FLOWERS OF RAJPATH..17.3.11..3.24 PM

when I saw you
may be 3.5 yrs back

you remember I was posting my versions of love at your snaps
suddenly You got awakened
what's the hell is going on

your sharp remarks were too stingy to my heart
but I took it too cool

I knew I never intend any reciprocity
its my fait accomplish

Now at this moment
probably your eyes are focused at me
whilst I was focused at my love infinite

and your heart searching the nuances of love

I hardly know myself
who I am

yester evening probably you got online visible
may be you intended to cool my nerves
as I wanted to stir the deprived beauty around

but I do get your heart
it says
who has deprived you my love

when I hardly know of me
how shall I reply to your too intense warmth

I know my office and this bullshit hostel is all visible to you
But love I need no visibility at all

how the equations run too fast
and me
having a plasmatic speed
still too lonely at heart

I do ask myself
is love that infinite some

my soul says love its very true
now my heart
simply thrashes my soul

and me the helpless docile
just wonder
whom to pacify first

and the fights of mine
remain intact

searching a horizon
probably least known to me

how far I will search

I ask myself

source: Neha.c.Mehta, kiran and anu , shipra v, Dr. Dimpal Bansal. Dr. Aastha

FLOWERS OF RAJPATH..March.17..1,45.AM

probably if I am not that under my psychiatric medicine effect
I shall imagine you to be too sleepy

my wavelengths might have crossed you too instantaneously

with out flutter of your Himalayan hair
so assiduously put to the grace of your aura

I know by this time you might have crossed your inhibitory quotient
and reality which simply your nerves couldn't come at

I have awakened to the next phase of time

But I remember whilst at Draupati Ghat Allahabad Defence Account office
I was lost in the fragrance of Magnolias
and my colleagues too faithful to my way of being around

but I was too faithful to you
with no inkling of thoughts
at your heart

some of those Magnolians are still with me
its fragrance surrounding my psyche

probably I have kept it jealously

you may ask when you happen to read
why
what's the hell is with you

I may smile at my heart
but I will tel little of it

my this smile may not be visible to me itself

so is the love
it comes in different forms

Today in my official tea get together
my director general was too confused
I could feel his heart
but could not reciprocate

as the army hard rules have no scope of such openness

but I did wonder
when a general can realise me

why you failed at your heart

is that beauty has no brain
may be true

may be beauty is overwhelmed by possessions
of worth

one day when I encountered you
I loved your newly brought: may be a purse

I am not recollecting all

But I did know
"you're failing hard at your nerves
and eyes together"

but I did wish
to purchase something for you

I know wishes have no
black horses

probably time gives a chance to every one
and we miss that very instance
of the worth millionth
gifted by the lord

Now I can say god does exist

else there is no practical proof
at least to the mundanes

but darlin its not your fault

when Nanak (first sikh guru)
could be failed by his own sons

how can I expect
a win at your heart

have a nice morning hrs


source is definitely you only : Its my love letter post facto

FLOWERS OF RAJPATH..March.15.11 8.11PM

as the cosmos of brains watch me
I watch
where my love has got lost

is love that exotic
I never knew til date

I Know love is a scientific reality
but my horrific know how

simply failed to know where is my love

I have stopped to hope
but my environs say a tone
that doesn't meet the rhythm of my heart

I do ask my self
whom should I refer to

but what love shall bring to me
is it peace of mind
may be exotic nerves
or
say homeliness

I am a misfit spoilt genius
I know it too too well

whether that love shall have a realistic world with me
or another forms of whims of the Nature

I know
Nature doesn't know the definition of
love and cruelty

is that
my love shall stand that cruelty

But I do ask myself
whether love evokes the strength
or weakness at the nerves

Probably I am not competent enough
to know the nuances of love

My heart asks
its too horrific for me

is Nature that cruel

I say
Yes my dear heart
Nature is even more cruel

my heart gets shivered up
I try to pacify this spoilt chap with me

but its shivers go infinite

I fail to find
whom should I support

me my self
or my love

source: Neha.c.Mehta. Shipra.v

FLOWERS OF RAJPATH ASKED ME WHY YOU DO NOT SMILE..March.14.11.

