INFLOURESCENCE..Oct.24.10.2.11AM

by this time my heart has stopped to toe my way of line of thoughts
I dare not ask any question
I know its reasons shall stir my soul out of the storm into another set of storms
I was at Faridkot a few days back
I did look deep into the blue
you never seemed anywhere around

but your aura did haunt me

I know
illusions do serve a purpose
when you have lost all relevance around

but the snap which I chose to express my delusions and disgust of the reality
it has its own constraints
as I hardly find the love oozing out of the blue
once it was there
on the end less shore

I have accepted this de facto reality

may be acceptance serves to soothen your hardened nerves

when the whole world is fast asleep
I am busy to pen down your thoughts

I am happy
whilst I know
there is nothing to be happy around

my heart whispers
is it
this sort of terrorism is all around

I stop short of saying

yes !!! its there

source: shipra .v

INFLOURESCENCE..18.9.10..10.57PM

I wanted to catch something useful and interesting cache of thoughts at your honeymoon snaps

may be
I have lost interest at your being around
or
your choice is too distasteful to evoke something good

Its often said
love never dies
irrespective of bad choice and combinations

but I do wonder at my wisdom

well personal choice and private decisions
no thought can challenge the wisdom

is it that
I envy your figurative appearances
ironically my nerves felt fused


may be I am different lot around
as I see
you really made a pathetic choice

shooting a choice
just to succumb to the system

I don't see any good sense around

I remember I once told you on live talk
how does it matter
knowing and acknowledging is different

Love is billionth different lot around

may it shall mean
I love you

definitely the reply is affirmative
with infinite conotations

I know you are aware of my infinite knowledge base

but I do wonder
my whole worldly and ecclesiastical possessions simply failed to work

I do wonder
if we are so much system circumscribed

happy honeymoon
my darlin


source: shipra.v

HAPPY BIRTH DAY DARLIN..15.9.10.6.54PM

my fights with vaccum and irrelevant moments remains intact as time clicks its own versions

proxy love and hatred is often puts its own onslaught too

I ignore what comes to my soul
being still at logger heads

lost and found is becoming like
another monotony over the usual crunch with me

I do not take leave as office being the plausible relevance with me makes me stir my own nerves

it serves the ibid scenarios
as I often wonder
what is after this irrelevant de facto becomes obsolete one day

it has occured with every body around

but probably my fighting spirit shall last with the evolving nerves

if you shall live with me to that extent
I may be too insecure to forcast

I know borrowed affiliations
its only the time pass factor around

is it
you have thrown the time pass factor
at my unsavoury nerves

can't say exactly

have a nice bite at cake of today
I hope you chose my choice

HAPPY DAY DARLIN..Sep 13.7.12AM

my sis son ( I have avoided saying nephew as it lakes the depth)
he just boarded metro for his first day at his job at gurgaon

I have experienced the happy moments
after a couple of yrs together

I visualised this happiness
may be over the life

probably I have evolved
feel happiness
but here gene language plays its definitive part

job is such a thin
I never realised

I go to my own office
but never felt its infinite equations
what might be around

I know the ephemeral quotient
but denial is not the point

probably
its the way to live life
a fresh

INFLOURESCENCE..SEP..12.10.10.15.AM

my this land of verbatim of thunders of intellect
probably the incestant rains have a lot to say
what goes to the making and unmaking of us

Whilst I search hard
to see a mirror
whom I can relate to

the mirrors I chose
over the times
it proved too opaque
to withstand the test of time

fault finding
its not the nerve of souls
with the fight to the finish
at the core

I still strive my toddling steps at Vijay Chowk
eves takes their own time to come

I have probably resiled back
with the waives


why a heart looks for effervescence at their own making and unmaking
I do search day and night

INVERTED SPRUCE...Sep ..11

when the world is deliberating on faith, peace and war, love vs hatred
I am busy at finding moments to feel relevant at heart and nerves together

is it with every one around
probably yes

the equations may be different
but scenario remains
more or less the same

loosing faith in development
it serves the negative purpose

but what is the development

may be anything that is of worth

I see the tulips
and can feel the rosy environs around

is it
that I have bypassed it
by a de facto cardinal

may be true

well!! making tulips at heart of hearts
its too tough equation
to arrive at
as the whole hell changes
the thunderous floods of time
it simply makes the dunes of wishes vanish

as if nothing stood anywhere around

so I find

as the morning and nights
play a truant game with each other

but who is responsible for the twisty twirly of the fait accomplish

probably my own decisions