MY HEART ASKS ME APRIL.5.12 10.52 PM

Its very rare my heart looks sane enough


and asks


Darlin I know 
there is no body like you


but can't you tell me 


what is this beautiful at all


and whispers


O' I mean to say


what constitutes to make the phenomenon of love
that is beyond the defines of psychiatric disorders.


I ignore my heart


what should I tell my heart


I also ask me


the question infinite some


I always search you


in the blue horizons


some times


on ground realities too


source : my two Armed Forces Officers.

INFLORESCENCE APRIL 5 .12 .3.29 AM

I remember I have seen you 

some where

my heart looks a niche

I have goaded it

not to go for sand dunes

I know

its too near to the empire of His

but I a poor and desolate chap around

It asks 

come on darling

every thing is like that only

I wonder at its sane nerves

but my brain do asks me

from where it has got that wisdom

WAR ROOM APRIL 4.12

I have walked 

whilst you kept on putting queries the way you like

I keep quiet Not because I don't know the reply

my own chosen ways 

prove

the question and replies

its shallows around

reality lies some where else

I wake up early too early 

whilst I know you have just gone to sleep

I know I have not waken for you

its a part of mine

to wake up as you sleep

is it 

I look you 

at my thoughts

a better way

I know

you may say

may not be true

me the difficult around

still keep intact

what I have

with or without

WAR ROOM APRIL 2.12 8.54 PM

my heart says its too monotonous

I engage in some thing 

least related to my heart's naive innovations 

Darling !!

where are you !!

it pokes me

the kiddish ways 

it likes

but its endless queries

do have impact

some defined 

others not.

sometimes I do feel like meeting you

Probably you may be at your same branch of Baroda Bank

Last time I came to see you

but you probably could not get a glimpse of my magnolian nerves

I know my stoic aura

its only the coveted ones

that can look at

and have the feels

I have no plans to visit your place this yr.

may be I may come only after 3 yrs.

But I know by that time

your aura and surroundings shall be changed

I know 

I will definitively appreciate 

that change too

INVERTED SPRUCE MARCH 28.12 7.23 PM

I have made this bounty of Nature extra large

I know I am simply coming of my swamps lit large

where ever I happen to be 

I do know

It has no ending

till I find my reverberated cosmic heart

always at loggerheads with me

I was quiet and calm-pose

at my work platform

whilst I know

reality quotient of mine

its even beyond my own nerves

struggle is the order of the day

I know very well

my heart asks

Darlin !!

isn't it too too much of it

I do wonder

Why I can't speak truth to my heart.

Inflorescence March 14.12. 8.04 PM

A day has come
my relevance with the pictures
and the hearts
probably lost 


like dunes
I make 
time simply unmakes


I know that's the life
ephemeral it stands
at the hearts


god has made with steel nerves


some times
He comes to me


I ask why you have come
where is the need of it


He smiles back


I know
His smile is infinite some
in meanings and contents


He vanishes
at the nanonic moments


without paying a heed


I know he loves me


but why the hell
my heart doesn't love Him


Now my brain intervenes


Darlin


He doesn't need any body's love


source :one of my Forces officer.

Implosion March 12.12.8.30 PM

This piece of soft paper is being specially written for USA scientists and other related ones.

I hardly bother to your machine language

but I do bother about my tough and stoic  heart

as it never gets pleased

There is hardly anything in this bullshit world

that escapes my worth

still why the hell I remain so desolate

is that I look for an allusive love

that never existed for me

I will skirt the question and reply too

reason is too simple

I am a problematic genius even for myself

Its often believed god gives all

but takes away one that thing

which you deserve most 

but least blessed with.