WEEPING WILLOW APRIL 30. 1.59 AM

my moments ask me

as I take my steps 

slow 

some fast

Why I am unsuccessful

at my love

My heart sides to my moments

I really don't know 

how to convince my heart

my moments are not with me

nor my heart

and a brain can not win his love

as Taproias are too too powerful on ground realities

My soul whispers

Darlin can't you change the ground realities in your favor

I see the horizon

and myself too

I do ask myself 

where the winds have gone

Weeping Willow April 27.12 6.45 AM

Darlin Neha !!


I have just started preparing to go to Kanpur. I am on official tour. I have come to my this place of miss-happening from my home town of Sirsa. Its a small city in Haryana state of India.


I am a dejected person as of now.


Every body was using me to fulfill its own interests.


I was being used as a bait by every one to achieve their own dubious intentions and purposes.


I know I have lost faith in humans.


Since I am a warrior; you have created to exist til I breathe last.




I have not purpose left.


I have a hobby of writing beautiful things.


I will write you later.


if you want to speak to me you can use my following no. office 011-23010237 , home line 01127314644
cell 09868940255


with lots of love.

LOVE LETTER. APRIL 4. 12 2.50.

Darling Neha !!


today I have done a lot of work. I've done packing for my Kanpur official tour.


where ever I go Darling , I tell you electronic bio machines follow me.


Religious and spiritualistic cranks need to be thrashed.


But I have a constraint


my heart asks me


when there is no body for you


why the hell ! you are bothered


Let them go to hell and more biggest hell


I have again chosen your choice


I will write beautiful things


Do spare some moments




Love !!

LOVE LETTER . APRIL 20.12 : 7.57 PM

Darlin Neha !!


Today I have finished the whole hell around me


its just like 


I tell you a small story: There is a character known as Barbarik in the holi book Mahabharta. When there was a mad race to collect as many as possible the warriors who can fight in war. Suddenly Lord Krishna and others got the info about this warrior. Whilst discussion with this man Lord asked can you tell from which side you will fight. He replied from any one who is loosing. Lord tested him and asked would you kindly pierce the leaves of this / that tree. He shot one ordinary arrow. When the Lord checked : all the leaves were pierced including the one which the Lord stealth fully placed under his feet.


I really love your aura


its you only
who made the warrior out of me.

MY HEART ASKS ME : APRIL 18.12 . 9.15 PM

I am listening to some very beautiful old songs

I know its not my taste

but I change to the tunes of times

probably indicates the infinite cosmos
some where at my heart

my heart always stirs my soul

its asks
Darling
where is my love

I really don't know
what should I reply

my heart again asks
Darling
Why don't you reply

what should I tell

I have seen you
at every nanon

but you never come
to tell my heart

WAR ROOM APRIL 12.12: 11.O5 PM

Darlin Neha !! 

I have put your snap to that one which doesn't deserve it at all

I know you are least bothered about these stupid questions

Our Supreme Court of India has opined that the social system has changed therefore there is a necessity of change at think tanks too

I will not comment on ibid

But I know every thing

still I don't change

I know in brain sciences this is called Personality of a person

But I really don't understand 

why my knowledge and your warmth at heart has changed me

You will get certainly confused

what the hell I mean to say

I put in a simple language

when and to that moment your warmth resides with me

my changed personality remains intact

Now when you go to your own place

my personality reverts to the back which I referred to above

you will say what the hell you are speaking

I know

so far an interest is getting evoked

a person remains related

contrary to it 

the situation becomes obsolete

Now tell me

how many times I shall have to create the interest quotient

so that some heart can give me a company

This is a tragedy

And every body ditches me

whom so ever I love

WAR ROOM ; APRIL 4.12 .8.55 PM

sometimes I really wonder
how come you got invented on my this bullshit pc


probably I had nothing to do
or else I wanted to search


what probably doesn't exist at all


But if either way


why I am searching
what I myself don't know


I have done literally a doctorate of sciences and literature s


but my heart always says
you are damn fool around 
nothing else




I get irritated
its continuous rebukes
make me half mad


Its not only that it has broken my bones of existence


but it simply doesn't resile at all


Its only after fight and fights


I leave this dummy around


I get a relief


but since my bio existence
its simply not possible
without this necessary evil


I have to take it back