help is a cardinal factor but what to think of it when bloody coherent force is not there. I dont know what is bloody romance which your crank people boasts of and take bloody billions of rupees form foolish peoples all around. If hallucination is what they mean to say then I feel they should be sent to some good mental hospital etc. 

two beautiful rose flowers. March.31.2014.21.30

two beautiful rose flowers
they are asking me
a small garden in my terrace

we have blossomed
may be 
long efforts over ages

we are not sure
but today we are here

two beautiful flowers
they are asking me

I know
tomorrow be 
may not theirs

two beautiful rose flowers

if you could have come
I could have promised
wait for few hrs

two beautiful rose flowers

I should rather confirm the contrary absolute truth is something Indian simply don't accept.

Probably you are not aware of Indian ground realities I am not referring to global cauldron. Its nice you must have received some money for this snap as its your job but aesthetically you could have done something that could have told the truth behind the glitters. There was a time when toilets used to be dry only. Constipation or hard stomach is ground constitution bio logical truth which probably a very few coveted neutral brains know that genetic clock is not simple as is understood in tehlka kaand of India. Its an absolute truth the beautiful lady enjoyed her sex like Monica Lewinsky and when returns were considered to be pea nuts then she somehow understood the potential of saket mass rape case. India is going to elect a new parliament and I dont think any body worth the name put the system in shape and remove all such laws which have been or enacted out of sheer nonsense of popular sentiment etc etc having no substantial reality I should rather confirm the contrary absolute truth is something Indian simply don't accept. 

I hope you have understood my this scientific letter.

This song of your work environment ni mei kamali kamali is profusely good. The female artist is good but probably she needs a little more training from a good master say either- No yaar saroj khan is too too vulgar she has gone crank chal choro yaar its your business. I was in fact wanted to tell you Indian youth and oldies need a special exposure to how to think mature. Well what is maturity is a subjective term. Indian cinema I think is not a fit media to handle this tedious job. tv channels may but point of professionalism vs profit etc etc is a big issue to handle. Any how your this snap is simply mine. 

madhuri is good but she herself needs training as she is not a professional for that point of view. O' come on you need definition of profession, can you feel any bastard can think to challenge me in bio sciences. Have you understood love.  
Deepika I am not in a mood to start a fresh love letter to you, probably humans never understand or learn from history whilst making laws and the like. When whole world was burning and only one bullshit small piece of bone of Adolf Hitler was finally traced by the reds., another reds were preparing to crucify the world I mean to say China. If any body removes or tinkers with my remarks that is practically immaterial as its only me who can change my words etc etc.
deepika our directors should be more tech savvy as human brain needs a combine of extremely slow and extremely fast rhythms to get something to get internalized when we add a human factor to it the negative parts of a genius are accidentally get mixed resulting in a gap so to say like in the final performance. I hope  you have understood my this scientific letter.