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I am Pakistan
I have raped my eastern part to CALCIFOROUS and tithe ring blood booze
instead I always said its not me but somewhere else
I have surrendered to China
but I boast of my sword
kept in a British museum
I have given whole worth
and blood to the fancies and whims of Armed Forces
but I prefer to keep quiet
I have raped myself
and produced
Farrah Hussains
living credentials
probably I shall never be comfortable
I have seen and experienced
probably the its never ending equations
should call it anxiety uncertainty torture fate bio logical incompatibility opportunism of the environs
shall I have a heart to reckon with
I really don't know
जिंदगी
नदी-सी
अपनी राहे
खुद ही खोजती
बही चली जाती
ऊँचे-नीचे
टेड़े- मेढे
तो कभी
पथरीले पथ
पार करती हुई
रास्ते-के
पत्थरों को
स्नेहिल-स्पर्श
देती हुई
अनजान चाह में
मीलों लम्बा
सफ़र तय कर
अंतत: कहीं
स्वयम को
समर्पित कर
असीम-आनंद में
लिप्त हो
विराट की बाँहों में
समाई-सी
संतृप्त हो जाती
Apparently what we see is not the scenario. The actuality quotient remains an ever mammoth of our existence.
The mammoth rules us not we
the end may not be known to us but its inbuilt as its not mammoth in existence as another mammoth rules where we go after our end
the rise of our another existence may not be known but our mammoth shall come again
shall we say its the rule of mammoth only.
we may not answer.
I have driven
the desolate heart brain soul
an array of delusions
some of mine
others
better not say
its not the question of biology psychology or psychiatry
ground realities too
spatial vacuous deals
hiatus of revolving
anu was sitting besides me
etios was too slow
winter frost
it was too thick to make you only see the interiors only
but
where is anu
I don't know
This is the place
time line is 1977-78
I am standing here only
my this ghost flat and me
may be one day
kiran will come somewhere in and around Delhi
I may start living again
anu doesn't bother to talk to me
I was talking of relevance
probably an eternal paradigm of life
I have also talked of development
this word may be a little more confusing to the most read too
I have wrote of kaleidoscopic life too
that is a fact
the gradient of existence is well known to a biologist
but sciences of psychology and psychiatry work on different framework
I have often talked of evoking of interest too
and has generally wrote till such this interest quotient is getting evoked the equations remain a little workable
but the fact that kinetics and potentials of life do not work at your wishes or whims or thoughts or capabilities and the like so the sudden driven to the wall factor starts working
Now if I say why you have not come to me so far
the reply is very simple
it may not even be written
but if I say whether you will ever come to me
the science get worked as explained ibid
I was talking of relevance
have you seen dunes
they are simply a dead earth
bereft of emotions
the waterfalls too
it looks like an insane interpretation
but you add love
but from where love shall come
definitely not from dictionaries or Bollywood cranks
It has to be manufactured at your heart
but how
that is what I discussed with Anu only
No body else
till date.
