what reason should I bring

my heart murmurs 
if I can know
what meaning stands for

I really dont know
how to tell 

it says
okay
give me some hint
I dont understand English

I again wonder
whether my heart is poking
at my fate
or telling its own one

but it persists

I say look
a gutter becomes a meaning
and a rose has no meaning

it murmurs
its reasoning I feel

I wonder

what reason should I bring

to make it meaningful 

why I keep quiet

sun takes its shades
every eve
my heart opines 
may be
a day can come
with a meaning 

I see my heart
sometimes
the shading sun

I dont know

why I keep quiet

yes I do feel for being a celeb its a horrible tough non happening life for a female whilst for males its different as society accepts them and their masculinity factor whilst they enjoy the female sita factor only and deprive her of her ram as well. Its a paradox society can never evolve to understand what to talk of a change.

yes Deepika your profession factor can never allow you a person with a tag of husband. I know it very well. And the solution out of the lime light phenomenon under which you happen to live whilst every camera is waiting for your that very personal click to dilute your market value, I feel you can meet me only in the form of a say I am fan of yours etc. and I am that serious and sophisticated looking that camera person will feel not to waste time in putting any question.

Deepika these are phases of life only. That is why probably you click so many letters but it makes less sense as the day passes. These lines can only be understood by your Dad but not mom.

Nothing much your google snaps page is not opening then I thought what is there in bullshit snaps. I have taken my medicine and will be going to sleep say after 1/2 an hour. I dont have dreams but medicine after effects are certainly there. 

Deepika neurotic psychosis is one of the most dreaded mental disease which never gets eradicated. The person is like doll or a sarkari saand of the gone by era. I feel you may not understand this sarkari saand. Any how the person is completely unfit for being a partner or what should I say a normal person. This disease comes from the combination of a consent rape or forced rape when the male is also suffering from neurotic manic disorder thus rendering the sperm literally gone stray and the female getting lost in some ones other order of the day.

the brain of such person lacks in buffer and gets eclipsed by a dark phase and an euphoric phase thus the so called sarkari saand effect. Its very tough love. Its an expert parlains.