Do write me how did you like this.

have you ever wondered after all what is that bloody hell that makes male that non sense around. Its nothing like plus or negative of charges. And why the concept of social norms / social sanctions why so. Its the Dominion syndrome both read in psychology and psychiatry. Its not contrary phenomenon of subjugation. Its offshoot s phenomenon are just parallel of psychiatry delirium . broadly a form of brutality violence insanity humiliation instinct but why a male is brute per force. Its the instinct of insecurity , a male is always insecure. infertile syndrome per force. Inorginal syndrome perforce a male is not original per force. Its only derivative existence. That creates an implosion psyche resulting into all ibid traits in different combinations.Not agreed to is just another insecurity offshoot. a male does not know what the hell he is . in chaste punjabi a male is bak bak nothing else.

today.

when I was small
at around 11 and 15 hrs
Sun was sharp
skin burning climate
a big tea pan and a bundle of glasses
it was break time for people
who worked hard
starting at 4 in morning

I thought they are hard
harsh bush
flowers of unknown scents

I never tasted that tea
it was something
I dont know

just I dont know

today

here also I will try to write something for you. In fact I am so fed up that I just want to speak with you no body else. 

of worth.

when sky has to welcome
vibrant of its being
with fingers crossed
a day
meanings of many

I have glanced
the moments
often haunted me
of blues
whites

some fragrance
it comes
as if you have
a paint of thee

ask
how are you

silence prevails

my heart opines
can you say

something

of worth

here too I will write for you only. 

I can't match my heart.

Snap s practically do not  matter at all. I think I told this also. I am having shooting pains. May be another 7-8 hrs still needed.

Rose garden s
some I have seen when I was young
I have often wondered
why only flowers are painted
why not other s one

my heart says
probably you have not remembered
you bio books

but I did not mean that

I never forget my bio
may be failure at bio
have put you close to me

my heart says
when did you fail at your bio
you never told me


but then probably

I thought
its better
I should not keep a different track

I can't match my heart.

flowers have to blossom.

No its not an easy job to write a poem I think I told you earlier. I dont know but kiran has more expertise and she writes I feel in hindi primarily that makes a lot different English is something more tough to handle in case of poems. She is writing a book I have no communication with her so I dont know much. any how I am trying.

I have seen
day after day
where I used to
things turned distasteful

some of the memories
gone worst eye shore

some prickle heart
other dont spare my body
may be I have read bio logy

some was asking
these flowers
april may be a different
another variety

I was wondering

why only variety bothers

then I saw at the garden boy
well in 50's
too conversant
least concerned

may be
for him

flowers have to blossom