BLACK ROSES..CONTD..April.23.10

I am again hooked to a movie whose title is again off my system

why certain moments of ours get so engraved in psyche
and the consequent shadowing of the rest of life available

but probably life is still beyond that
crux is whether we happen to actualise it at all
many ifs and buts

why the wrhirlpool gets us too often

a face in the crowd
too invisible
but we are focused at

visualising all the way
at corner
may be many corners at the time with us

I take my metro
every day start and end

search you somewhere around

I know you can't be there

the mirage well known to interiors

but remains a reality as if I live about

why I search you
whilst I know
its your prime moments somewhere else

"Anjali" its the title lead heroine-being performed by Kajol

is it that
I look like
as if

summer camps are all around

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BLACK ROSES..April.22.10

trap of my own makings
is it the one
happens to
the vibrant heart

defeat brings
another arrival

may it happen so
in another world

what's that stuff
shall it bring
my heart closer
a bit to realise

I ask every second

stop short
sliding the ways

find meaning
at the other end
of a heart

beyond self
bereft of
agonies
effervescence too

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BLACK ROSES..APRIL.21.10

me and my room
one of office
another for night shelter

work stress and an array hazy fathomless challenges
and the other side of vacuum lit large

I search me
worth being an alphabet nonetheless

I have searched your aura
but found an array of opportunism to the extremes

I seek alibis

surf hard of what I have

put the bubbles
at all corners

it dries up at the whims of winds

I am left with another definitions

me and my room
twins blades of my existence

I stride my way

keep the intact too hostile

manufactured relevance

me and my rooms
of existence and oblivion's lit large

I've the later part

again to fight back

and often ask myself
for what

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DREAM MAN..April.19..10

the so called tharur cauldron and show buzz of second marriage + the foreign camouflage of Chinese adventurist moves is probably the blue words written on the wall

Chinese aggressive postures are too evident and need to be tackled by home grown R&D adventure; The deadliest smiling enemy on the eastern sector can never be ignored. Planner should put a system of private/civil brain power with an innovative zeal with a backdrop of govt support.

the thrarur syndrome is an offshoot of modern concept of effervescence getting adulterated by rising aspiration quotient. The protocol should be maintained at all costs: the young adventure prone brains have to learn a lot

the 2nd marriage drama highlights the fathomless inequalities in Indian personal laws: the genesis of unequal growth graph and consequent the blackmailed polity of Indian scene. Planner and strategists should apply brains to remove the growing hiatus vis a vis Hindu personal law. The failure shall serve another historic blunders like mandalisation of Indian socio-politico-economic cauldron.

the ideal man/dream man of masses and the beauties has one thing in common: the exotic looking dummies: does it mean the females by default are a foolish lots around: truth need to be hidden if going by the Darwinism and latest researches on somatic hybridisation is concerned.

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INFLOURESCENCE..April,17.10..11.10PM

today I was at my special duty
female of AFHQ civil service are not entitled for this privileged engagement

reasons may be beyond the scope of this article

this little cute girl can ever enthuse the volcanic e-world to throb to the pulsating pc world: I couldn't imagine.

u may wonder a lot with MBA status : but for me its more than that: probably some thin beyond apprehension cardinals.

but it has been a start only
probably its some thin I touched in today's prose

of course the living characters have replaced the ever evolving world of a heart : ridden with fathomless beauties

probably time never matures
that's what some of the thins come out of it

u may be metamorphosing every nanonic second
to live with this cute heart

I at a distance
see the kaleidoscopic horizons

with some of u
others too evident

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BLACK ROSES..CONTD..April.17.10

At the moment : I am hooked to a movie at MAX channel "dil to pagal hei": I hope its the correct tittle of the movie: I have seen this one under epic moments of mine: this moment come under what category: its big IF:there have been too many such moments:may be much more related to ones I shall have to interpret in stupid nuances.

movies as generally understood have fathomless relevance to our inner lives hidden hard under deep subconscious psyche: the offshoot literally govern our entity in totality to the extent making us a zero or hero at day end of the throbbing heart at our disposal and much beyond too.

At my high fi office: the factor of analysis prowess and presentation works the roost+the e-savory nerves.
but this is equally relevant throughout where I or U happen to thrive.
but the equations isn't so simple: my heart intervenes like a big veteran (Armed Forces).: the equations don't stop so simple.The eventuality of live interwoven hazy nerves never take it so simple.: making the end so enigmatic and full of uncertain romantic eventualities and "block busters" etc etc........how this bullshit love happens and how its survival equations play a truant over the space and time.

movie may have its so many sides but so is the real heart's inhibitory equations none the less least knwon to us.

but what I mean to say : out of this hi fi English philosophy:

just go reading

one day may come

things may glow with more vibrant value much more relevant as previously understood by you: and ofcourse:

ME TOO

MAYA: THIS IS THE UNDERLINING THEMATIC WORD OF THIS MOVIE: Is this only the word or world in itself

best of luck: for the one who can make out of it

BLACK ROSES..April.17.10..8.08AM

its not only u
the inquisitive crossroads
disdain throbbing the last ends
the ways are different

sometimes I wonder
what a Love can fetch me
My own words are beyond the Love quotient

I am chronic introvert
silent by temperament
need no company
happy at the worst scenario

then why I feel your absence in my live environ
if at all its equable to the live conotations

I search and research

I stop literally to get trapped in Love syndrome
the reasons pertain to pre-hand results quotient

is that I use my obsessions to keep me fit to fight the nuances of ever evolving world and to fight the onslaught of vaccum striking at every neuron
on the slightest stir of the air

reasons may be too simple
well known to the corners of my heart
of my obsession
and of your disdain and aversions

I am laser focused at my calmposed nerves
whilst surfing my way

in the dark
lights together

howsoever I know
I live in absolute hallucinations

bereft of reasoning
to the last nerves

that too
my words are Greek to your Psyche

but one day
your ghost will fight an endless array
where to put my words
haunting through the universe

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