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I was extremely perplexed to miss my senior general farewell today
things sometimes of immense importance get off your stupid brain with hell of useless stuff stuffed on the hard disk
I clear my this stupid every eve
every morning brings another challenge to reckon with
I do wonder my patience quotient as I take a lot to forget my mistakes
the evening got better but suddenly another whirl of dragging moments
as if I am always at war with my inner half
I wonder what lies there like a space black hole
that engulfs all
is that I trade fare with waivery steps all the time
or your absence in my enviorns makes things shabby and distorted
I may not get a reply at all
as the scenario is too hostile with endless borders fronts
to fight at with diff set of strategies at hand or even without one
I wonder how my tech mods balance their stuff of the extracting environs
I simply distaste the feels of what has been lost and what is at hand
I know every morning is fresh
with or without your aura around me
as I make that through my thoughts
may be that are too illusory
but I feel at the day end
there is hardly a difference between the illusory and existential
I search my know how to find a lasting solution
but my heart says
your Himalayan are to high to accommodate you
who lives on the sands
may be
this morning I shall evolve
with another quest to put me in shape
with me and my environs
may be your Magnolian- fresh eyes
find a niche for me
source: shipra.v, Anchal Kohli
Probably daily chores are too monotonous
but not the daily surf
I was searching the diff
may be
something related to "obsession- energy- cofficient"
but I was definitely pleased to know that hubby is a good guy for a many of the tech-mods
I do wonder where I stand
my heart said : you're inviting troubles this time
Probably for the first I found my heart with a commonsense
sliding down the modern trend is somewhat too taxing
so is the search for relevance
may be obsessions are offshoot of this paradigm
tech driven new equations
it may fetch a spoilt froth all the way
but buddy hearts shall survive over the rest
so is the hope of the hopes
like your new aura of happening around
but where are you
for whole of the day and nights
I do curse my obsessions
as it being too shallow on result theatre
source: shipra.v
My fantasy with my univ
probably it has taken another euphoric conotation with Maitreyi college
as the chills grow faster and deep
your Maitreyi comes more live confronting my vision
of the yore and present
I do wonder the genesis of my obsession
at every another second
at the winds blow their fast tunes with changing time
my own existence gets meaning
one day I was wondering at the momentous flood waters at Ghagar at my native village
that moments were evoking the silent volcano lies buried deep in my psyche
I saw the huge trunks spead like flowing leaves in a whirl
I didn't ofcourse visualise your Maitrey
this moment you might have obviated in illusory veins
me the fussy lot catches the past in super sonic speed
by the time another obsession of yours
takes an existential contours
my innovation takes the wings of plasmatic speeds
I know that speeds are not possible at the earth
even Einstein's conceptual relativity looks dwarfed
I do wonder what I shall do with such speed of your being around me
shall I exist in space
probably yes
I know this filthy world
shall not allow
your exotic union
source: shipra.v
Friday eve I was better this time at my time to office
Ratpath was singing
" we got deceited once Now shall we not....we shall prefer to get killed to bow before enemy "
I have translated as the Hindi version is too classic and old one
I did wonder at the enthusiastic freshness
probably we celebrate yr after yr to enthuse the gen next to safeguard their Nation with killing instinct and let them to innovate at their nerves for the changing and evolving time
my heart asked where are you at this moment
I know you hardly come before 930 hrs
my this office environs are too disciplined
I prefer to compete with my military hierarchy in all aspects
that may be a reason to get evolved for duds like me
source..shipra.v
Psychiatry may tell a whole lot
but love as a fact shall remain
ever enigmatic and exotic faculty of live world
but what love stand for
is that we pulse for another heart
or our own persona is hijacked
or something that we loose our own contact with inner half
may be none of the above
but one thing is certain
we start equating outer world of happenings with somebody
least interested in your whole hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but why its so enigmatic and one way traffic
so sudden short of nerves
and what's there
no relativity
may be modern concept has changed
existential parlains not withstanding
its difficult to stop and initiate
it starts at moment
that takes you un-paralleled
time and space may pity at the instances
but the mamoth of love simply takes over
but what actually happens
its nothin
you become I
source: shipra.v
time is what you can't afford to ignore
if you happen to do
time can't afford you
I was searching the correct chemistry/mathematics of the work at my hand
people enjoyed their lunch in today sunshine
my heart whispered : where's your sunshine
I simply saw thro' my window while the running the pencil on my draft pad
but I did miss you all the time while concentrating on eventful case study
how people afford this leasure
probably I shall know if you happen to be with me
wishes are for horses sake
and now-a-days horses are an exotic par excellence and privileged
I look towards the horizon for the privilege quotient
probably my FM understands my pulse a better lot
sometimes you aught to learn your own moments
bereft of what you deserve or aspire for
that's the ultimate message from the great Gita
may be
religious is last recluse of scoundrels like be
whether made of their excess studies
or otherwise
source: shipra.v
my army colleagues seem to be a bit better evolved
well evolution as a process can be either way
bio diversity fundamentals prove the adage
working equation survives the rest
I do wonder
what's the role of the system
probably the working quotient is absolutely subjective
system is always with a momentum
if you happen to deviate
the power of momentum may crush your bones and soul together
I was surfing this stupid pc to find another relevance for the eve moments
your Maitreyi college came flashing
one day I met your Principal
she was nostalgic about her tenure at Shimla
I was too formal to equate further
sometimes equations take the roots beyond recognition
I am nostalgic about Shimla Mall and its surroundings like Lower Bazaar, The Ridge, Hanuman Temple and the way to Secretariat, Shimla Univ, the residence of CM, the Himachal Public Service Commission premises and my Panjab Univ Rest House
You will say: well! will you leave something aside: Are you resident of Shimla : some special heart at Shimla
Well !! the reply is I search your Himalayan hair and that too in this shivering cold
particularly at the caffee house at mid of the Mall
one day
you'll accompany me to witness the beautiful moon of shimla nights on The Mall
I have roamed every inch of that place in search of your Maitreyi college : see how stupid is this that I forgot its just near my office: I have met you over there very quick
but the hurdle is : how you would have recognised me
U live with me without recognising me even til day
source: shipra.v
I was extremely perplexed to miss my senior general farewell today
