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my world has changed
but probably this infinite source
it has yet to unfold its horizons
I do know that cipher language
that is understood by one
for whom its written
but my heart says
hell with your know how
I know
monotony is an ever evolving weaponry system
probably Nature makes
its own sand dunes
only to be blown
by its own merciless winds
I know
some of them survive
the severest storms
I often surf through my collection of snaps
my heart asks
Darlin these are too life less
I wonder
what my heart wants to prove
But I keep my silence intact
Not because that I know no reply
its rather
I know
what my heart can't afford to understand
why I am so enigmatic
at my own nerves
I do ask myself
who is there
that can have a shadow
at least
I again avoid my own queries
my heart is fed up with my way of taking things so silent
I murmur to my soul what should I tell to this spoilt child
there is hardly anything
that is everlasting
It interrupts
what the hell you want to prove
I say nothing
but I know
I have replied a lot
is that
my heart is so senseless
or else
senses have become too obsolete
to the exotic
I have happened to have
I've yet to sleep
its already morning hrs
its not an unusual time
I am late
practically at every second with me
my heart murmurs
what the hell is going to happen
if I sleep
I understand
a bit of it
last working evening hrs were just full of such shallow moments of mine
the eternal factor
with or without
a boy with orchids
probably going to deliver to some rich man around
I asked
what's this flowers like
reply was = "orchids"
I could feel
its too stoic
as he had least relevance
at the beauty at his hand
probably like me
what is that my heart and brain vie each otheris it youI ask my eyeswhy you fail every timeis it you are invisible infactbut why I don't acceptthe reality around meI often quarrel with my soulwhen you shall realiseit saysthat would be the final sayI ask myselfis that I am waiting for that only
I do wonderis it you who make me arise at such odd hrsjust to writethat hardly make a sense to realityI was searching your fingersbullshit tax statement come on !! darlinI could have made my own onewith a little word to my staffwhy did I do so naturalProbablyI wanted to knowwhy Nature is so dexterousto make fool of usMay be at too many occasionsleast known to us
At this hr cosmos may be redirecting its transforming waysI am lost to find what has lostwhere I standand for whatyesterday again I was waiting for my yrly bank numerics a mundane for tax routineI was lost some whereto find the relevance of routineI know Nature has nothingbut for routinethe other part that it boasts ofits probably the unmaking of its mightbut why I get swirled intoprobably the unmaking of minethey start before one endsI ask myselfhow many endscool it darlingmy shadows disappear in the thinswhy I disappearand whereI search my heartmonotony of selfor of the environsI do realiseits an array endless conflictsNano fronts of my War empire
I have seen the lonely heartsoften wondered why they are sois it the time or the space constraintsdoes it really matterlove is necessary but my heart sayslove is always conditionaldoes it mean its nothing but conditional quotientsI peep through my psychiatric know howit too failsis it that loving thyself is the ultimate solutionKnow how fails itselfmay belonely momentsthey are a de facto realitymy heart asks againI keep mumreasons may be plethoricbut I knowevery heart is lonelywho has a little brainto reckon with