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I have
many first loves
why the hell
I am so lonely at my heart
I see the horizons
hardly ever
a reply affords to come
is it
I have gone psychiatric insane
may be true
reasons
I can't afford to pen down
is it knowledge is a curse
may be true
Probably bio generics can't afford to match
the speed of psycho driven cardinals
But its with every one around the live world
is it
all are so desolate
like me
may be
they don't accept the truth
is it
accepting a truth
is the final laugh of an intellectual
may be
I want to avoid
the final hurt
of a heart
my heart often takes me to task
darlin why the hell
I am so lonely
I wonder
what should I tell it
I have searched whole of the cosmos
every body is lonely at his heart
but my heart is not pleased at my arguments
I retire and keep quite
it again asks
where is your bullshit infinite knowledge
why don't you tell me
I know knowledge can not bring relevance
and manufactured relevance is simply too evident
with a heart
that is profusely beyond knowledge quotient
does it mean
being duffer is a disguised bliss
can't say much
contemporary conflict ridden module of existence
I do ask myself
is it that
its only mirror image of the gone by
may be it has transformed
the conotations of live world
it grows
gets retrogressed
unnoticed
whisper free
But my queries
often
stir my soul
some with
others without
Probably there is hardly any heart
that can avoid being faced by a whirlpool of depressive psychosis
does it mean there should be an expert psychiatric doctor for every 100 people over the geopolitical areas of earth.
reply may be yes
but I am not touching this tough materialistic nuance over here
Its the evolution of psyche vis a vis constraints of live environs
that make the villain within and without
how to fight it out
make a heart
a replica of your ownself
may be a hallucination
it hardly makes a difference
the target is
never accept defeat
at the hands of opportunistics.
but who is opportunistic
very simple
keep your heart and brain intact
never get it hurt
may be
self allusions
must serve you and you only
no body else.
Probably there are miniscule existence of brains
that understand the concept of evolution of relevance
as understood in human psychiatric physiological paradigm
the current examples are that of hostile challenges put by Naxals, coloured quickness of jurisdiction / judicature, mass paranoid and phobic depressive convulsive response mechanism as evident over the space and time engineered through mass media, hostile engagements in varied hues and colours over the vast expanse of inhabitated earth.
my heart says
what the hell is happening
why the bullshit knowledge is being used for trivial matters
I keep my cool
I know its the time for that only.
but my brain interrupts in its own way
I know
I have already written the fait accomplish of crank annas and the follow ups
whilst the war of nerves has yet to start
Learned Indians have realised what Nehru said
Evolution is an eternal factor
that is why Indians know
why to send the kids to school
Naxals exploit the masses
with the rose gardens
of guns and bombs
booby traps too
Naxals too evolve
in the form of
Kiran Bedi and Annas crank
that is what our soft ware languages can tell
I know its time to sleep
but I have arisen
for the challenges
some within
others
without
my world has changed
but probably this infinite source
it has yet to unfold its horizons
I do know that cipher language
that is understood by one
for whom its written
but my heart says
hell with your know how
I know
monotony is an ever evolving weaponry system
probably Nature makes
its own sand dunes
only to be blown
by its own merciless winds
I know
some of them survive
the severest storms
I have many first loves
