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when the northern hemisphere is shivering under the storms of cold
my heart is sizzling hot
it asks me
why we love at all
why we seek warmth of love
why we can not achieve the ultimate relevance, happenings and happiness
without the love being within and around
why we don't feel satiated with accomplishment without love
I replied
yes love is not essential
It fires back
damn fool you are big lier
I do get annoyed at its unsavory words
it asks
damn it
tell me the ultimate science of love
I explain as follows
love is the net outcome of the physiological genomic environment threshold working with the basic principles of psychological aspects of perception, realisation , internalisation and actualisation.
It laughs endlessly
at the fag end of its laughter
it says
you are bullshit spoilt genius
I see the blues
I do wonder
but why I love my love
when I know so so much
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by the time you went to sleep
I was confronting the waives
some mine
the others simply come crashing
I see the smiling hearts
get the resonating aura
to enthuse your love
but I have still to know
what this love stands for
I have fought and fought til date
the end less fighting frontier
my heart has lost contact with me
my nerves stands like a great strength with me
I laugh at both
the heart is meant for tender
so it left me too often
I know it shall come back
as it realises
my warmth
which it fails to find
wherever it happens to be
but til date
I am wanderer lost
in the quest to know
and fight
but hardly aware of
for what
this fighting is going on
with no ammunitions visible
may be
my war frontiers
it have evolved to space age
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the moments of unknown thresholds
as the clocks tick its fast tone
I steer clear of
what has already got through
may be
my evolutionary nerves
they have realised my soul
references of the gone by
with the inbuilt genii quotient
may shall prove come forth
at the slightest glimpse of
new challenges
but I shall define the time
I am promising to fight
a new battle front
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I am afraid of love
"mughei pyar sei dar lagta he"
I was negotiating the hectic traffic on Vijaychowk
Army buses waited the people in dress to come and push off fast as the VIP movement suddenly came crashing on the surrounding
I took fast steps to avoid embarrassment to the security people
but suddenly stoped afterwords
I was not at all interested who is that VIP that happened to throng here at this hr of rush and fast catche' of the evening close up
I am afraid of love
my heart was repeatedly pulling me up
I didn't bother to reply
now my steps stopped on expanse of lawns beautifully maintained to put extra glamour to the happening site for millions
the reverberated sound of my heart resonated in the stratosphere
"I am afraid of love"
I kept silent
are you fool enough: you are not listening to me : my heart pulled me up
suddenly I found the whole passage was diverted owing to Republic day ceremony preparations
I have managed this expanse too many time whilst on security duty
my heart again pulled me up: are you bullshit damn deaf and dummy around
I was instead lost in the fragrance of the environs
my focused eyes on India Gate
It appeared like a profusely dressed up bride
I pondered how many brides have lost their love to fetch this happening day to me
my heart was asking his stupid questions too intermittently
suddenly I got annoyed
I retorted back
can't you see
every body was afraid of love
whilst they scarified all
damn it : don't teach me the history of nationalities
Now I listened to my heart
but by this time
it got evolved to that extent
yes love
I appreciate
Love is only meant for loosing
and love lives in ghost entities
probably that is the right place of its existence
my heart was self satiated
but now I was looking the blues
why I am afraid of love
I asked me instead
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the day went to the tunes of twisty twirly rhythms of work
with whims of self devised oasis
whilst the mirage continued to play the roost of toughest reality
I remembered the cosy times spent with my acquaintance transformed to sweet heart
ground reality crunch didn't budge at all
I fought with streams of reality equations
the dwindling strength of spirits with me
gaining strength at another moment
with vengeance of my nerves
the struggle is infinite
I know
my lonely heart and hardy nerves will never accept defeat
but I do wonder
what I have to do
whom to give my sides
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the day ended with a usual tone of preparedness for the next morning hrs
its nothing new in my Army environs
I was slow and pausing too frequent as if I didn't wish to come to my home
I suddenly felt the fragrance of trees was too penetrating
the rustic attire of Her is a bliss
I know this since my univ days
but what made the moments so special
I didn't pull my nerves to act
the spirit of monotonous entity refused to budge at all
my steps and me
they are accustomed to roam around vijay chowk
the happenings ulma mater
people throng to get the taste of their love one
some of the plants appeared to wish me something special
my dud nerves brushed aside their gestures
I crossed the royal expanse
with no inkling of special moments
my heart did sleep over the itinerary
of the chores
I realised
I was getting fresh fragrance from own aura
whilst being too busy at my work during whole of the day
I did wonder
I have not applied any special perfume
what makes my system to feel like rouwolfia
or say magnolian beauty lit large
A senior Col of forces asked me to sign the papers
of the previous day finished work
I thought army officers are used to such fragrance
but this was throughout the day
I came at my this pc
suddenly found
the fragrance was oozing out
I still wonder
how this fragrance walked along me
to that extent
source: my special heart
pyar" keisa hota hei
how does love look like
my heart asks me
I stop my tears
I know it would like too stupid
I was walking as usual at the Rajpath whilst vijay chowk was already shadowed with thick blanket of fog
I could realise the shining border lines
as if the lord has to come and say something
may be I am too afraid of love
the reasons are abysmally simple
IF hurt feels are weakening me
as day passes
I don't look like a weakened stuff
but my heart asks
what will you do with the strength
I search every nanon of my happenings
work equations laugh at me
and say
what will you after we expire our innings
I smile
but fights remain intact
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when the northern hemisphere is shivering under the storms of cold
