life beyond llife..13..6..10

i have No ke board
but the show must go on

u''r colorful candles

my silent soul
combine is Good

but taxing


u search to put one more

i hide my tithered realties

as if

its another part

of my office affilates

source=ships

LIFE BEYOND LIFE..June.09.10..3.09.AM

Amrita Pritam a Punjabiat writer has a short novel as her jewel ; it's known/entitled as " madi da dya" in chaste punjabi

story moves like this: leading male character who is well educated of the time line falls in love with the leading heroine who as pressurised by the system decides to marry a person according to her parents/clan likes etc. The constraints depicted are real life time and mind stirring. She puts her best to convince the lover to forget her and have a real thought on the constraints. But she as well as the lead charachter both understand that love has taken real roots in their inner psyche. The lead male character dies after a long life of pains and dejections. One day the beloved takes a earthern "dya"/=candle ; get it lit and slowly moves on and on til she reaches the site where he is buried unceremoniously. She could not stop her tears and faints almost at the reality lit large.

the novel is heart stopping

I do not know reading punjabi but English version is some times constrained with exact translation and cache of the thoughts.

it 's not the time to get up
but your thoughts have made me rise and make the pad run

today morning hrs are extremely important as a meeting is already scheduled which I have to attend as obligatory official duty.
I tried to make preparations for it in the evening itself

but probably your vaccum at my heart put a stop to all the stuff at my hand

but I don't want to become a "madi da dya"

however the reality is dragging me towards that only

source: shipra.v

LIFE BEYOND LIFE..June.8.10..8.45.PM

today as the army discipline takes sharp on closing the office
die hard souls like me
they simply pack up
just like you can't sit in a theatre after the show end

way back
Pines on Vijay Chowk looked more robust
showers make the greens look romantic

one of them did ask me
stay with me
I'll give you a better company
and heart too

I smiled with no steps short of my intentions
but I did recall their emotional equations
togetherness and affiliations put together

plants are more related to each other
as advanced sciences prove to us of late

humanes are least affiliated
they go for the conveniences of concepts like security,norms,protocol,systems etc
including ofcourse the well known aspects of money etc

but today Pines did put a change at my heart

I felt more alone with the crowd around

probably my affiliations towards you , are going stronger and more as the day passes
I do know the reasons : but since its a whirlpool
I try to remain cool at heart

soon I felt I am creating more vanity at heart by taking your absence in the crowds as a die hard fact

but truth was too evident
in spoiling my mood

you can say
my writing habit is a tool to alleviate my mood nonetheless


but I fall to another vacuity later on

as the system accustomed heart hardly depend on obsessions

in metro beauties are all around

I did ask why don't you focus on these ones
they are as live as shipps is

I simply got jostled

by the fact
it meant loosing you
out of my inner psyche

source:::shipps:::::::::::::

INFLOURESCENCE..June.7.10..9.34.PM

I am having black tea
its good
today I got it from Naval Canteen

I picked a lot stuff
some were meant for you

I asked for a bag
but they said it has been stopped as of now

I dropped whole of the stuff
and handpicked only the tea

I was not bothered
I knew I can't give that stuff to you

I was strolling my way on Vijay Chowk
drizzling made people run
but I was enjoying like a romantic movie

all around hilly odour reminded me a lot

I enjoy this as it gives me a feel closer to you

this moment
its a better lot

I was just feeling not so good
so I thought
let's talk to you

sometimes it feels like so good
but I don't know why its so momentarily

today I was lazy at work
probably I will get momentum tomorrow

I generally keep the pending work load
just in front of me
as if some waive length comes
that makes me understand the issue at stake
and ways and means to draft the reply

whilst at CAO office
I was working in a different capacity
its a heavy duty work over there too
but at present my work is a lot lot more taxing

sometimes its so taxing
I fail to get any idea
how to start drafting reply

but I am a real hard worker
when I start
I run my pencil so fast that my seniors simply don't believe the speed
but they do express their delighted mood at my expertise

one day I was detailed to a global meet on 4th generation of warfare

I asked my boss if he wants a short analysis of what was focused in the symposium
he replied yes ofcourse;

my short and lucid way of writing evoked his wonderful ways of expressions

do you know what he said
" Sir Ahuja- you're a genius par excellence"

