Good night love. I am closing. 

Blues of mine.

I have no nights
days
mornings often
fade


dust y storms
remind me
may be
I can talk
of your heart

I am not
may be

time makes
company

I stare
blues of mine

I am very sad.

Love under all reckoning I was not that murkh as I was well exposed to minute nuances of life from my very small days. Probably nyati mei likha tha ki eik din eisa hoga I will be left with no choice or relevance in my life except to write love letters to you but love I am very sad extremely sad at my fate. 

In metro I see Bobby only.

I do not remember I have ever been crazy or even that much interested in the stuff called movies. It was somewhere in 1973 ( I have amended it many times and then I feel probably I am not recalling my life at chandigarh in complete perspective or you can say had I been relatively mature enough today I may not be fighting an endless war of non relevance ) when movie Bobby was released at KC theater in Chandigarh, our attention was driven by its crazy instincts. I did wonder for a couple of months then one day I went to KC if I could remember the ticket was some where under two rupees. Then we heard there was demand from student union that tax be waived on it. It was ridiculed as entertainment tax is waived only on socially relevant movies whilst no body could prove that it was not social as in metero I often see Bobby only. 

My heart wanders for relevance.

I can not somehow remember when I saw the movie Guide. I also do not know with whom or say whether I saw it all alone. I have seen movies all alone only one in Jaipur and some at sirsa whilst in my school days. I do not remember I ever ventured to a theater in Delhi all alone. I have many times asked myself why I am not comfortable all alone and a reply remained evasive. I never liked a movie but probably it was company only that gave me a relevance. Till date my heart wander s for relevance. 

sweet girls in what zeans not.

Love you are profusely intelligent and hearty I know very well but probably this letter may let you think a little extra. I have been living all alone for the last 20 years to that extent that even on Dewali there is no candle light light dya light in this house and it remains pich dark when whole of the world celebrates the festival of lights and sweets. MODI SAYS HE IS SADHU AND KYA BEGAR LOGEI UUSKA WHILST TRUMP SAYS HE HAS PUT LIGHTS ON AND LOVES HINDUS. I am borne in a hindu family and there has not been even one person who has even asked me any wishes for such life long period. DR Harish Arora has paraded practically hundreds of girls every day to own this flat and contacted whole of ministry of defence and its hierarchical order and sweet girls in what zeans not. 

Deepika are you serious in your action that if you will not upload my favorite snaps of you I will stop writing or stop loving or say vice verse.