SWIMMING SOUL..June.5.10.12.59.PM

hours of today
a different stuff with me
I am not that mystic

went down a few steps
I hardly do marketing
Defence Canteen suffices my purpose
but that too I visit too rare
people on the other side of counter
they know me by my official status
every other week I am detailed for inspection
whilst inspecting the stock
I hardly forget you

you'll wonder
what for

I look at the cosmetics
and curse the Almighty
why you're not with me
there is hell of stuff meant for you
at least I shall have my own moments
having some of the exotics

you remember
one day
whilst you were running your fingers to locate your official data

I was standing confronting you
looking and searching in your eyes
what's there that magnetises me

you chose only to observe me
like me
I am too introvert
but you should have provoked me to come out of this habit

I am capable of sophisticated converse
this time my boss gave me 10 out 10 for capability to communicate in My ACR for period ending March 2009.
I just stopped asking my Military boss
probably you should have written my ACR

he often stops short asking who is that heart
for whom I remain lost all the time with me

One day he did get the nerves and asked
what you like to do at such sort of life style

I said you just look at my website : you'll will know my world of wonders

sometimes he gives me oblique reference of yours
why don't you go and see her

I remain reply less

he whispers: shall I call her : give me her number
if you don't have one : I can arrange from my Army hierarchy

I just smile
he knows the depth
so he feels constrained to ask further

but he did say yesterday before proceeding on one month leave

AHUJA Sir: I want to help you sincerely

I again smiled
instead asked
Sir, give me some tips which you want should be my focus point for works in your absence

he looked straight into my eyes
became serious : I am a person in dress but don't you forget I know the pains of your heart

I again smiled
he shook hands and said: OK !! we'll meet after a few days

source:shipra.v

DROPPING EYES..June.05.10.12.46AM

I have chosen a moment
my eyes are in fact bio-driven fainting
reasons are
my psychiatric medicine has got on full stream by this time
your vacuum at my heart
your poor choice in rejecting me
bad nerves at your whelms in deciphering the good heart
going for system driven psychological constrained decision

but the biggest suspense is
whether one day
your decision shall change the tides and sides together

fathomless part is
whether I write to entice you
in a psychological magnetic syndrome to shift the sides

well!!
one day you shall be in my world of happenings

my dropping eyes seem to say like that only
my FM is airing such songs only

truth, reality and future may be hidden on the other part of horizon
my heart is struck to you
it's sad at your decision
making my eyes more dropping
and me finding hard to write my thoughts

but what shall happen
If my longing for your love is high jacked by constraints of reality

my brain says
hell!! with your bullshit philosophy
please let me sleep
It's difficult to sing a song for ever

and me the die hard
still struggle to keep awake
with little of eyes opened
running my pad to paint your world
as of mine

source: :::ships::::::::::::::

SHADOW OF REALITY..June.5.10.10.14.PM

a few seconds earlier
I was talking to my niece hooked to her cell at Bombay
Ironically she only, took the initiative to ring me up

I am very slow whilst talking thro' my heart
sometimes its that slow like, as if I'm too deep at soul

I was searching your profile pictures simultaneously
as the gaps of converse were too big seconds wise

but I do all the time yarn for your call

I tell you one thing
my voice at cell is extraordinary sweet and touching to the heart
if you find enough courage
talk to me
you will have one of greatest wonder of the world

but I will be too slow while talking

I have a question at my brain
what shall I talk to you

I write so much for you
Its more than that of a Doctorate degree at all the fields of know how put together

you must be aghast at your heart

who the hell this stuff happens to be around

but one day
it will be
more than Kalidas "Abhigyanshakuntalum" and Tagore's "Gitanjali"

but that day is too mystic to myself

time may retire
but
I shall keep my pen/pad running
in finding
Daffodils
from thy love

source:::::::ships:::::::::::::

SWIMMING SOUL..June.5.10.7.58 PM

I generally look my first page of your orkut profile
every eve's relevance of mine
you shall ask
hell!!! with you
there is hardly anything to look at

but probably you are too short at nerves
my real intention is to say you
hi!! my love!! how are you

I know this is a stupid question

today I got focused to the Maxican oil gulf leak stopage success
probably I was at full streams of happiness
a rare happening with me

you may construe
your profile views don't bring me happiness
I simply do it instinctively

is that
I love you
so instinctively

probably true

it would appear too mystic to your nerves

but my way of brain and heart
its probably beyond you

I know
you are poor at poetry

but I don't think I write the poetic way

the day went with tough nerves running the roost

but I forget all once I step on vijay chowk from sena bhawan side

life takes different kaleidoscopic colours to me

I enjoy your ghost walking step in step with me

source::::Ships::::::::::::

SWIMMING SOUL..June.5.10.7.56 hrs

this event
probably not in my stars
as I am believed to know

you are super specialist bio-tech heart
why the hell you fall prey to such thoughts
my brain opines too soft

but one thing my brain is ignoring hard
I am jealous lover
of the love

are you sure
its your love
now it retorts back

I take a deep breath
look at you

I know I will not come to your room
just to see you

I know it makes no sense at all

but I do know
from the very inception
I have got high jacked by your love

I have denied to myself
all the way

hell!! with you
my brain is angry by this time

you're creating problems for you

I look to the horizons

ask if
when it wasn't around

source:::ships!!!!!!!!!!:::::::::::::::

shadow of reality..June..4.10

I have asked my brain
stop your equation
with your heart

my nerves make a tough laugh
at the possible corners

I am constrained
at every moment

see you
all around

why your Shadow
doesn't stop stalking me

every second
I start
fall before the start

why it happens so
why a heart
gets
what it deserves least

I search the pages
know how belie its own frontiers

me the docile
shoots to another fall

your thoughts
the magnetic swirl pools
I struggle hard

keep me in shape
to the mundanes

but my heart
it remains hooked to
the shadows
coming from you

why you have let
your aura to spread so fast

unbridled
leveling my every effort
to remain at distance

you have chosen
the choices of yours

why you come striking me hard
if you had this ultimate
weapon to strike

my soul
it says
cool down

things shall take shape

I wonder
at its wisdom

as
I am hardly
with a shape

bereft of thy

every time I fight back
but it never ends

is that
I have to do
the whole hell

of your spell
around

Nature is cruel
injustice have lit large

whilst you're smiling

at my pieces
all around

source:::shipra. v

SWIMMING SOUL..June.4.10

a day after I could feel
things are over for good

see the beauties around
bereft of your own one

some one has encaged her
by default

and you have happened to have no means
to change the equations
in your ways

I was introvert at my things around
looked as if
a thunderstorm shall change

I know it has to come one day


you're that optimistic
just for nothin

your love is lost
on the horizon

the die hard system
it has proved the wits

I was running my pencil
to make good the today's work at hand

it shall stand the way it is

reverberations
around and near

I remained silent
thro' out the day

work is my equation
you may not be there

but you simply can't
win at one front

your thoughts and aura
that's mine only

source:::::::::::!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:::::::::::::::!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!