Saturday, January 4, 2014

Student Center Panjab University. Jan.04.2013.08.12

Love
I am going to pen down a real science but too too controversial in content and its value quotient 
I am loosely calling it as morning depressive boules

have you seen a tree of mango
the original one 

I will make you  see it

Student Center Panjab University
we will have a cup of tea the full trey one
gossip for a while
I know you will be lost at your pennies
and me finding the word of compatibility

later on I know 
the environment shall adore your fragrance

just a few steps away towards kashayap hall 
just focus
there stands an original mango tree

it bears fruits but say once in a year that too sometimes it forgets to do so

the reason is

the warm of the nights








Friday, January 3, 2014

Anu was a different lot, like you give different statements in press etc etc. Jan 03.2014.23.23

Love
I have been to Kanpur quite a number of times, I know in that reward my salary has been cut and ACRs have been given negative remarks
I remember Kiran used to make my monotonous life a better live able 
Anu was a different lot, like you give different statements in press etc etc

Only one day could be managed
Then it turned out to be a stone city

I know I am again using a different psychiatric terminology

Chandigarh a place of my making and de making could not become a stone house
I know time played its best to do so

I know I have no entitlement to go Chandigarh
Nor I am inclined to spend money to go there and spend time like a wild roaming dog

Delhi in spite of its bullshit history tag and Anu being with me at various places
it could never come beyond a stone city to me

I have no comments for gurgaon as kiran has a chance to come there

sirsa as usual is beyond my comments as Anu is living there
so is my village as Dad Lived there

I always find a difficult task to have a living time with me I should say non the least

sometimes I plan I will become a driver of Anu when she will be on job
The serene environments may give me oxygen to live at

I have no stigma factor with me

I have again used psychiatry paradigm 










Where the sleep has gone. Jan.3.2014.21.45

Love
I am continuing with the same subject as I told you it may take a life time to even pen down a line of action , actual research in labs is a far cry , I know you can not understand it but I feel some brains can have an idea what I have happened to write by this nanosecond.

any how

In our graduation standard virology was a separate full or say dedicated subject. I think professor , I have forgotten his name I feel its some R Singh , was busy at publishing his work in virology. He has put his efforts on bactriophage. My internal guide professor sokhi was a pathologist of much wider scope in content and value. Both did not share their views how to proceed on research. I remember when his book was published it was an exhaustive study to the minutest level possible. Its not that my internal guide was a lesser genius but probably his wider scope made his work a little less panoramic. In R & D this is something you can say an academic point of discussion as basic sciences are not hanuman ka chalisa or say bloody sc st obc who have bloody secured jobs at every level of bloody government hierarchy with no sense of dedication innovation except for bloody izat ki roti

I have been to Solan and Shim la for my research project as some of the minute details were possible only at that places, its I think a potato research center and solan university as such where I was a part of a small project but my scope was limited as the time schedule given to me was a limiting factor.

Later on I was in Shim la in connection with my HAS examinations. It started in 1976 till late 1986 or so but the end result were better not write here. I was at smridhi minhas house too in government quarters. I remember her mom used to give me a big quilt and a hot water plastic bottle to keep intact in shivering cold and study for the exams. I tried to reciprocate her mom but time played a bloody such a shakuni kei passei that I feel I should skip over here. 

I remember it took a lot and lot keep awakened but now a days I really don't know where the sleep has gone

I know some American scientists believe its a pseudo subject in terms of sciences. Jan 3.2014.19.45

Love
I was discussing with you a subject which can never be researched complete I mean to say psychiatry
I know some American scientists believe its a pseudo subject in terms of sciences
Love you see life if seen on the scale of time and space
only the wearer knows where it pinches
the remaining are only major goels

any how

I remember I could never realize there was a need to feel the concept of home when I was living with mom and Dad at my village
Time threw me away at sirsa , mom was with me at that time too but suddenly the spelling of home was asked upon by the environment you can feel like
Dad was not happy with my poor performance like my siblings you can spell like
The scenario shifted to a private hostel in sector 15 Chandigarh , I wrote my first letter to my mom and it was in Hindi, naive as I stood I could only tell that  my hostel trees of mangoes are not accompanied by sparrows. Probably I could only realise sparrows from my moorings of a rustic backdrop having a little to know of 

mom was a little too un sophisticated to know the sciences of kids behaviours and the like. She took it light so I became an opaque to the emotions reflective index at my first visit to my home at sirsa during the vacation period

but love sciences are not that simple that major goels can learn

The vacuum thus created resulted into an inferno of self de recognition
I know I have never used this terminology in whole of the know how written in my web site/ page ricksajay 

I do know satellites have never budged what to write , even to dilute its nonsense of cyclotron aided research and cloned imaging messaging you can feel like in modern aware d world.




Wednesday, January 1, 2014

I know its very difficult to pull on such a desolate and deserted life. Jan.01.2014.23.32

Love
I am continuing with cells possessed paradigm in psychiatry terminology

I have not seen a gathering where people enjoy the so called matrimony and the like
wedding day is studded with monotony of ritualism 
some find it a way out 
of many things
and the like

rishtei hi rishtei 

what a bloody joke

Any how

last time I was with anu. she is very interesting persona not concreted with any symptom of your world.
she asked me a questionnaire naturally I was dude all the time. She played ludo and cards with me I know you get bloody hell dollars for playing bloody dummy card to befool the kiddish masses. 

Later on I was in hurry to come back
however I know its very difficult to pull on such a desolate and deserted life.


I have no comment to offer /27.04.2014

its a proof of Darwin law only.Jan.01.2014.22.32

Love
I was talking of psychiatry 
I remember I talked of cells being over possessed with its contents, content value
Hargobind Khurana was the first geneticist to make synthetic life in the form of artificial messenger RNA.
I remember I wrote some where at my website he could not get a job even of a lab attendant in India but he could make his frontiers in USA, the credit goes to nehruism indiraism congressism mandalism soniaism 

A nation is generally failed by its leadership and its opportunistic tentacles 

peoples can only think say a span of 10 yrs at the maximum

you have not talked to me in person even for once , its a proof

however bloody brain reading tech system is active 24 hrs round the clock

when you don't feel instinctive to talk

its a proof of Darwin law only


I do not wish happy new year from my heart to any one. Jan.01.2014.13.44

Love
I was telling you of psychiatry and its infinite some shores and related paradigms 

our cells are possessive of their content value 
its called formative 
the process is not too simplistic for a naive brain to get a nerve of

any how

you see love I know mundane crunch and its nuances as well

have a nice time
you are looking in this snap as if you are made for me

Love
I was just reading your educational background on net
I think you have some kapal minhas type one

be careful darlin

I am explaining

aeroplanes/ domestic-international -civil  one only,  make the brains bloody filthiest existence on earth
five starred hotels make only bloody sharukh khans who throw away their frustration s coated with sugars to be fool the masses and enjoy themselves instead whilst letting loose a chain reaction of diminishing bloody every common sense on earth

and tea at that starred hotels simply introduces bloody tonnes of opium into your blood.