I smiled
and saw your face
well printed on my cerebellum

source:::::::::::shipra.v::::::::::::::

INFLOURESCENCE..June.6.10..11.38.PM

another passe of struggles
as superimposed

wishes thronged to the other end of efforts

You see my love!!

tomorrow morning
it'll be day relevance
not liked but the most adequate

you shall be confronting another eve of pc surfing
me running my pencil run fast to draft the letters/notings

have you ever wondered
your pc and my pencil
they do ask each other
thro' the system of nanons

look how stupid these hearts are
have the best
but remain as apart as celestial entities

I am a fast worker
but takes a lot to put my thoughts together
my boss assumes as if I am slow at decision making

I never challenge his mind
but I know
slow decision is a strategy privy to the selected few

but your slow decision
it has brought havoc
I'll be negotiating
till I breathe last

every moment
I change my colours
and paint the nerves
to remain happy and relevant

DRDO canteen lunch time is probably where I try to glance all the faces in one go
you may happen to like their stuff

its not that I have landed from Mars
but I do remain in air
to realise your love

so I make the crunch look romantic
every available time
I do see through my window

you may stumble out
in my visible range

some times
I find hard
at different faces around

probably my crunch
makes my nerves retire
with reclusion

But I only think about you
at every sharpening of my pencil

that I do so often

its makes my notes more illegible
and brings you more closer
as the seconds run over each other

but I'll tell you later
why I use only lead pencil
whilst writing my notes

source:::::::::::::shipps::::::::::::::::::::::::::

NAKED SOUL..June.6.10.10.50.AM

my scintillating emotion engaging you in real world
fetches two things
on calculable scale

your ghost makes my time negotiable, relevant, pulsating and worth living
particularly on sats , sundays and every evening hrs

it also brings the magnetic storms of stuff who feel male and female relations are primarily driven by sex instincts

I have clearly wrote so many times that its a hard fact love and sex has no relationship at all

probably its Greek to all except the blessed souls around

love makes you see live the bliss of Nature lit large
you're comfortable even at 50+ C and 20 - C
most barren and desolate places look wonderful and relevant
making the life your own moments

this is not at all present at the other factor

love is omniscient, omnipresent, ever lasting beyond the scale of time and space

well!!
love is most of the time one way traffic only

you'll wonder
what is this nonsense: you want to tell me

probably you need extra effort to understand this

our existential world/including the cosmic spiritualistic world is run by two basic forces :

momentum and system : this is relevant in all faculties and fields of knowledge and tech

its dynamic equilibrium makes the real life; generally visible to us

in case of love

this equilibrium is too hostile and volatile

so the blessed souls can sustain such a rough and high sea

source:::shipps:::::::::

DUST STORMS..June.5.10..6.33..PM

ill equipped heart
trapped in reality crunch

finding its ways
keeping intact
what is not at his hand

step by step
every day
counting mechanical ways

how much time may ask

where I can find you

whilst it knows
where you can be

its own constraints
making a cobweb
of its own web

asking itself
where my love has lost

realising its inside it
but have no communication links
with its interiors

the oblivions of your find
making it run all from

what is mine
and
the niche of its own

searching deep in the Blue
as if
you are descending from
step by step

closer every moment

spell of dust
showers like Magnolian petals
lit large in the wild

it making its own wilds
asking
every moment
your are just at arm's length

another spell comes
it closes its eyes

as if
it intends to give
surprise of your find

opens its finds
see every dust particle
and a name on it

resembling your one

asking to itself
who might have
this miracle of unseen

that remains to be seen

dust retires
on its on

buts it still waits
for its dust storms

that brought your name
closer and closer to heartsource:::::::::shipra.v:::::::::::::::