THORNY MAGNOLIAS..19.6.10.10.23.PM

probably one thing is not taught to us at our formative days
its the art of living

may be the tutors themselves are hard enough to effervesce at too odd things around

how to visualise the life with competitive spirits
whilst not loosing heart at happy nerves

its beyond apprehensive equations
every heart is possessed with different prowess

that may be the trigger
of whirlpools around

we fall at the first eventuality

I was searching the success fairy

why its magnetised by the unworthy entities

evolution is random and in multifarious directions and intensities
so may be
what we were observing
might have gone a step ahead silently

or the environs around
may be
a chance factor

why this bullshit chance factor

I was putting my steps too slow
the scorchy heated environs around vijay chowk
and the disciplined peoples in dress waiting to board
the standing buses

where is your bullshit bus
I never noticed

I know I have never tried to locate

reasons may be too many

but why the hell !!
I should tell you

so my heart talked to me
till I was realised to look straight by the sudden breaks of the speeding cars

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THORNY MAGNOLIAS..19.6.10..1.48.pm

I was searching
the moment I got up to myself

til day
I am searching
but I am standing to myself

where the whole has got lost

I search every nanon around
at the other end of horizon

one day
I saw you
found you may put me in shape

I got too accustomed to
as I am obsessive
the shapes are not in tune to

I thought your shadows
may be
its the one thing

I search every day and night

my obsessions remained
the shallow of thoughts

but I do remember
it was with me
all the way

I search with different conotations
as if
one day
you're shadows
shall bring me the search

I really intend to

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THORNY MAGNOLIAS..19.6.10.1.34.AM

I am listening to a female heart centric song " how shall I beautify my eye lashes with black pencil- English translated thought of a Punjabi folklore."

my heart asks me
how the hell!!
its not your way of life

but probably it has forgotten
once you remember a heart beyond
it becomes of your own

my system says
come on
lets go to bed
its already early morning hrs

me a die hard
I know
the conflicts shall never see
eye to eye
to my reality crunch

probably I have got accustomed to the eccentric nerves
at my heart
brain too

but who am I
I ask too much of me
as if you ask me
through the medium of unseen

and me & U loose the identity
for ever to come

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LIFE BEYOND LIFE..18.6.10.9.35.PM

the title picture belongs to a part of serene African continent
it feels like Yamuna of gone by era
too crystal clear as the waters bring life to us

today is different equation
all around
like the love of day
flickering at the event of events
at hand or otherwise

I crossed vijay chowk as usual
with history running like super fast soft prog

I did realise whole of it
and you too

my moments
ridden with conflicts
to find a meaning
at my hand
and beyond

the ideal is no where to look around
I do realise every other seconds
as the crunch takes its own toll

I feel
may be
its more relevant and close to my heart

I look deep into the title picture
again
find me all around
with full of relevance
with you
at my heart

looking for an other green grass

whilst I do know
I shall have to move
on and on

with or without you

may be I am more evolved at my heart
but I feel
what I learnt
I have to learn\
till further

for

may be
bereft of green grass

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LIFE BEYOND LIFE..16.6.10..11.22.PM

today it was a day of reconciliation at my heart

I have completely resiled to what is happening
with no evolution at the psyche

does it mean I shall leave the concept of development

I was discussing the other day
the ultimate truth surrounding us

I constrained myself to put the reality in too horrific way

if we combine whole of the know how of the world in one go
and mix it with the spiritual aspects of life

the output is something really soul stirring

its a fact we exist in two basic forms
the bio multi complex and the plasmatic entity

the later part has its own independent energy level
it grows with the strengthening of the soul
a soul practically gets more stronger in tune with the interlocution quotient

but the process is endless

so is the biological process
except one thing the bio is finite in nature
whilst the plasmatic isn't

but where is the process /entity of our Nature/supreme power/god

its somewhere inbetween the plasmatic entity and the basic fundamental forces of universe

the psychiatric aspects of happiness , self realisation/actualisation are something more complex at their inception level
the bio driven cardinals are steerable through scientific world but the plasmatic entity cannot be controlled /steered by scientific aspect.

its where the para-sceintific play a crucial role

so do we need to develop upon these factors
as far development is concerned

probably yes
as its a truth
that lives with us
beyond the entity of space and time

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Humse Aaya Na Gaya Tumse Bulaya EnhAudio 1

life beyond life 13.6.10 10.54pm

Ajay Ahuja good heart is often tumbled by sophisticated brokers

Ajay Ahuja

while they enjoy the heart remains busy singing realities

Ajay Ahuja

good heart is a bad quality? depends if u can notice who the broker(s] is are & what disguise (may be ur closest )0?///

Ajay Ahuja

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