Till date I am reconciling myself. Dec.21.2013.21.16

Love
In scientific terms writing on snap s is an absolute psychiatric disorder.

Probably there is no escape route too
the mundanes are too harsh to withstand

I remember a day of mine at CAO office where I was working as AO in CAO A-1 (A). I was asked by a senior official to help him to negotiate the harsh realities posed by his junior officer Mr. Bhoumik. he used to come in such an epileptic symptoms which were commonly categorized as the person has been affected by some supernatural effects eg the hawa lago colloquial verbology etc.

I came to know he was leading his life quiet normal but by that time his track  record was too afflicted.

One day when I was studying in 6th standard
I witnessed an old person near my house
he used to collect garbage and store in his room of his joint family
during those days peoples used to love their aged ones
his son used to come home from his small time business and politely gave him bread or say roti of that time
at some time in the month or say so he used to clean his room of his garbage and pile it somewhere in the center point for further lift by the cleaning system of that period
but love psychiatry was not developed at that time to that level I am sure to this extent

I have witnessed another scenario of such colours or say entirety etc
in a house opposite to ours one
A family consisted of a joint system of family as understood during that eventful days
A senior of that house was suffering from alcoholic addiction related disorder
he used to drink in the late evening and come home 
his wife gave him food and the scenario used to shift to another day
he had quite often gone a track off his addiction and created noisy scenario in his house
his brother used to handle whole hell
I saw quite faithfully as psychiatry word was not known at that eventful days

Later on I passed out of my school
went to univ
I became myself a psychiatric person

Till date I am reconciling myself.

Petunia s and Althea s shall definitely smile in Kashyap Hall but their worth shall go waste. Dec.21.2013.17.52

Love
I was busy in mundanes but I have repeatedly written I do not have any ultimate powers worth the name as of now
You see love Psychiatry is a horrific science which is so exhaustive that even specialists or say the innovators and proponents fail to understand its implications what to talk of giving medicines to the patients and looking after the people who have different versions of onslaught of psychiatric aspects not to speak of ailments you can feel like as the advanced psychiatric know how is not meant for bloody USA type peoples or bloody peoples who have a danda of law in their hands or such peoples who are simply government doctors to toe the line of action as prescribed in the bloody medico legal books or say courts as such or say bloody sonia gandhi mind set up etc etc etc I mean to say this science  is only meant for Dr. Harish Arora and Dr. Col Madan and the people who possess the worth of their standard and the like etc etc.

but darling if you simply kick them for your own vested interests then no body can help you

Petunia s and Althea s shall definitely smile in Kashyap Hall but their worth shall go waste

may be some other moments .Dec.21.2013.14.54

Love
I may remind you I do NOT have any ultimate powers with me
the psychiatric diseases I happen to possess or say having a de facto reality with me for the time to come is well known to my known doctors and may be it is on record too some where 
I still remember my drawings of botanical material was very good and probably today I can draw very beautiful pictures of plants when you may happen to be with me and I will be having no maska maro technique with me except to draw some pictures for you or say roam with you in some areas of your choice as my choices have shaded into a pale reality least festive at all

I remember when I used to ferry people to sector 42 Chandigarh like a local fatfatia I used to park my maruti 800 on the vacant thara you can feel like 

Peoples were too impatient to rush to interiors and I was happy to roam around instead 
I remember I fell in love with the store keepers and their shops too 
just roam and have something

Now I see my etios me and this interior of this house

I know kiran used to say love yourself etc

I am planning to visit anu

may be some other moments 

if there is any emotion left to reckon with. Dec.20.2013.06.01 AM

Love
I have not written much at this sort of time I remember
but your this snap is that I have thought to put a love letter to you
I really don't know what you will do at such bullshit paparazzi letters

this is a time
when I used to rush to make toasts for ricky and navu
they were too hard pressed when left all alone to defend for themselves 
the mundane s emotions and harshest all put together

Ricky often used to say Dad every day these snacks
I used to goad him 
It is not possible to make other things

he politely accepted my versions

I used to go down stairs with them
looked for rikshaw
too hurried
sometimes it was not available at all
then I hurriedly used to pick maruti 800 to be in time

generally I used to see rickshaw

observe carefully till such time 
it lost a meaningful visible range

I know Bal  Bharti Public School Rohini Delhi is standing at that place only
where it stood earlier

some time s I see myself

and the words I am writing to you

and see
if there is any emotion left to reckon with  

I have no more ultimate powers with me they have gone with the winds. Dec.19.2013.22.15

Love
I have no more ultimate powers with me they have gone with the winds
now I am just a person of 54 yrs with my personal achieved know how 

its all mundane nothing super natural or metaphysical

I have cached your snap as usual

I have conceded myself a failed genius with my retirement date approaching like I failed in IAS exams
its only me who know the pains

slow poisoning of self with dejection 
and life long humiliation has been a stark reality till this day

I remember my failed worth as if I have received the result only today 

One day I was at Nainetal Khaziar , its called one of the tal of the 7 tals of this mountain ranges

I think its exact name is Bhimtal or something like that
I am talking of 1977
Every n anon spoke of you
and I was lost searching the opiating environs around me and looked sunita minhas instead
It was the month of Jan only
The waters looked too crystalline blue studded with the fragrance which I remember it was love only
I remember where ever you went I searched your path
Later on you were with your friends in Nainetal market 
I purchased a necklace with the pittance from my Dad
I always saw it in your neck
the market was too enigmatic your presence made it scintillating 
and again it was love only I am sure
Some how you agreed to my request to take a cup of coffee in a restaurant nearby
I remember You forgot how to sit in the pitch darkness of the interiors
Later on you were playing your game at a nearby grounds
I was lost at your moments of happenings

I do not know
whether I have written you a love letter
or something else

Man roya ardeia yaad kar kei apni kahni
na koi rah sujhei
bol hoei bemani

It has evolved from Deuteromycetes.Dec.17.2013. 21.58

Love
probably I could never find time to tell the mysteries of plant world and its direct link to earth living bioata you can think like.

Its  a long story and I may not be in a position to write even a small portion of it
I have generally said its the law makers who are the real criminals not criminals as such

Deuteromycetes is a kingdom of plant that tell the infinite shores of evolution of sex and its natural way occurrence
It is incidentally the most dreaded kingdom too for its horrible pathogenic properties and activities . But its the Nature most ever efficient scavengers too

Probably then come the advanced sciences of Bio and Bio related fields of Psychiatry etc
One is Gynecology and Psychology Sociology and the cauldrons of ethics and the like

I told you earth has yet to know its own Charles Darwin and his work . Probably no body has really worked after his work and has simply set aside his work as a bloody anarchy of science.

One is the instinct of mother hood
or you can say child bearing faculty of female

It has evolved from Deuteromycetes

I tell you darling there is not even bloody one scientist on earth who can tell how it is exactly and functional on ground reality.

I mean to say this instinct is a bloody vestigial organ that continued to be functional over the scale of evolution as read on the framework of  ibid faculties or streams of sciences I have referred to

Law make r s should keep the brains with them before bloody rushing to bring horrible laws as it simply destroy the basic purpose of life

but darling its such a wide topic that no body really want to work and rather want to occupy the seats of powers and earn bloody pennies