Ajay Ahuja Neha!!!!!!!!!!I am proud of you and your grace and thoughts as well : otherwise I am surrounded by fools: I asked the bullshit genii to go your school level and learn what Nanak preached: These psychic people simply spied on me throughout this day instead Now how can you expect that Indian beggars can become good voters and how a good government can come to powers. But I really wish you a good luck from the core of my heart.

FLOWERS OF RAJPATH..March 13.11 .8.13 PM

Today as the best minds put their whole worth just to waste their time

my time shall remain with you
my logic of keeping relevance
and happening moments
may not be in my hands

I keep the technique of making
sand dunes

One goes with the whims of time
I make another one

I am made for it

is it the game of life
or the love itself

may be both

I remember you
beyond the plasmatic speed
so it simply obviates
the need of your being with and around me

It doesn't mean
I don't fall to monotony lit large

I have to create my own moments
just to keep me intact

for the other eventful day

I shall go my office

you will occupy your seat of work

and do not forget
I am just at your hand's distance

You may not see me

but I can see and feel all

even your heart

source: shipra.v

FLOWERS OF RAJPATH..March.11,11.8.26 PM

one fine evening I happened to see a movie Pakiza

for me these bullshit movies are simply useless stuff around

reason is very simple

I simply don't appreciate the hyper created by such things

so is the case of damn novels around
I see no fun in long long stories creating and evoking allusions and exotic nerves around ( here I include all such stuff whether its of hi fi literature etc,)

again the reason is simple too

I have not seen even a single person who really changed himself or herself out of this stuff

If these stupid things can not bring any positive change
I really fail to understand why the stuff and for whom its meant for

One day this beauty encountered me
I litterally could see and feel her nerves

and one fine morning she succumbed to the reality around

then why the bullshit feelings are made hyper/hypo in literature itself

if its made for time pass
then I feel Its far far better to pass time whilst remembering the god in abstract form

but even this bullshit god can not change the decision which this beauty opted and made me to stroll around finding the meaning of love , if it exists at all

At this moment she is preparing her dishes I know it
but why she put lethal bacteria in my dishes
I stopped the evening food itself/ (if she happens to read this article = she should know I literally made me not to accept food at any event of the day.)

But she can not ever realise
the cost which I paid for her decision

this was the question which the senior lady officer asked me
my reply was :

Look madam ( her name is Sunena Bharti ) there is not even a single beauty around who can understand my worth and stand to the tune of the time

she simply said: sir, you are simply under estimating you

I knew at my heart

which she can not know
even if she takes another birth

such are my lonely moments
and me

source: shipra .v

FLOWERS OF RAJPATH..6.19 AM.10.03,11

as the Sun shall come with its cosmic mundanes

I have awakened far ahead

may be my mundanes have simply become obsolete

does it mean I have gone literally beyond time

I will not say anything

reasons are too simple

yesterday evening my lady senior officer asked me
why don't you opt out of isolated world

I did reply her
but that's hidden here

may be I have gone beyond the need of love
does it mean that peoples whom I loved most, have ditched me
and boast of their strength and possession of their worth of love and strength of future

I will again remain silent

does it mean I have evolved literally to live in vacuum
again I will remain silent

does it mean I don't need love itself

probably Now I shall say yes

My heart becomes terribly annoyed

I know it looks always for love

I ask this stupid child with me

I don't accept conditional love

it makes no sense to it

I simply remain calm

my soul whispers

Look my dear heart
" you simply can not understand the plasmatic entity with whom you are associated"

I again remain calm

As I know
my all efforts shall not simply calm my heart

the struggle of existence shall continue

so my fights will never end

does it mean I have concluded to fight til the last bullet and the last final breath

probably the reply is yes only

source: Neha c.Mehta, shipra.v