Webster dictionary of idealism .March.05.2014.20.04

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art has only recently developed with the introduction of hybrid brain cum tech techniques hitherto it was an horrifically kejriwal style of frabe pyar dhuan dharak loh path gamini shuk shuk ( I will continue in delhi ) love now your bullshit technique of sitting at your cosy home at bombay and clicking on your smart screens through some cranky mouse and fingers will not work . come to delhi before I reach there. love this kejriwal kira has percolated down every Indian to such an extent that every youth and oldy feels its the only bloody truth on this Indian soil and the rest are looters fraudsters and why not play a bloody nirala way of ansu meri ankho mei sach kei badlav kei andolan kei gandhi ji kei achi sarkar kei achi niti kei achei vicharo kei achei samaaz kei achei vatavaran kei achei system kei achi rajniti kei : what a Webster dictionary of idealism and jabani jamakharch of slogans to create a chaos every where possible. 

On this ultra book I do not know how to select a line and paste. March.04.2014.1.07

 its generally believed in India that Hindi is more poetic love full versatile more rhythm oriented and a mix of urdu and punjabi plus some local languages of say some 29 states make it more versatile vibrant catchy original artful celestial godly etc etc .well facts may not be true but its made look like and feel like to be true only. Probably there is not sufficient stuff available who can understand English and carve a good worth the name user friendly things and the like. I have not received even one offer in my physical world so to say who can make commercial use of my entries. May be they are doing illegally and making money in billions of dollars without giving anything to me or may be deepika might have come to know of certain other things which I might be skipping deliberately in a hope that one day she will come to me and tell all. 

I have often wondered. March.04.2014

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I have often wondered
the emptiness at my heart soul brain put together 
probably lost the factor to factor in
its like a software that only can search another software

I think I explained a term of peudo target cell technique of bio tech engineering where a unique nano part or molecules is used to carry some another desired molecule may it be some medicine gene or some other tracer etc into a cell or a cell type etc to meet the desired physiological mechanisms either of temporary nature or of some permanent nature and the like.

this is a technique used in preparing gm crops. this technique can also be used in psychiatry and other day to day activity as well. but ofcourse the modus operandi will be unique or say area specific or say situation specific , this was something I was explaining to navu and ricky in person too but probably never could afford to train them in clinical terminology as the later part which I am now referring to is rather horrifically diversified in content and value , may be when you come to live with me it may sound a little logical or say simple one. 

you are observing I am finding difficult to pick small things. March.04.2014

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my this samsung ultra is a nice piece with me , I can see you r face and feel you as if you are with me only but it can never replace you may when you will be sitting with me I may opt to use this rather more may be that I have become too used to pen down something to you and may feel too instinctive even whilst with you in physical proximity. At present as you are observing live I have no extra electronic helping appliances with me I thought there are not required and I left it at delhi only may be I was thinking I have no idea of writing on this page for you. but you never know. Navu was wondering why I need some extra key and the like then later on she was in a jovial mood to feel the handy

 nature of those pices with me. She is fast at this system but I often push a button which is not required and at other times I too slow to use other features of this master piece with me. Its very beautiful like you. May be it needs some help like you are surrounded by helpers but love these helpers make you handicapped in certain way of reckoning. How are you , you have not written a poem for me. do it at the earliest or come to me. 

ab bahut der ho gai. March.01.2014.23.12

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I have just seen a song which you have also seen it. I know every person knows the perception and relevance matters and varies from person to person vs its utility quotient as well as eg Brig giri raj is on line but neither he is clicking nor I am taking initiative whilst both of us are so to speak like two pants of jeans of say some different makes and the like or say pants speak to legs only , probably I have started writing too philosophical, at the fag end of the song there is a scene depicting some shimla like environment that evokes a lonely feels and some undefined nerves at the heart of hearts but it further can be said that ibid scenario shall have to prevail.

but the cardinal question arises where is the life. Is it in wait of you which is not materializing even after say 12 hrs or so or just starting my etios  and push on the journey or say just sleep and wait may you come knocking at the door as you may get convinced to larger extent as earlier wrote in some poetic verbatim etc. or say just cancelling the leave and reporting to duty. or say just getting the work done on phone etc.

but may be I should not write further. 

bapu nei samjhaya tha
bahut sahalei eisharei thei

samajh na paya aaj tak
dil udas hei

kahata hei
bapu to' thik sochtei thei
bhala hi chathei thei

fir kyon nahi samajh aya mujhei

bhavuk tha
soch tha kacha kacha'
hosh tha begana begana

ab bahut der ho gai

bapu to' hei nahi

kuch yadei hein

kuch tum sei share kar raha likh kei
socha tha tum aa jayo gei
eik chaei ka payala

socha tha tum aa jayo gei eik chaei ka payala. March. 01.2014.22.55

bapu nei samjhaya tha
bahut sahalei eisharei thei

samajh na paya aaj tak
dil udas hei

kahata hei
bapu to' thik sochtei thei
bhala hi chathei thei

fir kyon nahi samajh aya mujhei

bhavuk tha
soch tha kacha kacha'
hosh tha begana begana

ab bahut der ho gai

bapu to' hei nahi

kuch yadei hein

kuch tum sei share kar raha likh kei
socha tha tum aa jayo gei
eik chaei ka payala

bhavukta nei hei mat meiri mari.March.01.2014.21.37

hei rei maro naam
aam admi
bhavukta nei hei 
mat meiri mari

baapan sei samjheio
masteran nei kuch batlario


afim hei seerat hamaeri
hei rei
maro naam
aam admi

dunia mei deikh lyo
samajh buujh
bhadh gayei hamaeri
hei rei
maro naam
aam admi

jharu dikhyo
to' lago
mat saaf ho jayeigi hamaeri

bas fir 
dhirei dhirei
mat ho gayei jharu hamaeri

dikhyo
kitna sikh gya mei
kavita bhi likhna laagan gyo 
issei kahatei hei tarraki hamaeri

hei rei
maro naam
aam admi
bhavukta nei hei 
mat meiri mari