MY HEART ASKS ME: APRIL 11.12 7.16 PM

Today I was searching 
an equation only known to me


whilst my two beautiful Armed Forces Officers were putting the mundane in a protocol basis


I knew every thing
but I know they can hardly know
what the hell I am made off


I asked my heart
look how beautiful hearts are around you


it remained voiceless for a few moments only


it suddenly throbbed me out


Hell !! with you and your concept of live world around you


tell me why I am so desolate and lonely
to the last thread of my being with you


I really don't know what should I tell to my heart


somehow I gathered confidence
and started a few reasons


look my dear heart !!


every one is made of a self aura
and your aura doesn't fit 


my heart said
is that I am that bad


I kept quiet too too long


My heart didn't budge


I somehow dared to say


Look my dear


there is no body like you

WAR ROOM APRIL 10.12 10.17 PM

Today when I have lost trust in humanity itself

my heart asks me

who is there 

that has not ditched you

I see myself 

and the interiors I  happen to possess

I see my own reverberated image

My brain says

Darlin I have a point in difference

I suddenly stop

what my brain has invented

it breaks its silence

your interiors have never ditched you my love

I read and re-read the ibid lines

it gets reverberated

I do wonder 

Why I have not learned

to love myself.

MY HEART ASKS ME APRIL.5.12 10.52 PM

Its very rare my heart looks sane enough


and asks


Darlin I know 
there is no body like you


but can't you tell me 


what is this beautiful at all


and whispers


O' I mean to say


what constitutes to make the phenomenon of love
that is beyond the defines of psychiatric disorders.


I ignore my heart


what should I tell my heart


I also ask me


the question infinite some


I always search you


in the blue horizons


some times


on ground realities too


source : my two Armed Forces Officers.

INFLORESCENCE APRIL 5 .12 .3.29 AM

I remember I have seen you 

some where

my heart looks a niche

I have goaded it

not to go for sand dunes

I know

its too near to the empire of His

but I a poor and desolate chap around

It asks 

come on darling

every thing is like that only

I wonder at its sane nerves

but my brain do asks me

from where it has got that wisdom

WAR ROOM APRIL 4.12

I have walked 

whilst you kept on putting queries the way you like

I keep quiet Not because I don't know the reply

my own chosen ways 

prove

the question and replies

its shallows around

reality lies some where else

I wake up early too early 

whilst I know you have just gone to sleep

I know I have not waken for you

its a part of mine

to wake up as you sleep

is it 

I look you 

at my thoughts

a better way

I know

you may say

may not be true

me the difficult around

still keep intact

what I have

with or without

WAR ROOM APRIL 2.12 8.54 PM

my heart says its too monotonous

I engage in some thing 

least related to my heart's naive innovations 

Darling !!

where are you !!

it pokes me

the kiddish ways 

it likes

but its endless queries

do have impact

some defined 

others not.

sometimes I do feel like meeting you

Probably you may be at your same branch of Baroda Bank

Last time I came to see you

but you probably could not get a glimpse of my magnolian nerves

I know my stoic aura

its only the coveted ones

that can look at

and have the feels

I have no plans to visit your place this yr.

may be I may come only after 3 yrs.

But I know by that time

your aura and surroundings shall be changed

I know 

I will definitively appreciate 

that change too

INVERTED SPRUCE MARCH 28.12 7.23 PM

I have made this bounty of Nature extra large

I know I am simply coming of my swamps lit large

where ever I happen to be 

I do know

It has no ending

till I find my reverberated cosmic heart

always at loggerheads with me

I was quiet and calm-pose

at my work platform

whilst I know

reality quotient of mine

its even beyond my own nerves

struggle is the order of the day

I know very well

my heart asks

Darlin !!

isn't it too too much of it

I do wonder

Why I can't speak truth to my heart.